| Still Not Understood I want to bear witness I want to see your face I want to see your eyes I want to see your mouth, your lips so soft I want to stroke your dark hair for days I want to smell your essence I want to find your heart Your mind Your soul I want to discover your beauty I want to stroke your soft skin I want to bathe in your light You keep me going each day Your glowing visage a means to continue Your eyes no distinct colours are still deep I don't see them I am in them Swimming But drowning in their clear waters Your breath is soft, subtle and sweet I want to hold you, kiss you, and drown in you Be at one with you Take you by the hand and lead you But you lead me as I wish to follow Enchanting is your whole person If I didn't know you, I'd know that� That you're the one I wish to have To have, hold, love and cherish I want what you want Which is not in unison with me It tears at me, destroys me But I can't get you out of me I hold you deep within my heart still You are why I still breathe I breathe for you And you me But one day I know this cord will break And once again I know I'll be alone While everyone else is coupled and swooning It sickens me to see it But I don't want it over I am not some unfeeling ogre But as I feel, it eats me through I don't want to continue But at the same time I do What should I do my intrigue? My heart My reason Why must this linger on so Is it just residual memory? Or is this still a plague? A plague in me that won't go away I seem fine you and all But I can't help but still think of you And your perfect beauty I still love you But I'm in love with my memory of you Now when I'm around you Your impact is slight Only sexual But in my mind it's all different Shall I continue to linger about this issue? Or should I give it up now? Forever forget you? Your name, heart, soul, you? I cannot, will not But in short time we shall be parted Which I fear for the new is not comforting Like your eyes, your tender nature If I could just hold you once it could be over But when parted, would this still be here? Or is first love forever? |