| I Don't Know How To Say This I didn't know why at the time But I loved you so I tried to speak but it ended as mime And I didn't want you to go I watched your face Memorised the detail Forever lost in this one place Emotions clattering down like hail Your hair was so soft Your skins so smooth and tender You eyes would take me aloft And all I wanted to do was hold you and surrender My instincts were raw I wanted to hold your love forever more But you never saw How surviving around you regardless was such a chore Your face was a vision of heaven I couldn't forget it in a million years I would have sinned for you, all seven But rejection, brought to tears Brutalised it seemed I sank within But memories can be cleaned However I knew not where to begin Lying alone in darkness Attempting to make sense As I ask forgiveness Breathing alone at my expense I did not want to hurt you And you did not me But you still don't have a clue How hard it was for me to be Sometime later, still trying to make it understood Comforted by few if any Nobody really could Help me out of the hole I see with many Unable to flee You left me forever thinking Do you see the heartache? Because I'm still hoping One day. |