| Home February 12th 2002 Rape Me Of All Cover me with your eyes Rape me Rape me of my virtue Rape me of my sin Slather your tongue-like fingers over me Rape me Rape me of all I have left Rape me of those I hold dear Inhale the scent of my body Rape me Rape me of my hopes Rape me of my dreams Beat me into the ground Rape me Rape me of my feelings Rape me of the emotions I cling to dearly Let me spit your taste from my mouth Rape me Rape me of my love Rape me of my love for you Sitting Writing In The Dark I am sat here in bed Writing with my worn and tired pen Writing in the dark as my torch flickers I let the sound of Nirvana filter into my head My head is unclear as to what It is I should be writing In this state of nothing I cannot think too straight Unable to think or process anything I love this girl who obsesses me I don't care for myself I don't even like my image Now Nirvana is fading out I must change the disc And continue with this forever writing in the dark I cannot stop this therapy I Just Replaced The Batteries My torch was growing dim So I changed the batteries They were fading fast So I tore them out The old ones were dead and struggling The new ones are not much better The old ones were leaking Spitting acid onto my tired hand I am still writing by torchlight And my writing is as scrappy as ever This just all flows through me Like the juice through those batteries The batteries needed changing They were worn and tired Nearing death and failing I changed the batteries with ease Others can recharge batteries Or buy in bulk and afford to waste But not with me I just wish my batteries were so easy to change My Crippled Hand My hand is growing weak The muscles are tense My fingers are awkward And the joints are swollen and dark Without my hands I cannot speak The weight on my mind without them would be immense My thoughts and progress are backward My fingernails are like teeth of a shark Filed to points, my blood begins to leak My inadequate feelings is all I can sense But my pen still moves forward Leaving my mind with a blackened mark During this time I seek Seek for what will end the suspense My hand is aching and I am still bored Of this and everything - I want to lie in the dark I Cannot Stop It It's been going on since first rejection My obsession with you You are a mythically proportioned you Jaded of my kind I want to have you all to my lonesome self But I have been cast away And I am drifting away Clutching to my failing torch to guide me in the dark You are so funny You are so sweet You are so beautiful You are so perfect - why can't you see me seeing this? For quite some time I have loved you And you still do not know of this feeling For I am too shy and quiet And you are too good for me I must make amends for lack of communication And express myself more often to you I can do it on the highway of zeros and ones But when confronted with you, I stop Last Night Last night I talked to you I chatted away without a care As if I was always capable of such things But I talked to you on the net You were displeased with yourself But I re-assured you You are perfect - at the very least in my eyes But they are not wide open to show you all of me You are so smart, funny and attractive But I feel like your negative Never to be drawn in by you You'd never want me that way - only some other guy There are others who are like me with you And you don't know Is ignorance bliss? Because knowing this is not - I am falling apart I have been trying to take my mind off it But it's not working You have infiltrated my everything And I just can't stop dreaming of you You In my eyes you are perfect Can you hear me screaming your name? And can you hear me weeping without you? Never to hold you Never to have you Over and over I scream and shout, but To no avail Living this lie is destroying me all over I've never felt this since rejection prior Verbose I am in my head and text to you Everytime I see you I cease to function In my mind you are always there Now and always You are burned into me Over my body I am branded by you Undercover I love you so dearly Roaming the outside I only watch you intending Always will this be secret Because you will never know Sharp are the daggers slicing my skin Erotically tearing me away from disappointment coming Now all I can think of is you Seared into my eyes Even in my dreams, you are there To The Point I won't drag this out We know each other And I can't think of anything but you Now I just want you Till I die - always and beyond You won't want me Of course - I won't try to win you Under this mangled mess I shall lie My Broken Back My spine snapped long ago And I cannot move And I cannot breathe And I cannot feel My spine is warped and twisted And I cannot blink at night And I cannot shift my thought And all I do is lay here - head stuck in position static My spine is weakened too much And now I cannot bear it anymore And now you come and visit And now you plant a kiss on me My spine incapacitated me And now I am paralysed And now I cannot talk And you visit me everyday unaware My spine is gone and I am tortured And you warm touch heals my head And now I want to tell you And now I move to do so - and now I die My spine made you unaware My spine killed me My spine will keep you in the dark around me My spine never let me say it to you Please stay with me a while |