I put Jackson to bed and retired to my room. My day had been exhausting. It wasn't Jackson that made me tired. My emotions drained all my energy. Why did Nick have this effect on me? I worked hard not to fall into his spell. A knock at the door, brought me out of my thoughts. "Come in."
"Hi Rachel. How was your first day?"
"I loved it. Jackson is adorable. It was nice seeing Kevin and your mom."
"I'm glad you are enjoying yourself. I wanted to invite you to go out on the boat with us tomorrow."
"Thanks but you and Jackson should spend some time together."
"Ok. You're free for the day then. We'll be gone until early evening. You don't have to make dinner, we'll most likely eat out somewhere." He looked disappointed as he walked out of the room. I felt bad, but I wasn't able to let myself get to close to him. As much as I loved him, I didn't want to get hurt.
The phone rang. "Hello Carter Residence."
"Hey Sweetie. What's up?"
"Not much. I miss you baby."
Not as much as I miss you. I wish I was holding you in my arms. How's life at the Carter's?"
"Good. Jackson is adorable and sweet. How was your day?"
"Fine, except not being with you. I just did my rounds at the hospital. Nothing exciting happened. Does Nick know about us?"
"No."
"Why can't you tell him you have a boyfriend? I mean you don't like him in that way. It's just a job." He was getting upset. I didn't even want to talk to him about Nick or my life in Florida.
"Because I wouldn't have gotten the job, and he didn't ask. I am going to tell him soon. I promise."
"You better. I miss not seeing you. I want to visit you. Pittsburgh's not the same when you're not here."
"You're to sweet. Call me on my cell phone the next time you call. I don't want Nick finding out before I tell him about you."
"Ok. I don't see the big deal but I will do it for you. Well I got to go study. I love you."
"Back at you. Bye." I couldn't tell a man I didn't love that I loved him. Things were just beginning to get back to normal for me, when He had to call. I wanted to breakup with him, but I couldn't get the words out. I loved Nick.
I tossed and turned all night long. Ny thought were on Nick, not sleep. What had I gotten myself into? Did I make the right decision?
