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   For starters, im 5'10, 160 pounds, blonde hair and blue eyes. The things i enjoy the most are writing, painting, and spending time with my girl friend when I acually care to have one :P. Things that I dislike are rather simple. I dont like people that run thier mouth with out any logic reason what so ever. People that think that they are beter than any other given person. People that put others down for anything they do.
    I grew up mostly all other the south. I remember Alabama, where I learned to play war games, write, and spent alot of my early years in school there. Its where I learned to roller blade, kickbox, martial arts, and more about what friendship was supost to mean than anywhere elnse.
    Flordia, where I learned to care about animals, had my first pet turtle, and catapiller. Where I learned that life isnt always as simple as it would seem to be, or as fair as it should be. Its were I learned that my child hood was the most important thing that I will know for a long time, and that one should not spent thier early years planning out what to do as an adult, but live it up as though ever day awas your last. Soon enough you will become an adult and everything elnse will fade but the memories that are held with in your head alone.
    And finnaly North Carolina. I learned here how beutiful this earth can acually be. And on the other hand how cold it is as well. This is where I learned to love, learned passion, romance, wisdom, and many other skills that will always be with me. I learned about girls here. =D   And on the other hand I learned about weman. Big differance there. I learned lust as well as i have love. I was tought pain, and torment here. I learned to love the later seasons and wish that they would go on forever drowning out the summer and spring. I learned what it takes to survive on my own. And that the stars are your best friends deep into the night, when you are alone and cold. I learned to cry here, and to laugh. And that familys dont always stay together. That sometimes the people you love the most are taken away from you. And I learned about God and the church. About people that are so close to you, yet so far away. And how prayer can calm even the worst storms that rage inside ones head.

How to begin here. My mind, in all its ignorance has grown to become some what of a challenge with each new day. New things are added and old things are erased. For the most part my mind is the part of me that is bairly ever convensed. My girlfriends worst enamy lies with in my head. And as so with her, also my own worst. My mind is always looking for a logical explanation for everything. Its on the track of always needs to know. Never let things be, or a just because. There is always a reason. My mind I would say is the strongest element of my body. Its the gate way to all the emotions that I feel. And the key holder to my life. One could possably never under stand what goes on inside my head. This i hold not to anyone, for I can bairly grasp its thoughts at time. My mind has sent me crying deep into the rain on a cold fall day, praying to the stars, and shouting as loud as my lungs could grasp air for. Yet at times its as peacefull as a lake on a summers day.
Holding so many thoughts with in it. So many deeply stored memories, soom good, alot more bad. Its the controller of my life. Of the three parts that make up me, My mind controlls half of everything that I do, The other two is heart and soul. My heart, solid gold. My most prize passetion. Never yet totaly possesed by anyone, is held with in the center of my chest. Fragile and weak, though beats with more hope than a thousand men fighting for freedom. And my soul, The very roots of who I am. Final desitions made long ago, hold true there with in my soul. To get to my heart, you must first reach my soul. My standards, my hopes, my dreams, all come from here. The very basis of my life. With these three elements combined, is where I dare deam for love. A wall built around each, getting stronger with every move forward untill you finnaly break all of them down. And a true love is there behind all of them. A perfect, untouched, uncourupted, never expereanced emotion. For there will only be one that reaches this far with in me. For no greater emotions can be shared bewteen two people than this. And its a priceless emotion that even I cant put into words. Though I know that its a bitter sweet road that will one day be taken by me, and the one that I truely love.