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		i guess that one phrase has become my current dogma and catch phrase for the year (well that was 2000, so this doesn't really hold together all too well anymore, but that's ok). i don't quite understand or remember how i picked the phrase up or why i have grown so attached to it. i assume it started as a sarcastic (i'd like to think that i can be sarcastically witty at times and that sarcasm is my friend) way to vent my odd mixture of being a loner and my desire to be odd yet normal enough to be likable. i suppose i just wish i could be quirky and maybe just a little bit interesting. but now that i am pondering somewhat more deeply about what i think about when i use 'enjoy and have fun,' i think i mean that i should stop caring about whether or not i'm odd and to just do things if it is fun and enjoyable (hence the have fun and enjoy bit). though i remain thoroughly vain (especially recently for some odd reason, gazing at yourself in the mirror is just fun at times) and horribly careful about most things i do, i'm trying to reform. now i'm willing to be the first to randomly leave for no reason other than i just really don't feel like staying; and i'm willing to sit on the ground even if it is icky and dirty, just because standing around often doesn't accomplish much, plus i'm lazy that way. looking back at what i just wrote, i don't know if i should really be proud of the little change that has taken place in me, but hey i'm writing this, so that has to say something about my introspectiveness (actually i tend to be quite introspective, like whenever i am bored or trying to sleep, i berate myself about daily events or just think about odd moments in my life, just general saddening memories). so yeah, back to the 'enjoy and have fun,' two parts to it: 'have fun' - i guess just reminding myself to do stuff and get out of the house, and 'enjoy' - welcome the happiness that comes with doing stuff. hey, this stuff is almost making sense, ain't that so cool? in case you haven't noticed, most of what i write comes with little preparation (maybe a few choice opinions get a rough outline of desired arguments), and this one is especially malnourished in forethought. so yeah, have fun and enjoy, or enjoy and have fun.