what the fuck...

you think you know someone, but you have no idea what's going on. if you'd asked me sunday mourning who my friends were i would've told you something quite differant then i would tell you today. if you had asked me where i was going i could've told you. now, well, shits changed. shits totally off the fucking wall actually. i was completely wrong about everyone and everything. that's what happens when you get to sure of what's going on around you, life shifts it up when your not looking. a sick joke of sorts...
i think for the time being i'll just roll with it. try not to think to much and allow life to take me where it wants. even if it takes me somewhere none to good.
people are weird... you put your trust in one, but all along you shoul've chosen someone else. i've been thrown so many curve balls by people at this point, it's when i'm not surprised that surprises me...
in the end nothing even comes close to making scence...
wise man say "if one is searching for peace, one must examine all in his life, and say... 'fuck it!'"... 1