I was soooo tired yesterday, well I had my walkathon, after walking 8000m I was completely exhausted and want to just lie down under the grass and sleep. Anyway I still had a really good time with Annie, Liz, Marita and other girls. Afterwards I had a drink with my friend and we had a really good time together. At night I went to the youth group for Bible study. It was already after 11 when I get home, I even didn't have the energy to walk up the stairs to my room! I was completely sleep....zzz
ok, for today. I went Yum Cha with my grandparents then I went for a walk in the city. I have to start packing up too because I will go to Newcastle with my sister for a couple of days. I know it will be really boring but I CAN"T HELP IT! We already decide to bring play station and Vcds to watch. I must be pretty bored.......no internet.......>.<........sux...........
How long I haven't been to the dentist? Like a YEAR? I'm starting to feel ashame that even my sister is a dentist I get the chance of seeing one is moreover less than other people (Hey, I do even get braces). Anyway~ I'm going to see her tomorrow (driving to her clinic :)) Hope that she won't check any of my bad tooth......>.<
What to do in the weekends? Driving? Actually now I'm a bit addicted to it, it's like a leisure to me, since I have nothing to do (who will play sports with me! SOS), spending time with my parents is my greatest entertainment! Well~ I love them, always :)
I went to see my sister today, gee, good enough that my teeth was alright, or otherwise I'll need to pull out every single one of them! It's actually a really fun thing to see a dentist, I mean, the seats is really confortable, makes me even don't want to leave!
My sister rented the DVD of Zoolander and we watched it for the after dinner entertainment. It was actually more funnier than I thought, I really have to say it's one of the best comedy this year (last year?). Especially the DVD special features, it's awesome, I would really want to get that....but actually, the DVD that I would love to get is Ice Age and Monsters Inc. (am I a bit young for that?)
Few more hours to go and I'm off to Newcastle with my sister. I KNOW it's going to be really boring, since you can't do much, but it's always good to get away and take some fresh air from the city.
I don't know if I can make it on Tuesday to be back with my friends to celebrate Annie's birthday, but now I just want to say here "HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNIE!"
you're going to be 16! Wow, but in my heart you're always that tiny and cute! haha, I think probably I'll get a present for you in Newcastle. What do you like? I'll get you some fresh air haha......
If I start counting from today, I've just realized nearly more than 100 days it will be my 18th. Gee......why even I mention it? I don't even look like one. Well, at least I could get a license............my driving license....better not mention...haha
A really busy day for ALL of my family. First I had my "driving lessons" as usual, then daddy actually even let me drove across the harbour bridge! (the fact that it was my sister's car, I especially asked her if she had use any deodorant? Don't get the joke? forget it, you so dump) Anyway~ when there are 3 other professionals in your car you don't need to be scared at all, just drive.....haha! Any accidents? Not telling you!
After that we went to a warehouse (?) to choose a set of new blinds of the windows, my mum kept on asking me what I like, so I just picked a colour call "sth lilac snow", then they order that immediately.....it was actually for the whole house....oops~ anyway I like that colour.
Then at night we had dinner in somewhere? and my mum said the crab was quite crap (hey, it rhymes!), and she said she will never go there again. I don't eat lobster and crab, and allergic to prawns so seafood is usually out of my way. Anyway~ I had a nice and tired day.
Oh, forgot to add I saw Miffy in one of the shops in Chatswood today! She was so cute, but so expensive! Why now I'm starting to like Miffy, is it because everyone says I look like one? No way...
I'm so tired! After 3 hours of train and bus, finally back home from Newcastle. Honestly that was a pretty nice trip. At least "i was staying in the hotel for 2 days in row watching Vcds and doing nothing", that wasn't too bad actually :) Newcastle is a little town which I suppose has nothing to see, but since it is near sea the weather is warm and humid, not like now I'm back home with the freezing wind :( Anyway~ I decided to come home earlier is because I couldn't stand being in the hotel for the 3rd day (at least I want to do something right?) so, here I go back here.
What am I doing these days? Cleaning the mess? It's really messy at home. I do regret buying all the junk and stuff. Oh, forgot to tell I've just been to Dymocks and bought some colouring pens and a scrap book, plus presents for Annie and my sister. I hope they like it. It's always really trouble to buy presents for others. I never know what they really like. But as the same, honestly in some way I don't like receiving presents.....unless you forced me to receive it :))
. I just heard Ayumi's newest single "H", which she released 3 new songs - hanabi, independent and july 1st. Out of my surprise, those 3 songs are TOTALLY different from what Ayumi's style, but honestly, it's quite fresh for me. In those 3, my favourite is "independent", really heavy metal bass guitar kind of thing, really refreshing.
Recently reading a book call "Maestro", it's about a kid learning life from his piano teacher. It reminds me when I was a kid how much I hated playing the piano. I don't have ANY talent in music (actually I don't know what I'm talented in), but looking back, I felt fortunately because at least I know "something" about music, which won't made me felt too much left away when I'm talking with my friends.
Suddenly memories from the past keep on refreshing in my mind. I always think something deep inside my mind was gone for some reasons. Maybe I don't want to remember that at all. I guess what was that? Really, the more you want to remember, the more you'll forget. For me, I choose to forget.
What did I do today? I went to see Hacken Lee's Concert :) The tickets are actually free, so at first I thought "damn, it must be the ""peak seats""," but surprisingly, the seats were quite in the front, and the show was WONDERFUL! Hacken sang perfect pitch, and though I'm not a big fan of his, actually I know a lot of songs from him, especially his famous "red sun".
Um.......it was a good concert really, I really enjoyed it. I heard Kelly Chen is having hers here too soon! And she invited her brother Victor to be her guest! I must get her tickets and see the concert!
What a tired day. Suddenly I thought a lot about life. I don't know why, it's like when you're really bored you started to think. What's the conclusion? um.......life is beautiful?
Okay, Elfangor now is asking me what I should write in the diary. Then suddenly, I think I should write something about her......haha
My first impression of her....gee I even can't remember. What a quiet girl, she must be really "DUMB", and then like 2 mins later, it was totally wrong.........that girl was like the smartest girl I've ever made.
One thing special about her is she keeps on eating the same stuffs EVERY DAY! Yeah, every day with pork? and rice. Well I guess we had fun days together in St. Paul's. We always fight, like every day, and I always make fun of her (apparently), but she's like............um......
Now she's in one of the top school's in Boston? And she's doing "really well", I remember her school is so prestige that some kind of Prince was in it........
Anyway, she's always a nice friend to have.
Do you like my diary Elfangor? Now pay me the money!
What a nice day for me. Today is a great day because my parents are in the house with me! The first thing my mum said "What on earth have you girls make this house up too! What a mess!" Anyway~ I had a great meal with them and my dad started to teach me driving lessons. It's always better when daddy is with me, though still I have some problems with parallel parking. I'm looking forward to get my license this August. Am I going to make it?
Since my parents are here, life sure will be more fun........haha! Hey! I finally finished my 1000 puzzle. It's not easy, one of those mosaic ones, that means a thousand or little pics make up one BIG one. Mine picture is actually a dolphin........quite nice....sure sure :) I'm really proud :P
For today, I went to Centennial Park to roller blade for an hour. Honestly since the day I've bought my roller blades I haven't really play for it often. Not only roller, but like even for other sports I can't find anyone to play with. That's why I'm always so bored. I tried to play roller blade outside my house, but there is too much cars and traffic, that scares me. Now my dad can drive me to the park and while he is walking, I can play :)
I can't believe it, it's already another month? That means it's like another month to my yearly examinations (through my eyes I can see a pile even more thicker than the yellow pages of physics, chemistry, economics, maths..) I'm sure I'm going to die if I don't study......poor me, that means I'm going less time online now :(
Anyway, now in sitting comfortable in the school library writing this diary out. It's always good to get yourself a study lesson because you can always take a rest in school time, I"m really a bludger....
Today's lesson is as boring as possible. We could only spend a bit time in recess and lunch "gossiping" about the rumours in school. With my friends we share secrets like 'oh i hate that girl' or "Hey do you like that guy?" Nothing special. My school is like the smallest school in NSW. With the poor computer facilities, I reckon my 56k line modemn in home is even more faster than "this" cable, duh....
Okay, today is ANOTHER special day. Remember, today is MY SISTER'S BIRTHDAY! How old is she turning? I'm not telling you :) but I "assume" she's younger than me :)
I got a birthday card for her, which is a 3D one (so expensive, why did I get for her at the first place??), anyway~ as long as she likes it, it's fine with me. If you don't know, she is obsessed with pigs, yeah PIGS, why? don't ask me.
What a busy day today! Today I met my cousin (which I haven't meet for like, 10 years?) from NZ and we all went out to the city to have some fun. We watched a movie! Blade 2 actually was pretty good, though I haven't seen the first one, and I have NO idea what they're talking about except for vampires (i thought vampires should ALL be good looking....oh well~) It's a really good movie, if you're not scared of the deadly bodies, worms, spiders......
What happened to my message BOARD! It's gone, NO, it shut down! How dare they do this to me, anyway, this is a new one, is it better, no, but try to add a message. Anything will do, hopefully~
All my friends are feeling frustating because of the difficult topics in maths. Now we're learning calculus (yeah, dy/dx first second derivative finding the maximum minimum........) Anyway, everytime when they don't know how to do it they just freak out and get scared of it. That actuallyr reminds me of the days in Hong Kong.
Maths used to be my WORST subject. I cannot count! I hate my Maths teacher coz she's always teaching those Maths only suitable for genius. I wish I could be smarter, but I'm not. I work twice hard as other people, but I never get half of their results. Now that's what you call frustated. You have NO idea how many nights I spent my tears in pillows and got mad with my parents because of MATHS. "I'm going to drop maths if I could", that's what I say.
Well, now this is a totally different environment for me. I can manage most of them and feel comfortable about it. Maths actually became my favourite subject, "you just do it." I'm even going to try for the 4 unit maths (Maths have general, 2 unit, 3U and 4U). Now I'm doing the highest part. This is going to be real fun!
My advice to my friends who now have trouble in Maths and want to give me, I will say to them "Doesn't matter. You'll get this anyway, say for next year, you'll learn more stuff, then you'll think calculus is just a piece of cake" and I really believe in that!
Went for a body check today, the doctor got "that much" blood out of my body, I wasn't in much pain, it was actually "quite fun.
Finally finished the first part of EVOLUTION, my pics! Scanner finally work. Thanks to Dan, I mean, I really need someone good at computer so I can ask them to teach me skills.......
Only ond condition.....FREE
For today, it's a Saturday, as usual boring, that's why I'm goind bowlin tonight! I've tried a few times before, all of them were disasters.
For the first time, it's okay, I get a no.8 ball, lightest, ended up all going into the gaps. So I was like O points............
Second time, with my sis, lot better, I can hold a no.11 ball, and get a strike, in fact the opportunity cost is my precious nails. I can still remember afterwards all my balls goes into gaps.
I hope this time won't be "that" bad.......hopefully..
Today is Sunday, and it's a really really sunny day, so my parents decided to go to Palm Beach, which is somewhere up north, takes about 1-2 hours drive. The scene is actually really beautiful, the sea water have different layers, like dark blue, deep blue, blue, light blue........and the sand, it's a bit darker than the ones in Bondi Beach, looks like a bit "tan". Anyway, we had a great time. You really feel relax when you're out and walkin around. I bet that's what I'm going to do when I'm having my holidays.
We had another dinner in the city (YES AGAIN), though the service and the manager's attitude was quite crap, the food's ok (see, I don't eat crab or meat, so I didn't really eat), but since they didn't count the fish in the bill, we were quite pleased about it.
Monday................hate it so much, can't wait until the next holiday! Work work work......
My results for bowlin..........well better not mention that, but after bowlin, we went to a cafe to play pool!
Once again proved that I'm not a sports person, how come the ball jumps when I hit it. If someone can teach me how to play these 2 games I will be greatly appreciate :)
Some kind of family reunion thing is happening today. We will have a buffet dinner in the city. My cousin asked me "Is it formal wear?" No way! I don't think so, I'll guess I'll just random pick any clothes from the wardrobe that look good........
Another day in the library for study time. I usually spent most of the times looking out the window daydreaming than study. It's so hard to concentrate when there is so much "distraction" outside. I mean, the azure sky really makes you relax after all, and the trees are so tall and green. I really love this place.
I have one month to go for my yearly exams. I better spend less time on net, because I actually found out it is wasting me too much money and energy. I should be doing something more useful...like watching the news? Anyway~
Sometimes I just found out I have too much I haven't done and at the end catching up really hard. It's like EVERY YEAR it's the same. I guess I'm cannot organize things. I better leave for others to organize my stuff up. Any volunteer??
Yesterday's dinner was "really" good. We've been having a really long time which we did not have a family reunion, so this time was quite special.
The food was alright, but I didn't have much appetite so I didn't eat much. The desert was quite crap comparing to last time I ate so I just have like 2 pieces......quite disappointing actually.
But the cutest thing was, Michaela was soooo cute where me and my sis bought her a "hairdresser" barbie and she kept using my camera to take photos only of HER.......
The feeling is...........devastating, if expectations could not be made.
The impact could be overwhelming, when wish could not be fulfilled.
When suddenly you realized, that destiny could not be controlled by yourself anymore, isn't that frustating?
With tears in my pillow, I looked upon the azure sky, starting to realize the world still goes around no matter what you do. Even if I choose to forget the past, bits and pieces of broken memories will still lay in my dreams.
I just realized that I would regret for the rest of my life, but there's nothing I could do to prevent that happen. I could only say I'm so sorry.
Couldn't think of anything to write! I'm stuck! Actually I went to see the doctor today to get back my report and GUESS WHAT? I actually have Thalassemia (what's that!?) anyway~ I don't really care because I know there's nothing I can do about it :( anyway~ really this motto, be good to Priscilla, and you'll be happier....doesn't make sense at all....
I'm a bit lost what I should do in Uni. I'm really really interested in business, so there is a big chance for me to go into that field. But I'm also doing heaps of sciences, shouldn't I get a double degree? Medical science looks pretty good? But anyway, I think the most important I really need a STABLE income. Income goes first. I don't mind working really hard, as long as it pays well (money again).
We have our subject fair today. It means the year 10 comes around and ask us for opinion what the subjects where are now doing. I didn't take part in this, rather using the whole lesson doing my maths. Annie promoted Economics. I told her to say "Well, it's okay when you listen to the teacher, you'll get plenty of time to sleep, and you have NO excursion, plus you have to recite the econ book which is thick as a telephone book, it's 'really interesting'". Annie ended up telling me only like a couple of students were interested in it. Did I say something wrong? I indeed like the subject!
I couldn't believe it was so cold today! When the wind hit my face I just want to die right away, since I "forgot" (actually i did it on purpose) to put on my sweater.........sigh, I think I'm catching a cold soon.
I crashed my elbow to the wall today for some reasons.......better not say it, how embarrassing... I decide to be more careful afterwards.......OUCH!
Hey, you know what? Nicole's guardian only let her go online 30 mins day. CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT? Nic, I'm getting a lawyer for you to protect your rights to be online! That's really not fair for her. Where's my lawyer.........Jen, where are you?
Today is so cold and windy that I nearly caught a cold, and that just made me want to go to bed right after school. Anyway, what I want to say is Australia's weather is like my emotion, that means, it FLUCTUATES a lot! I can be "one day happy" and "one day sad", really depends on my mood. So if one day you see Priscilla is unhappy, don't worry, it'll only last for one or two minutes.
Another thing. Nicole's problem is really serious. I mean, what's wrong with her guardian for not letting her online more than 30 mins? That's invading her own privacy! Don't worry, Nic, I'll get a lawyer for you............well~
Jen said she's playing the super mario thing (what's that name again) and she told me it's hard to beat the "big boss", who's that anyway, since Priscilla is NOT interested in any of those games (honestly I've got heaps of games and I never play any), it's hard to understand why Jen is so into those things. JENNIFER, DON'T HIDE MY MIFFY, I'M GETTING HER THIS DEC!