People can say what they please; it won't change me. When I go out to play, that's what I intend to do.
All that it really does is make me that much happier.
I mean, yeah, there are times when I shouldn't. Times where I can't be happy, for me, or for anyone else.
Those are the only times I regret even trying.
At least Kaji is there for me then.
But other times, it's just fine. A pick-me-up in the morning; a cheerful one or four after work.
So it's not a problem, especially to what I already deal with, what I see everytime THEY come.
Hateful creatures.
But I don't think I'm any different than them, any of them, for that matter.
The ones at NERV, and the Shito.
Sometimes they look the same, really. That's when I have to look at who's working with me, and what I myself am working for. I see that, and I have to believe I'm doing my best for what's right.
Everytime I send those kids out there, I give them 120 percent from me.
And I wish it were me out there instead, going to war with the possibility of not coming back.
And I see the same thing in my dreams. Him locking me away in a capsule, but not coming with me as that...demon, takes him from me.
And I wake up with those visions fresh on my mind.
And I go to work, for monsters who send kids to fight THEIR monsters.
And I come home feeling heavy, and hollow.
So yeah, I throw 'em back a lot. Big deal.
I can stop anytime I please.
And I'll stop when I stop breathing, or the monsters stop breathing.
-Misato Chibi