As I sit by the phone my mind is filled with thoughts
I cannot block out I cannot let out
Hanging on to every word you said
As I try to lay myself to sleep
Unless I can try to forget what you said to me
I cannot get a second of sleep
My bitterness is overwhelming
What is with all the yelling
Your running gets you nowhere
I wish it could just go back to the good old times
My fallen one
Closing my eyes dying little inside
The phone rings in my mind
I lay afraid to answer for the outrage from you mouth
Picking up I say nothing yet wanting to say something
Wishing you had never heard my voice in the first place
Just wishing I was dead to you, so I had never hurt you
Owning up to nothing
Your all for something
That really never existed in the first place
A simple misconception
That will take you down
That path full of lies
Honestly your sorry
For what you have broughten me
Right before my eyes
This is it as i see it fit
Forever misery
Until the day of the sun or until the day of everything done
Today is my last day of sun
Tomorrow six feet under i will be done
You will see me now
With my tribute that is my grave
Some one look
Some one cry
And see me for who I truly m
A piece of shit dead to society and dead to you
A piece of shit for you to view
Plenty of shame, for one to blame, upon another. Put your onus upon me, let it be, let it be, another time, another life, that I have the sweetest sin to give to you, to ruin your mood, your life your lives are few and far between.
And thoughts of an introduction of what could be come of me
An invisible mind is left to be never undaunted never set free
A crackle a spot of me will forever be left with you throughout eternity
Something must happen as a heart of self indulgence is uncontrolled by is owner
Who has words of mass destruction that will for surely kill me from inside out.
Matter of fact I'm dying inside
Cardiac arrest the test of a punctured vein
My soul escaping from my body
I'm a bad person for the way I feel
Compassionate Christ like
An overwhelming explosion of thoughts
Tears become like rain drops
From a hollow shell of what I used to be
Feelings getting the better of me once again
I'm over my head with no one to lean it upon there shoulder
Why is it that I'm a bother
A simple hello would ease my chest
With a knife in hand so sharp it would cut me blue
What would you do with me
Sitting here anger full of tears
Thoughts overwhelming my brain
Running race on my own inconsistantices
Time to tell the promises you've broken
Will leave me open for the whole world to see
Poetic suicide unbearable as it is
Never imagine your power that exists
You've left me now full of shame and blame
It's amazing how you think the words I LOVE YOU will hide my pain
Viable forever dreams
Spacing out into a pratical memory
Losing me only seems
As though its me forgetting me
Sleepless nights, I've lost this fight
It will haunt me throughout eternity
Death who cares
My only despair
Are these tears I'm shedding within.
Its killing me nothing less from this test of loves true disaster
Cloudy thoughts have brought this upon my mind that complicates my deepest feelings.
Oh lord please help me now in my time of most desperate need, clear my mind of what i find left in it do deceive me.
Sleep with all the lights on
Your not so happy, Your not so sad
And the best of all is your best depressing
It makes me sad, it keeps me mad
I want to be who I was
Diluted Thoughts, Shattered Dreams
Turn me the way I use to be
I want to be who I was
Connect the dots all alone
How did you lose so much control
I want to be who I was.
Your so lonely, how are you so happy
It is really sicknen, it is really sicknen
To see you all alone there
Are you angry
As you cry yourself happy
As you cry yourself angry
This is the worst conversation I have ever had