Layed out right in front of you
I knew I should have stayed out
For everything you care for and have concern
Can be taken away and leave a forever burn
Into your soul for no one you can tell
It seems as though everyday you take one step closer to hell
For every second that goes by means one second closer til you die
Your life is too short, full of regrets and missteps
Step the wrong way once and your spinning in circles
You wait for it to stop but it won't
Your worst nightmare is just around the corner
Wating for just the right moment
To ruin your life and mess up everything you had
For who then will help you
Over relying on you
Holding nothing
Nothing touching for you
Reeling in me again
No trust in you my friend
Replaying in my head
Over and Over again
Can no longer see
What is the true me
Your paralizing me
I'm blind to myself
Don't have a mind left to tell
Maybe I should just go to hell
Would you then be better off
Well?
I try and close my eyes when your around
In my mind I try to shun the sound
Those words from your mouth of what you did
I really try over and over to forget
What happened in the aftermath of this disaster
Ended up being a black plague to me
Those words like poision in my veins
I think of it everyday yet I cannot help it
If only you have known the damage it would cause
Watching my trust fade away
Waking up every morning caught back in this nightmare
Now I can admit that I make mistakes
And still threw all this
I will still Love You
But everythings falling apart in my mass confusion
Never feeling pain like this before
I will never be the same again
Trying to forget this will be my hardest test
I fell into this perfect world with you before
But then our world came crashing down
As I fall from this pendulum
You arent there to catch me
Yet still threw all this
I will still Love You
Joyfully Sorrow
Destroy my impulse to forget it
I see you there without a care
In these words that you said to me
I see him smile at you
And to my dismay I see you smile too
The penetration has already begun
Your payback to me is a stab threw my back
How can you now have regrets of your payback
Your rational decision was to get even
Fucking around on the town
You'll find yourself interested
With lies from your tongue
You throw your onus upon me
Expecting me to feel your guilt
But the guilt I feel is from within
My unability to express my thoughts threw my tongue
So now its over, he comed, he's left
How can you say you still love me with that cold beat in your chest