Her Feelings and thoughts
Sometimes I feel
lonely, I laugh, I cry, my heart cries, my soul is happy, I feel pain, I
see misery, I can hear people crying, I can hear myself crying, no one
looks up, no one says "hi" , no one cares, everyone becomes a stranger, I
miss old friends, I hate my enemies, I trust my enemies I end up writing, writing what? what
ever I feel..who ever I see, where I may be going I always try to get rid
of my dark side but it grows more each day, people say I am in love,
people call me crazy, They say I believe in useless stuff, almost every
guy I met ended up with the sentence "I love you" I didn't want a lover, I
needed a friend, I didn't want to be popular, I wanted to be happy, I
didn't deserve so much attention and yet I was always the Girl, I
sometimes ask God "are you trying to punish me? Do you not like me?", I
always thank God "I have a wonderful family, thank you Lord, thank you for
blessing
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me
with such a gift.", I sometimes feel my eyes full of tears, what are the
tears for? don't know.. happiness, sadness, anger, pain, misery, or is it
my pride who is doing all this?, I sometimes sit alone, when they ask me
Love? I get confused, cause there is no Love and yet people fall in love ,
I say "love is respect" doesn't anybody know this? I sometimes talk to my
friends, I am happy, I feel like the world looks up to me, I feel
responsible, I feel special and yet feel useless, suicide? Yes, I have
tried and I am not ashamed to say it, I am a writer and writers are not
ashamed to write anything as their pen an paper becomes their only friend,
I believe people who encouraged me to suicide are the ones to be ashamed,
not me. I am strong and yet so broke inside, I feel love all around me and
yet I don't believe in it, I feel like a bird," A White Dove" so pure and
innocent and yet I let the devil take over me, sometimes I wish to fly
far, far away and yet I know I'll feel lonely,I am surrounded with people