1:21am - 1:44am
*Questions Lead To Answers, Do you Really Want Them?*
im sorry every time we got into an argument
i said i was right you was wrong
but i just didnt want for a second
for you to think true anything that could break us apart
which in the end . . . did
i knew though
i knew as soon as a kiss you wanted
something was happenin
for good or bad i wasnt sure
but i knew something was gonna change
. . . between us
because we were friends
not just friends
you were my best
tho only my best friend
still i loved you
maybe not in the ways most people do
or think they do
or even want to
but the strongest feelings i�ve ever had, were for you
and i just wanted this to stay like this
but that kiss, which you wanted so bad
i always said no because i wanted the first kiss to you
to be so special
and i had no clue as to how to make it special
so i didnt
but finally
what did you do
you snuck up on me and gave me a quick kiss
yea, an accomplishment to you
but disappointment for me
cuz i wanted it to be . . .
cuz i knew after a kiss it would change
and change it did
i knew after the touch of our lips
there would be more feelings
but not feelings on our friendship
feelings on a relationship
which you didnt seem to mind
not at all
cuz you showed feelings back
along with more insights to the way of how you feel
and how you think
seemed great to me
i let some out
you took some in
you let some out
i cherished it within
but what is this
you don�t want to be friends nomo
what is that
she confused about the feelings she has
well talk to me!
don�t not call me
it used to be everyday you would
now never you think you should
you say its all changed
you need to handle the shit i lay before you
cuz its my fault
i don�t give a fuck whos fault anything is . . .
i just want you to talk to me
tell me whats really goin on in your head
cuz you just left without a word
just a note in my A-O-L Aim M-B-I Profile
only sayin its my fault
that kiss
the kiss that changed us
funny how the simple touch of skin
can actually change people
not just the way they think
but the way they perceive things
cuz it wasnt the last kiss
or did you forget that also
all the silent moments when i asked you personal questions
you, never lying, but not quiet tellin it all
please, just . . .
ask me one more time
i tell you why i got arrested
ask me one more time
i tell you how many times i got head
ask me one more time
i finally tell you anything your heart desires
just for you to consider me your friend
once again
i told you i would wait for you
me, never lying, but not quiet tellin it all
what i said was, ill wait
but what i didnt say
is why i would
just ask me
- Chris
22 January 2003