so much regret . . .
i LOVE her
if only i�d told her earlier
she said to me she would have gone out with me
if only i�d asked
i honestly dont know if i asked her now . . .
what she would say
if only i would ask . . .
even now NOTHING would make me happier than to be with her
i would not only be so happy
i would be so committed
even for the showt time we could go out
i would do everything i could
to make her remember me as the best boyfriend
shes EVER had . . .
i would treat her with the most respect
with the most love
if only i had said SOME-FUCKING-THING . . .
but still . . .
whos to say it wouldnt last longer
into next school year
whos to say if i asked her
she wouldnt say yes . . .
well, she did (sorta)
she said she is doing a lot of things this summer
and we would probably have to break up before school
there would be not enough time for us
she wanted to spend time with me
when we could
basically . . . its too late
i think
is that what she meant
is it
is it too late
what if i did ask her out now
she would say no
because . . .
well, ya know
everything
and . . . nothing
i want everything
but do nothing
no, actually
i only want her
why am i clinging on
i know its not sweet like i�d want it to sound
*sigh*
we talked earlier tonight
but this time . . .
it was about me and her
and what didnt happen between us
but what WOULD HAVE
if i had just TALKED TO HER
but i didnt . . .
not until now
the end
figures
its too late
BUT IS IT REALLY ? ? ?
there still is a month left of summer . . .
if i did ask her
would she accept
and allow me treat her as good as i could
even if we could only see each other a few times
i have no idea
especially anymore
maybe . . .
probably not . . .
no
but the thought is nice
the thought that if i asked her out
we could meet up
and just chill with each other
i could never get tired of kissing her
whether it be her cheek her neck or her lips
i would kiss her so much
yeah
what a nice thought . . .
- Chris
August 5, 2002