09. *The Whole Story* (as of this date) she broke up with him this is just getting harder and harder to deal with i like her but i didnt say anything and everything was cool then i did stupid move after that it was weird between us especially cuz we never talk about it . . . dammit it took a while, but we started hanging out again then i found out she had a boyfriend shit i still had feelings for her why i realized i couldnt have her i tried and i tried to make my feelings go away . . . they didnt fuckin ay after a while i could actually think of something besides . . . her finally maybe i can actually not be feenin on her so then i get a call she wants to dump her boyfriend maybe for me yay . . . i think god dammit i just started wanting to get over her tho now this comes up so she brakes up with him good, but . . . bad if i just ask her out we could go together but im not gonna am i i want to why cant i why dont i crap after actually knowing i wasnt gonna say anything i talk to her on the phone that night, as a friend her voice its so . . . so . . . nice and soothing im confused again what do i do i have no idea anymore i used to think i did now im clueless AGAIN if i did ask her out it would probably only be until school started but from now until then . . . i would be so happy *sigh* life is too confusing . . . (my heart isnt broken, its waiting for the end of the story) - Chris July 31, 2002 |