i used to feel good around her
about myself
about everything
but now . . .
im never around her
ive decided its to hard to be
cuz when i am
i feel pain
im in agony
i ache
i wanted to be with her
but i couldnt be with her
how many times do i have to say this
to get it out of my system
how many times do i have to do this
to get over her
i should have, i could have
why didnt i
i didnt make a move
so she gave up on me
i still cant believe that
its hard to accept
she gave up on me
so why do i still have feelings for her
im trying to tell myself not to
so that maybe my heart will follow
but it stays with her
as hurt as it is
can somebody please tell me
what really happened between us
wait
there never really was an us
was there
tho i wanted there to be
i cant get her off my mind . . .
I WISH I COULD
I WANT HER OFF MY MIND
I WANT EVERYTHING BACK TO NORMAL
. . . but it never will be
it never will be
never
i wish i had said something
not to get something out of it
just to get it off my mind
just so i wouldnt regret
regret never saying anything
regret what could have been
or even what couldnt have been
just so i could have known . . .
now ill never know
ill never know
never
cuz i wont say anything
why
im so dumb
just because she has a boyfriend
i dont talk to her anymore
how dumb is that
helluv dumb i think
but she shouldnt have let me kiss her
i used to kiss her cheek
her neck . . .
she shouldnt have let me kiss her
not if shes going out with someone
why didnt she tell me
she didnt want the moment to be weird
well yeah, now it is
i dont want to talk about her anymore
i dont want to think about her anymore
i said i wouldnt write about her anymore
i just want to get over this whole thing
to ease the pain
so this is gonna be my last
hopefully
well, at least about . . . her
*sigh*
(my heart isnt broken,
it just wont let me love)
- Chris
July 30, 2002