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You know I really hate that SuperStats banner at the bottom of the page. I tried ever so cleverly (sarcasm) to hide it by putting a huge gap between the banner and the mail link but it looked like I tried a little to hard to hide it from everyone. I tried to hide the fact that I pay attention to how much people come to my page, how they get here and what time they get here. So I've stopped denial and blatantly exposed the superstats banner at the bottom without the big ass gap. Why does their banner have to be so ugly and big? If anyone knows of a site that'll give the stats like SuperStats does without the god awful banner let me know.
I've been obsessed with trying to find financial aid. I haven't even been accepted to John Jay yet. I've got a huge bookmark folder filled with all these college loan links. I'm pretty sure my GPA is too low for a scholarship (although I will try to apply for some) and decided student loans are the only way to go. To live comfortably in NYC while pursuing an acedemic career will cost $17,000 per year. While I was reading the John Jay catalog I found some crap in there about needing to go to a workshop and taking a test before I can recieve DIRECT aid (unsubsidized loans). WTF is up with that? What if it means I have to make a special trip to NY just to take this stupid workshop so I can afford going to school? I'm financially restricted to leave here before August and taking a week to go to NY in the middle of Spring would be ludicrus (sp?). Things are always fucked up aren't they.
I was late for the "woman's curse" for about a couple of days and it really freaked me out. It's absolutely absurd to make love without protection. I take full responsibility for my retardedness. Even Rz takes birth control pills and she doesn't even have sex (or does she?). I know its totally because I'm paranoid of doctors that I don't go to a gyno. What if theres a malignant tumor the size of a basketball on my ovaries or something. Wouldn't that suck. I promise I'll go. Soon. Know of any good ones? Blah.
Tonight I plan on taking up an extra credit opportunity for class and go to a Late Night Theater Workshop at Kennedy. Then again whenever I plan things that aren't so important I never follow thru. Its obnoxious really. I do a lot of great stuff when I feed off spontenaety but when it comes to planning social get togethers or menial things like go to the movies.....my homebody is on my desk chair feining some monotneous crap on the net. Damn this devils tool.
Sharons in NY housesitting in Long Island. I hope the kids torture her or something.
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