Wednesday 5.27.98 1002pHST
Do give credit where credit is due. The photo to the left is called "Kiss by the Hotel De Ville" by Robert Doisneau. It's a postcard my sister sent me during her first few months in Boston. We had seen the postcard (probably made more famous because of it) in the movie "Singles" that was directed by Cameron Crowe (who had also directed "Say Anything.." which is one of my top ten). We looked everywhere for this postcard.(Seattle, NewYork and California just to name a few places) and Sharon finally found it in a small store in Boston. How I envy the fact that she actually moved off the rock. I guess it helps to actually have a functioning brain to get you scholarships here and grants there. When I really think about it, the photo holds no sentimental meaning for me. Its just a beautiful picture. Classic black and white, the way most of my favorite photos are. Too bad Advantix doesn't make B&W film(do they?). I can't afford driving into town and getting my B&W film developed....nor do I have the equipment to do it here at home. To me everything is more beautiful in Black and White. Simple. Basic. Classic. Wonderful.
I've taken up reading once again. Now that I have the time. I don't mean reading as in newspaper reading or magazine reading or web reading. I mean actually curling up in bed with the nightstand lamp on and engrossed in a novel. I miss that. I don't think I've sat down and read anything meaningful/interesting....that wasn't required to be read by some Professor or TA....since high school. I want to read as much as I can this summer.....although its difficult to actually rumage through a bookstore's used pile or scan the shelves of Borders for something that's actually worth reading. If anyone has suggestions on what my next book should be email me. I'm not particular, anything that you feel is maybe "the best book you ever read" will do fine....hehe. If not I'll end up reading some Stephen King novel....yikes.
I've spent a lot of time alone in the past year. Even with a live in boyfriend it gets kinda lonely. I've become someone who's good friends are all co-workers. Sometimes I feel like I'm thirty something and married. I miss school.....full-time school. Actually feeling like a "student"....no work....maybe just a part time low paying on campus job anyway.....going to clubs, having your schedule revolve strictly on school, studying and socializing. Another "I WISH" mentality.....every single one of us has it. Too bad most of us are just average and labeled "majority". How come we all couldn't win one hundred somad million dollars like that couple in Wisconsin(it was Wisconsin...wasn't it?). I mean what the fuck do you do with all that money? Gahd Damn!
Another week of pity trips and random reiteration. Life is lame...sometimes....I say somtimes just to "sound" like an optimist. You do realize that don't you?
--Sun
P.S.
What Sharon wrote on the back of the postcard.......
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