| October 2002 Archive Same Rules Apply As All Other Months! |
October 1st, 2002
Help! I've exercised and I can't get up!?!?!? lol I literally woke up this morning...stood up, and fell back down! lol Okay, allow me to explain this... Monday I joined the YWCA. And I am sooo thrilled about it. Because not only was my joining fee waived (that would be 140 bucks...although they are running a 1/2 off for the past month...I still saved 70 bucks?!?! woohoo) because my job is a sponsor for the YWCA (which I didn't know until the woman looked @ my application and saw where I work...who'd a thunk it egh, my job is actually good for something! lol) Anyway...worked out Monday--30 mins and a moderate pace on the tredmill. And yesterday I got on the Eliptical {sp?} machine, I was on there for 10 mins. I am not crazy, I do not want to over do it...but w/10 mins, that thing kicked my booty. lol I actually plan to work out 5 days per week...(sheesh, I want to get my $$'s worth...I should I have done this a long time ago to motivate myself...I don't have a lot of money...so if I am going to shell out the dough, I want my $$ worth! lol) I actually have an appointment today w/one of the instructors there to learn how to use the equipment...b/c I did go checkout the weight room yesterday, but I don't know how to use ANY of the equipment. Okay, I take that back. I figured out one...but out of about 15 machines...that's kind of a low precentage. lol Well, as you can see I have stayed the same weight this past week (dang it!?!? lol). But it's okay...I have decided to focus a little less on the scale and more on inches. Soooo...the plan for this month...(AHHH OCTOBER?!?! Soooo close to the holidays. {starting to sing} It's begining to look a lot like Christmas...*smile*) is to lose 5 inches total throughout my body. Can I do it?!?! Gosh I hope so. I've been taking my measurements for the past 3 months, and I don't seems to be losing the inches fast enough...or at least in my opinion...so, hopefully that will change w/the joining of the "Y." Well, I am officially through going on and on about me...you all must think I'm self-absored and rude...so, how have ya'll been? lol I hope the answer is "good"... Until next time, Jonai PS...umm, the "holiday page backgrounds" aren't really my thing, but b/c I am sooo thrilled about the upcoming holidays...thought I'd give it a try...hope ya'll aren't tooooo turned off by my new bg. lol October 9, 2002 Alright, I've been slacking for the past few days. I have been kind of down. (which I'm sure if read my journal regularly, you are thinking...sheesh, what's new about that?...egh, not much I guess...anywho) My weight REALLY flucuated this past week. I went up to 217...to 215.5 for several days back down to 213. I weigh myself today and in the first time in TWO weeks I saw a lower # than 213, however I am going by my Tuesday weigh-in, since that is my normal weigh-day. I KNOW I should have exercised today, but I put it off. *sigh* I had to get up @ 8:30am to do something for someone else, I put my workout clothes in the car, yet I stalled and stalled until I was STARVING...so I never made it. I did go Monday. 15 mins on tredmill and 15 (yep 15 lol) mins. on the Elliptical (ahh, I know the spelling this week! lol) Machine. I wasn't even sore yesterday. So, that's a good thing. I think my endurance is increasing. I'm thrilled. If only I could calm the depression and increase the motivation. Don't get me wrong, I'm still motivated...ESPECIALLY as seeing the # I saw today *smile*...but I am just so down. Gosh, I really have to work on improving my life in general. Because no matter how more or LESS (GOSH let it pleassse be LESS lol)...it won't matter if I don't feel good about myself. I know I sound cliche, but hey...it's true. Well, next Tuesday I better see the # I saw today...ooor a lower # or "Scale Pledge" be damn...lol. I like to assume my weight flux. was due to working out...but I just do know...but it's tough dealing w/that. Especially when it isn't waranted. I mean if I had fallen off the wagon and ate a LARGE pizza (mmmm...wait! YUCK! whew, momentary slip! lol) that would have been different, but I've been good. I dunno...guess we'll see next week. I mean I know weight loss after a while slows down, but NO loss in close to a month?!!? NOPE we can't have that... Well, as per usual...thanks for listening to my yada yada yada... Jonai PS--did ya'll notice I change the BG again? Ugh, that holiday bg SUCKED. This one is sooo adorable..guess I'll keep it for now. :o) October 15, 2002 Ahh, another week has passed and for once I am in a good mood, considering. Did ya see the chart?!?! Woohoo! I am soooo happy. Gosh, I feel as if I am seeing an illusion on the scale every time I get on it. Hey, it's actually Weds, and I just saw the same number today!?!?! Anyway, I'm very thrilled to be in the official single digit 200's. Umm, did that make sense?!?! lol Oh well, I haven't worked out this week because I haven't been feeling well. I was going to work out today, but last night along w/my cold I got ear infections in both ears! I am the only 20 something year old I know who still gets them, anywho...enough about that... Sorry if this entry is a bit scattered...I am truly not feeling well...but I just HAD to update you all. I will update more in a few days just because this entry kind of sucks. lol Jonai October 22, 2002 Hey ya'll...happy umm, Tuesday? lol Okay, I suck...I couldn't think of anything better to open up this entry with. *sigh* Anyway...hope ya'll (yep...ya'll...I am from The South ya know. lol) are doing good. I am still feeling not too great. My ear infections do not seem to have gotten any better what so ever. Sheesh. I have been taking the medication for almost a week now and still extreme pain...and they are stopped up. Ugh. I haven't gone to the Y in a little over a week, which is horrible I know...but I need to feel better because my energy is depleted simply by going to work. I will be going within the next few days REGARDLESS. I actually miss working out (I know...yes, I did just type that! lol). No, my medicine isn't making me delirious...I really do kinda misss working out. Knowing I am working out makes me feel good about myself in general and it seems to make my day go a lil' better. Let's see...oh yeah, I lost only 1/2 a pound this week which I guess is okay considering I haven't exercised in a while. I'm not going to sweat the weigh in too much...although GOSH I don't think I'll EVER EVER EVER see 199. I close my eyes...and I see it, I extend my arm as far as possible...and it is almost as if the tips of my fingers touch it...but I can't grasp it. Ahh, but I know it's attainable...I will be there... sooner than later...I just have to stay motivated. Gosh, I am currently @ the lowest weight I have been @ in at least 10 years. I know, tell me about it...and I'm only 23! Oh yeah, check this out when I went to the doctor last Thurs. for my ear infections and the last time I was @ that doctor was December 2000 for umm, guess what? Yep...EAR INFECTION. lol Anyway, the nurse happened to walk out for a sec. but she left my chart on the table and I just HAPPENED to look @ it. (HEYYY...it's MY chart, right? lol) Anyway, my weight December 2000 was 311 pounds. {gasp} (<--- I know, right?!?!) Sheesh, I about fell out of my chair. Of course I was thrilled @ the time also. AND their scale said I weighed (that day) 206...and I had just eaten lunch too...and I was wearing clothes...shoes...etc. Anywho...the point is since that time I have lost 105 pounds. I mean I never thought about it (sure I know @ one point I weighed 320 pounds)...but gosh, it's amazing. Even MORE reason to stick w/it. AND you know how they do the whole...not matter WHY you go to the doctor they give you the whole "lose weight speech"...I didn't even get it! I mean face it...being overweight...we go to the doctor and we have a sprained finger and they tell us we need to lose weight to boot. lol Gosh, my ear is aching right now. Ya know I'm going to have to shell out more $$ to go back to the doctor. *sigh* Well anyway, thanks for once again listening to my yada yada... Until next time, Jonai October 30, 2002 Twas the night before Halloween, and all through the house not a spoon was stirring...not even low-fat chow. The Pumpkin was lit, with a face of fright...wait a minute, I didn't buy a pumpkin because I can't eat pumpkin pie! lol Okay, dumb little ryhme, right? I know...anyway, I thought I'd do a little something different! lol Anyway... How are ya'll doing? I am doing okay. I am finally feeling better! Woohoo! I finished my latest round of prescription today (which cost my 60 bucks...grrr..!). I feel bad though because I haven't been working out. But I will do so! Gosh, I definitely can afford to pay the $$ I'm paying and not use the membership...ya know? Also this week I lose 1/2 a pound...which I guess is better than nothing. *sigh* I love seeing the # go down on the scale each week, but when it is 1/2 a pound I get a little frustrated. However hopefully with my working out that will change! I think I will be adding an exercise page to my site because I think I would like to keep up with it...and if I keep track of it on here...there is NO WAY I can lose it! lol Lately I've been getting a lot of emails from people asking for advice...and I do realize I do not email you back...and if I do the advice is quite vague. Please allow me to adrdress this... I am on the same journey as everyone else. There isn't anything magical I think I can say to someone about losing weight. It is just a matter of making up in your mind that you want to make a change. You know? I am thinking of adding "tips" to my site...but I really have to think about it. Because as I have said before...I am just another fat chick, trying to lose the "fat." Please don't take this statement the wrong way. I really do appreciate ALLLLL emails! (okay I'll admit it...I love getting email! It's what has keep my going for the past 10 months. THANKS. And I am sooooooooooo not just saying that!) I just don't think I am one for giving advice...more so WEIGHT LOSS advice. lol Gosh, it honestly hasn't settled in that I've lost 90 pounds. I mean sometimes I walk by a full length mirror and look @ myself in awe. I honestly feel just as large as I did before...so it's hard. I dunno, I just gotta work on that! Anywho..as per usual, thanks for listening to my random yada yada... Jonai |