| JUNE 2002 ARCHIVES SAME RULES APPLY AS IN OTHER JOURNAL ENTRIES |
June 4, 2002 Ahhh...guess what? It's June!!!! Alrighty then. I'm assuming you knew that already...lol But if not, now ya know. :o) I've been in a good mood all day. If you've seen my weight loss chart then you know why. I lost two pounds!!! Yep, I'm smiling BIG over here! I am 8 pounds away from my "mini" goal. I' m thrilled. I know I can do it...I just have to. No turning back now. I've worked too hard to allow that to happen. I've been using my Bally's Door Knob Exerciser every other day also. So I have been doing more exercising. Of course I could always be doing more...but hey, one workout @ a time. *sigh* lol Did I ever mention I bought a pair of pants to track my weight loss also? I don't think I did. Well, I bought a size "19" pair of Arizona Jeans. They are very nice. I bought the about two months ago. I did take pics in them...but b/c my butt (hehehe) is so big, the pics aren't really appropriate to post. Hmm...let me check them out again, I might post one that doesn't look toooo bad. lol But I tried them on last night and seriously...the almost ALMOST almost fit. lol Okay, give me about 15 more pounds...and it's on. lol Hmm...anything else new w/me? Nope...can't think of anything. I will be posting full body pics soon as I can find someone to take them as an update. But until then...the ones I have are cool. :O) Anywho...as usual, thanks for listening (umm reading!) my yada yada yada...and I'll be back sooner than later!!! Jonai ***update: I added a page, pics of the size 19 jeans I mentioned!**** June 11, 2002 Wow, what a week it has been. *sigh* I'm the same weight as I was last week...no loss. *sigh* Which of course is better than a gain, but all the same I'd rather see the # go down, ya , know? Anyway...I slacked on exercising this week, which is probably why I've stayed the same weight. Work really has me down. And the jerk(s) I work with don't make it any better. I mean have you ever had someone @ work say something highly inappropriate (ie, something like..."huh, are you pissed b/c all of US are being promoted and you aren't?")...what kinda sh%$ is that to say to someone. I mean, sure people are gonna say mean things all the time, and no I don't have to take it to heart, but I was already feeling down about myself. And allllllllllllllll I can think is...if only I wasn't so fat....if only I was prettier. Okay, I know, I know...but still...it's an all consuming thought in my mind. I dunno...I'm just depressed. So sue me...oh well, sorry I'll try to make the next entry a lil' happier... Jonai 06.18.02 Alright, here I am...wow, it seems like for ever since I've journaled. I have been here often just because I'm constantly looking @ the site over and over to analyze my progress. I'm pretty happy about it...I'm not going to lie. I have reached the 59 pounds lost mark, and I'm truely thrilled. Oh yeah...wait, allow me to do my in the "30's dance" *dancing in my chair* lol But seriously, I'm happy. I have not eaten out except once @ Subway and once @ the mall (had a Twister Lite Preztel...ummm ummm good! lol). I haven't exercised as I should, but I have vowed to do that, just because I don't wanna be a loosey-goosey...when it's all said and done. I'm in a good mood, mainly b/c of my weight loss since last week. As ya'll know I weigh myself almost every day...so I knew I had lost weight...but I'm still smiling. 3.5 pounds until my goal...oh yeah baby...I can see it! lol Now, two things irrelevant to weight loss... Does anyone watch that NBC show Spy TV (hosted by the skinny model chick w/big boobs who hardly says anything @ all? lol)...okay, well I decided to watch it, just because it's an off time with tv shows and all the good stuff are reruns until the Fall. Okay, well I saw a prank that was quite disturbing...there was a set up where these security guards were suppose to watch this business, but it turns out that it was actually guarding the "employees" and they weren't allowed to leave, and they were being tazered (sp?) and they had an electric fence...well, it was fake, but the guards didn't know it wasn't real. It was almost along the slave/abusive side, but the security guards still went along with it...except one who said NO!...but one guy was like, "this is my job I get $$, you don't pay me"... alright, if you didn't see it then this probably makes no sense, but it was distrubing b/ c the stupid, ignorant "guards" were allowing those people to be abused like that...how appalling! Anywho...one last thing, I just finished watching Brandy's (umm, the singer!) MTV special---it's a diary tracking her pregnancy...etc. All I gotta say is, damn, can I have some of the good fortune she has...man, she has a GREAT successful career (that damn Full Moon song isn't all that great, but it's high on the charts), an attractive and sucessful (seems to be loving) husband, AND she is expecting a baby...and DAMN if she ain't my age too...*sigh* What do I have? None of that...that's for sure. How do some people have such a great life...and the rest of us, try to just make it day to day....... Oh well...once again, thanks for listening to my mindless yada, yada... Jonai 06.21.02 Hey, how ya'll? Alrighty...notice anything? Yep...I made a change!!!! Updated my size 19 jeans page too...so, check it out! Jonai 06.25.02 Hey, how's it going? Not too bad I suppose here. I've been kinda down most of the day (nothing new about that, huh?). I dunno...maybe it's Aunt Flo. Hell, she can bring anybody down. Alrighty, well according to the scale this morning...I have lost two pounds. Egh, I will go w/it...but Aunt Flo is here, so I don't know how reliable that # is. But my theory is...Aunt Flo causes water retention...so if I've lost weight & Aunt Flo is here, then I must be on the right track. Right? I hope so... I must thank those who have recently signed my guestbook (and in the past as well!). I really do appreciate the encouragement a lot. [deleted a bit o' ranting] Alright, plus I have decided to take a big step and no matter what I'm gonna start walking...so, wish me luck... Jonai BTW...in case you didn't know...it sucks being 22, feel ugly, have low self esteem, be fat...and don't have any friends b/c you are so damn shy...It's slowly dawning on my that something just isn't right here...I've got A LOT of work to do... ONE last thing...that MTV Brandy show is killllllllllllllllllllllllllllllling me (see previous entry!). ugh, someone remind me NOT to watch it next week... |