| MAY 2002 ARCHIVE SAME RULES APPLY AS IN OTHER JOURNAL SECTIONS |
05.01.02 Alright, it's May. It's funny, last year this time I was FREAKED b/c I was about to graduate...and now look @ me...20 pounds heavier and working in a part time job that is more irritating than...um, well...an irritating person. okay, I'm not really up on any good analogies right now. Oh well...*sigh* Life is obviously great...don't ya think? Alright...can anyone else feel the sarcasm on this page? Well...if so then you are sooo right! I've been feeling down for the past week or so...(damn, depression is a bitch!)...but I'll get over it soon I suppose. (I always do...) I'm @ the point now where I've been on this weight loss journey for going on 5 months...and it's HARD. I'm becoming BITCHY (okay...MORE than usual @ least lol)...irritated with life and everyone in it...and it's tough. But it's funny...b/c my irritation leads me to work harder. I have a goal of 235 by my birthday...think I can do it? hmmm...well, I dunno. But @ this rate of staying almost the same weight for THREE weeks, I'm starting to have my doubts. And I made the goal kind of on the high side hoping that that would help me in working harder b/c I thought it was attainable...*sigh* okay...is this entry bringing you down? dang...it's bringing me down and I'm writing it! sheeshe... Anywho, I've lost 1.5 pounds in the past week...I extended my weigh in day b/c I wanted to make sure Aunt Flo had completely left the building...so those are this weeks results...enough said...see ya'll soon... promise (okay...I'll try!) that the next entry won't be so scattered and depressing! lol Jonai 05.07.02 HEY!! Guess WHAT? I got a new car!!!! Alright....lol She is just too cute. (yep, my car is a "she" lol) I really need to move, but my car was about to go...so I chose the car for now. B/c what do we call someone whose car dies? Yep, that's right...a city bus rider. lol Anywho...I must take a pic of her (she's a 2002 silver honda civic coupe!)...that will be soon. lol Anyway, as you can (damn it) I haven't lost anything. See...my problem is my motivation is lacking. I'm trying...but I'm not...ya know? Damn...I will get on the ball. I'm trying something new this week...so hopefully it will work. I haven't exercised...although I know I should. I dunno...who knows....I am thinking of taking a week off from weighing in next week...I dunno I am just tired of having the scale dictate my mood...ya know? I must say that recently I've gotten more emails and guestbook signings...(I am quite sure it's b/c of www.3fatchicks.com)...and I'm so happy about it. Thanks to everyone who has written me an email...and/or signed my guestbook...no lie, it helps my motivation greatly...so thanks. well as usual, thanks for listening to (umm reading!) my mindless yada yada. :o) Jonai 05.14.02 Alright..first I must say, wooohooo! Okay, tell me you checked out my progress chart? I lost 4 pounds. Oh yeah! lol Okay, I knew I had lost quite a bit b/c as I've said before I weigh myself almost every day. It's hard b/c if you've been keeping up...then you know that I've been stuck in plateau hell. But I'm thrilled. I added up how much longer to my birthday goal...and it's 14 pounds. That's not too bad I suppose. I thought it was much further than that...I really think I can do it. I'm gonna just keep going...and keep my motivation high. How? I dunno...but I'm working on that. I actually went to the grocery store today and restocked on food. My favorite thing to eat right now is Smart One's Pepperoni Pizza. Definitely filling for 9 grams of fat. Well, I don't have anything to say...I'm just rambling. I'm sooo happy to be in the 40's right now. It's funny I was just thinking back to the 90's...80's...70s...gosh, I really have come pretty far..so guess what people? No going back....it's all gravy, or shall I say all fat free meat sauce. :o) Jonai 05.21.02 Okay, I'm not too talkative so I'll cut to the chase. Yep, lost a pound. Thrilled about that. Of course I wish it was more...but heck I'll take what I can get. It's better than a gain...or staying the same. Oh yeah, guess what I did today??? I wore a size 20 pair of jeans. Yep...I did...suuuuuuuuuure did. And they weren't so tight that you would see what my butt was thinking either! lol Hmm...anything else? Well, not really...I really don't feel like saying much. I am going to take progress pics in the next few days...so, I'll be back soon... Jonai 05.28.02 ***oh yeah, if you haven't looked...check out my updated progress pics!*** Hi! How's it going? Oh me? I'm doing good thanks for asking. :o) Well, if you saw my weight loss chart then you know I lost 3 pounds. I wasn't going to weigh in this week b/c of "Aunt Flo"...but I thought, hey...why not! lol Hey, Aunt Flo brings water with her...and if she is here w/her luggage, and my scale says I've lost weight...then, I should be good, right? lol Umm...did anyone get my analogy..? Okay....if not, sorry. But I'm going with that # for now...until I see other wise. My weigh in # is NOT set in stone this week...but it's there anyway. But you know what that mean right? I'm @ the 50 pounds lost mark. *moment of silence for those 50 lost* Just kidding!!! Heck, I'm glad you are gone...don't come back, ya hear? lol Anywho...guess what? I've exercised 3 times. I bought this new thing that is made by Bally (you know, the gym)...and you put it on a door knob and it works your arms, legs and stomach. (alllllllllllllllllllll the areas that REALLY need help!)) I'll take a pic of the box so you all can see what I'm talking about. It's kind of fun...and it's doing something b/c I'm sore. lol) Has anyone read the new Grace magazine? It focuses on real size women...let me tell you, it's a GREAT mag. I've read it cover to cover twice. And I bring this up b/c of this...there is an article in there about the new plus size maxi pad made by Always. See, I heard about it too...and I was appalled! I said the sammmmmmmmmmmmme thing the article said. Why on earth do I need a "plus size" sanitary napkin. I mean what, is my vagina HUGE compared to a slimmer woman? Hell no! I couldn't believe it when I heard about the idea of it. Unbelieveable. *shaking head* I mean come on...do we really need a "plus size" maxi pad...I think not! *** ok, this has been a moment of truth brought to you by Jonai*** As always, thanks for listening (reading!) my yada, yada, yada... Jonai |