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| 04.01.02 Ahh...guess what?!?! It's April!!!! Umm, yeah, I guess you knew that already...but hey if ya didn't, now ya know. lol How ya like my Spring journal? Okay, it's not the world's best spring page...but it's as festive as I'm gonna get...so like it or not. lol (I'm joking!)...well, let's see...oh yeah, did you see my chart page?!?! I am in the 50's. Okay, I'm BARELY in there...but I'm there babe...oh yeah, I'm feeling pretty good. I got on the scale...then I got off...then I got on again...and it's official...I'm @ 259.5. Whew...it's nice to be here, glad to have made it! The lost is surprising actually...ya know aunt flo just sort of decided to pack her bags and leave today...so I really wasn't going to believe whatever # I saw this morning...but I wasn't feeling bloated or ill (as I normally do while aunt flo visits! lol)...so I guess it's fair to assume that the # is correct. Anyway, I'm sure you've learned MORE than you've ever wanted to know about me...so moving on... Ahh, let's see I'm getting highlights tomorrow! I think it's time for a change...so it's brown highlights for me...(umm, I'm talking about my hair if you don't know! lol) I'm definitely gonna take a pic and let ya'll see. I'm sooo excited. I actually wasn't going to do it...but I asked my mom what she thought...and you know what she said...? I'll tell ya, "I dunno why you would dye it, the only people who will see it are those @ work...you never go anywhere" (end quote) *gasp*...now, ain't that an un-nice (okay...un nice isn't really a word, but it beats another word I have in mind!)...thing to say? Geez...so, for the hell of it, I'm gonna dye it. Damn, never wonder why my self esteem isn't up to par. lol Anyway...enough about that...I'll definitely be back w/in the next day or two to tell ya how I like my hair. But I must say...I contribute my motivation to dying my hair to my weight loss...and while I'm NOT skinny minny (and don't wanna be either!)...I'm feeling pretty darn good about myself...(regardless of the negative comments!!!! lol) Write ya later... Jonai 04.07.02 Okay...I had to change that journal bg...whew, it was buggin' me. lol You like the new bg? I think it's quite Springy...hehehe. Alright, I'll be back tomorrow w/a weight loss (umm, I hope it's a loss!) update... Jonai 04.08.02 As promised...I'm back! I had to update this page yesterday because the "spring" bg was TERRIBLE. I couldn't do that to my journal page. lol Anywho...I did lose some weight...I'm official @ 258. Actually I think there was a serious error in my last weigh in and I didn't lose as much as I though (ya know how aunt flo can be!)...and I think I lost an even amount for the past two weeks. But either way...I'm SURE I'm @ 258. Aunt flo has left the building. She was last spotted (umm...not literally!) headed down Ale St. If that's your street beware! lol Okay...I'm in a silly mood. I don't really know why...I think it could be b/c work has just about got me @ cracking pt...lol Whew, I'm about two steps @ cracking up...really. lol But it's cool. Well, back on the weight loss thing...I'm still motivated...although it's getting TOUGH. I feel like I've been trying to lose weight for soooooooo long, and the results aren't where I want them to be. Okay...where do I want them? I wanna be 100 pounds lighter...starting yesterday!?!!? *sigh*...okay, just had to get that out. no, I'm good now. I'm just @ that point where it's starting to get tedious...aww, don't knock me. I'm still doing good....just getting tired. But not giving up!!! Nope, can't make me. hehehe Anyway, I'm still on the right track. No bad foods...no fried foods ALLLLLL year long *gasp* (my heart is thanking me for that btw...lol)...I need to increase my water intake, really. Plus...I need to move my ass. The only problem is that I have no energy...work is completely wiping me out...seriously. I don't know...but I have to pace myself better or something...or this job is going to be the demise of Jonai. lol Alright, well enough of my yada yada... Until next time... Jonai 04.15.02 Hola people! How are you all doing? That's good to hear. :o) I too am doing well...guess we are all just great then! lol Okay, let's see...how have I really been? Well, I've been doing okay...I haven't been feeling completely up to par...but I hope that passes soon. Don't know what's wrong...probably my body's reaction to not having any junk food! (lol...that was a joke...) But guess what I did last week!!!! I exercised twice to my exercise tapes. (Mr. Richard Simmons to be exact)...Richard Simmons has a great tape that came w/these exercise bands...and I love it. Of course I haven't exactly made it completely THROUGH the tape...but I will...trust me! lol I also have this broadway tape and oldies tape of his...but I can't do it. *rolling eyes*...I mean, RS is cool, but I can't work out to broadway music...it's just wrong! lol (the tapes came w/his move it/lose it?? system that I've NEVER used...but I bought it on ebay...for 12 bucks...it's cool, but I don't have patience to fickin' close windows every time I eat...lol Anywho...I will exercise again w/in the next two days hopefully...if only my stomach would stop hurting!!!! It's crazy...but enough about that... Oh yeah, did you see my chart?!?! I loss 3 1/2 pounds. Oh yeah...[dancing over here...yeah!!! lol] The # surprised me...but not too much I guess being that I haven't been feeling well. So, there ya go...I'm @ 254.5...alright!!!! It is such a rush getting on the scale and seeing the # go down. And guess what else? I am not as much of a scaleaholic as I have been...some days I don't even weigh myself. I know, isn't that great? lol I'm sooo proud of myself. Does anyone else notice that I'm jumping subject? Okay...sorry. *sigh* Well, I think I've covered just about everything... I'm still on pt. And things are going well...can't complain too much. I should get going...I have to work tomorrow...(my boss switched my days off...which are now Thurs. and Fridays rather than Tues...and Weds...but I'm happy w/that...it's closer to having a real weekend, ya know? lol) well, once again...thanks for check up on me!!! and listening to my mindless yada yada once again... Jonai 04.22.02 Hola people! How are we doing? Well, I am doing fine...can't really complain too much. Okay, well I CAN complain...but I won't! lol Alright...so, ya see my chart? Alright...it's true it says no loss this week. But guess what? I think my readings are off on Monday mornings for some reason...b/c for the rest of the week...they say another thing. So, technically I think I lost less last week...and lost the rest this week. Anywho, for this reason I am changing my weigh in days to...(drum roll)...Tuesdays! I think Tues. will be better...or @ least temporarily. I guess we'll see how it goes anyway... Oh yeah, guess what I did? I exercised twice last week. Okay...this just proves how much of a loser I am...I got up early on my day off...got dressed and went to the park to go walking...guess what? I got scared and left. I'm so embarrassed by the way I look. *sigh* Oh well...I hope one day I will be able to go w/out feeling like crap. It probably wouldn't be so bad if I had someone who wanted to walk w/me...but alas, I don't. Man, typing that made me feel even worse. It was bad experiencing the embarrasment of not wanting to be seen walking...but typing it is even worse. Wow. Okay...I'm sure you are thinking..."don't worry what people think...yada yada"...but let me tell you...when the New Balance are on the other foot, it's hard to judge. *sigh* Why is it socially acceptable for "skinny" people to be seen exercising, but not for overweight people. I mean it's US wo REALLY needs to be doing it. I mean...even a gym...we get the looks...while Thin Tammy doesn't. That's soooo messed up. Okay...sorry this journal entry is kinda down...but I'm feeling down. Hmm...oh well, I'll catch ya'll later. As usual...thanks for listening (umm...reading) my yada, yada... Jonai 04.29.02 I hate men...I hate skinny women who can eat anything and NEVER gain weight...I hate men who luv skinny women who can eat anything and NEVER gain weight...I hate skinny women who are just skinny and that's all they have to offer...I hate skinny women who can eat anything all day and NEVER gain weight while I chew on a celery stick and pray I don't gain a pound b/c of it...I hate skinny women w/confidence who steal all the men from those w/out any confidence...I hate society...I hate being ignored...I hate the world right now...just thought I'd share...damn it...screw 'em all... okay...I am allowed a random pissed off thought every once in a while...so sue me... Jonai |
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