| Title: Still With Me Song: �Rose Of Sharyn" By Killswitch Engage Disclaimer: I own no one they are owned by their respectful owners. Distribution: Please ask before taking it. Rating: PG Numb and broken Here I stand alone Wondering, what were the last words I said to you Hopeing, praying That I'll find a way to turn back time Can I turn back time He stood in front of the bright red #8 DEI car, with Sunglasses covering the tears in his eyes. He wished he could go back to the year before� when his father was there standing next to him. Turning his head he looked at the deadly turn that stole his father�s life the year before. Moving the sunglasses a little he tried to stop the tears that flowed freely down his cheeks when he felt a hand on his shoulder. �He would want you to keep going.� The voice seemed to feel his pain. He nodded his head at his friend. �I know Jeff. But it makes me sick to be here now. It has only been a year but it is still hard to stand. I can still hear it Jeff. I can hear the crash�. Hear Tony telling me it looked bad� hear myself yelling at him over the radio. Jeff, every time I look at the infield I see the medical tent and still feel the things I did when I was running.� �Junior I know it was hard on you. I also know you could not believe they put Kevin in you dad�s car. You still remember I was there running beside you. I watched what it did to you. It is like a part of you died with him. I was still standing there when you called Kelly.� �Kelly,� Junior thought. His sister hadn�t been watching the race but knew by the tone of his voice something was wrong. �Its dad isn�t it? Is he ok?� He could still hear her voice in his head from that call. All he could do was finally break down and cry as she asked. His sobs told her the whole story. �Oh god Junebug� does Taylor know?� His step-mother had told Taylor. �All I remember is how Taylor came running wanting to see him.� �Yeah. And you picked her up and held her. Telling her there was nothing she could do.� What would I give, to behold the smile in the face of love You never left me, the wondering sun will always speak your name Junior looked over at where the black #3 should have been but a sliver and black 29 had replaced it. The driver of the car looked up at him then looked away. Dale Jr. knew he should not hate Kevin Harvick, but it was hard not to. That his where his father should be not some rookie. He shot Kevin one more look before turning back to Jeff. �Have you even talked to him?� He was still hurting and still bitter. �Why should I?� �He is not that bad June.� Jeff couldn�t help but use the nick name Dale Sr. had always used for his son. �I talked to him last night after happy hour. It is really hard to know you are hated for something you had no control over. He thought your dad was a great guy� why do you think that the car is now 29 and not black? He didn�t want to take Dale�s place. The one thing that I got from the conversion was that he doesn�t want you to hate him.� �And I have no reason to right?� Something told him that his dad would not like his attitude towards Kevin but it was easier to hate him. �Go and at least say hi. You never know� it could help both of you guys.� Jeff gave Junior a push towards the newer driver. Numb and broken Here I stand alone Wondering, what were the last words I said to you Kevin looked up to see Junior was walking over to him. �Hi.� He said still glaring at the #29 driver. �Hello Junior� Can I call you that or would you rather I call you something else?� �Junior is fine. Jeff wanted me to come tell you that I don�t hate you� I am sorry but I can�t say it. I would have hated whoever took over his car. I don�t doubt you are a nice guy. But I can�t look at you with out remembering what happened last year.� He turned on his heel and started to walk away. �Have you ever heard of the band Killswitch Engage?� Junior stopped and turned around. He just said they were not friends and this guy wanted to talk about music. �No. why?� Kevin met his eyes. �Listen to the song call �Rose of Sharyn.� I know you don�t like me but I think the song may help you with your loss.� �Yeah will do.� He turned again and started to walk away again. When he got back to his car he was glad to see Jeff had already gone to his own car. Fifteen minutes later the race was underway. He got the feeling he was not the only one in the car. It won't be long, we'll meet again The first part of the race his mind was only on his car and doing well, but as the laps passed and they got closer to the final lap his heart was racing. For the first time in his life Dale Earnhardt Jr. wanted nothing more then to be out of the racecar. Every time he passed turn four his heart skipped a beat. As the laps ran down he could hear the sounds from the year before and almost felt as if he was not really in the car. �Ok this is you second Daytona 500�don�t mess up Junebug. I know you will be great. Do it just like you did last year.� The voice still in his head as was the smile his dad gave him as he went to his own car. He had finished 13th in his first Daytona 500 and last year he came in second. That had never mattered though. Coming in second in Daytona should have been great but how could he be happy when a few seconds after he crossed the finish line he was hearing that his father had crashed and was not getting out of the car. There was no �good jobs� after that finish all there was were �I�m sorry for you loss.� As his thoughts pulled him in he started to lose focus and fall in position. The race ended with him 29th. It was almost ironic he would finish the number that his dad�s car had turned into. When he saw the standings he could not help but be happy that Harvick had come in 39th of 43 cars on the track. Walking back to his coach the wind was helping to clear his head. When he got to the door he noticed there was a note taped to it. Picking the envelope up he walked inside. What would I give, to behold the smile in the face of love You never left me, the wondering sun will always speak your name Opening the envelope he sat on the couch. He pulled out a CD followed by a piece of paper. �Junior, I know you think we can never be friends but I hope in time you will change your mind. The few times I met your father I knew he was a good man. I am not trying to take his place. There is no way anyone ever could. I got them to change the car number and colors for that reason. The CD has that song I was telling you about. It is number 3� almost fitting in a way. I really hope it helps you. Kevin� Sighing he picked the CD up and put it in his stereo. He turned it to number three and sat back down on the couch. Closing his eyes he listened to the words of the song. They echoed his feelings over the last year. It was like the song was written for him. He started to drift into a dream world as the song continued. It won't be long, we'll meet again, your memory is never passing It won't be long, we'll meet again, my love for you is ever-lasting I mourn for those, for who never knew you I mourn for those, for who never knew you He woke for the dream world an hour later when someone knocked on his door. Getting up for the couch he went to open the door. When he opened it he saw Jeff standing there with a case of Bud. �Thought maybe you could use a friend.� Junior smiled. �Yeah, probably can. But I thought Bud was my sponsor.� Jeff laughed. �It is but hey I can buy some every now and then.� �Is there a point when I get it for free?� Junior laughed. �Point is it made you laugh for the first time this weekend.� Junior laughed again and took the case of beer. As Jeff walked in he noticed that the music Junior was playing was not his normal type. �What is this?� Jeff asked flipping through the songs on the CD. �Something Harvick left on my door. I have to admit he was right about the song. Turn it to 3.� Jeff did as he was asked and listened to the song as Dale Jr. put the beer in the fridge. �Wow. See Junior I told you he was not a bad guy.� �Never said he was but it is going to be a LONG time before I could ever be friends with him.� �I know. In till the pain is not so fresh. Anyway I didn�t come here to talk about Kevin. I came to be a friend and get your mind off of the whole thing.� Junior smiled and pulled out two x-box controllers. �How about a game of Halo or Tony Hawk Underground?� �Hawk because I know you can kick my ass in Halo.� The two friends talked and played X-box for the rest of the night. Junior knew that what had happened to his father would always be in the back of his mind� but like the song said �It wont be long we�ll meet again.� He knew he would see his dad later in life. For now he knew he just had to be strong. It won't be long, we'll meet again, your memory is never passing It won't be long, we'll meet again, my love for you is ever-lasting It won't be long, we'll meet again |
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