| Chapter 2 She gasped as she opened the bathroom door. His arm was bleeding and he looked like a mess. She met his eyes in the reflection of the mirror. �Oh my god.� Nothing made sense at that moment. He was standing in the bathroom cutting himself but she had come back to him. She didn�t even notice he had turned around in till she heard the razor hit the floor. �Benj�� �You�re not real. I know your not! I lost you� stupid Benji stupid! How could you think she would ever come back to you? You don�t deserve her� you never did.� He scolded himself as he bent down and pick up the razor. She looked at him confused. �I have come back baby.� Gently she took his hand and carefully removed the razor blade before leading him to the bed. �I love you. I had to come back. Every time I saw you on TV. I could see you were getting worse.� She ran her hand over his cheek. �I am sorry you didn�t see me when you woke up� I was not sure you would still want me in the same bed as you.� He watched as she took a towel and tried to stop the blood running down his arm. �Why would you come back? I don�t deserve to be with you. I proved that.� �Look at me.� He looked up to meet her eyes. �I love you. I should have stayed Benj, I know that now. You of all people know my past� baby I could not take you drinking away everything we worked for so long for.� There was nothing he could say. She was right, he ruined their life together. He looked over as she sat down on the bed next to him. Looking in her eyes made him almost forget the past. �I gotta go.� She watched shocked as he left the room. Benji walked down the hallway a few doors and knocked on the door to room 345. Joel opened the door and saw his brother standing there shifting on his feet. �Benj, what�s wrong are you ok?� He looked his twin over and noticed his arm was bleeding. �Come on in. What happened to your arm?� �I dropped my razor.� It sounded like more a question then an explanation. Joel looked at him closer. �What really happened? And why are you here and not with Lyndsey?� �I don�t deserve her. I just hurt everyone. If I tell you what happened it will hurt you. I am the one who is supposed to help you and keep you safe. You are my brother� I have to save you from me too.� �Benji you are making no sense. Tell me what happened to your arm. You have never lied to me before.� Benji started to rock back and forth in the chair. �Yes I have. I am not ok Joel. I cut my arm. I wanted to. I have been doing it since we were sixteen. It was my way of handling the pain when dad left.� Joel sat there his mouth wide. All the times Benji had cuts on his arms, he had put them there himself. |
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