.tuesday 9th august 2005.        

Sleepover @ Hikari's. Her parents
are still in Malaysia. Wahlauwei, 
her house very peaceful man. I 
never knew such abode exists. I
mean, try living in my house, 
polluted with noise I tell ya, and 
I'm so damn proud of it!

My father's left for Brunei last Sun.
3 months w/o the father in the 
Sulaiman Household. ll_ _ ....

Prelims coming. ll_ _....

English oral so near. ll_ _....

 -hantu

.saturday 6th august 2005.      

I could've at least respond, but i 
didn't. I wanted to, but let me 
quote this, "distractions always 
appear when the time is crucial." 
I wasn't looking at her, but when
she said that, I knew she was
smiling, when she was not 
supposed to smile. I'm not stupid, 
it was clear she wanted to talk to
someone badly about that. But 
what did i do? I didn't utter a 
single word, worst, I was 
expressionless. She must've 
thought I wasn't interested in 
listening. I'm a bad listener. Bad 
hantu. *ARGH! I'M SO USELESS! 
I WANT TO KILL MYSELF!*

.....I wanted to say, "Poor you", 
and "I understand", and "Don't 
worry" and "Just do it, nothing 
in this world must hold you back".
I'm sorry I didn't...just, don't look
back, ok? You have the courage 
that I do not have.

.thursday 21st july 2005.         

me: *going to the toilet*
zul: *rubs a coin on my head*
me: *turn around*
zul: *holding a container filled 
with coins* "gimme one dollar"
me: "what for? (don tell me it's ice
cream again)*
zul: for a new computer
me: "............."
zul: "which one is bigger? a laptop
or a PC?-"
me: *toilet door-BANG!*

Life had been very quiet, the 
music was suffering from neglect 
under my bed. So now, ON AIR is
To The End, My Chemical 
Romance. This song is dedicated 
Jack Skellington, Yzak Jules, 
Justice and Freedom, Rey Za 
Burrel, Ayame, Hotohori, Naraku,
Shishio Makototo, Bento Members,
my friends and family.

  -hantu

.saturday 2nd july 2005.          


School started oredy....................
F-O-U-R
months 
to 
O level.

actually i'm not sure if it's 4 
months or longer. HAHA! LOLXXX.
*impersonates Mr. MYV*>>>
"whatever, psycho-horror thing..."
(i like saying that!)

  -hantu-

.sunday 19th june 2005.           
  
Just got back from Yuta's place.
Sleepover, as usual. We thought 
that being with each other's 
company would be less boring
than having to sit at home and do 
nothing besides staring into space 
after we're done with the books. 
And yeah, it wasn't so bad after 
all. Our quest to find true 
happiness with pure entertainment
started off with BUBBLE BOY!!! @
1030 pm. My favorite part was 
when Jimmy entered a bar and 
then there was this chinese guy 
standing on top of the tables or on 
the stage, his attention shifted to 
Jimmy from the crowd when 
Jimmy wailed "HEY! I NEED 500 
DOLLARS!!"
chinese guy: "500 DOLLARS??!!"
Jimmy: "YES, 500 DOLLARS!!"
chinese guy: "500 DOLLARS???!!!" 
Jimmy: "YES, 500 DOLLARS!!!"
chinese guy: "500 DOLLARS??!!!"
Jimmy: "500 DOLLARS!!!!!!!"
chinese: "500 DOLLARS!!!!!!!"
Sounds like fun eh? IT IS!! Try it 
with someone! And there was also 
a song that goes "BRIGHT AND 
SHIIINYY!" lalala...
-cut-

Next stop> MY SASSY GIRL @
12MN. It was okay. But the girl 
was just too rough. It's disturbing.
-cut-

My Tutor Friend @ around 2 am.
I've watched this zillion times
already. I like it everytime
Kim Ji-Hoon threatens...country
chick....argh!! what's her name?!
Kim Ji-Hoon:" WANNA DIE??!!"
-cut-

Amityville Horror @ 4 am.
The part when Michael....*sweats*
..don't want to talk about it. 
Too scary. You guys go watch it.
-cut-

...Then we retired @ around 5? 6?
Not sure. But we dozed off and 
woke up @ 10, i think. We watched
Malaysian Idol during breakfast
with Yuta's Ma. When her brother
woke up, we all watched My
Schoolmate, The Barbarian. 
WHEW! I love you TV!

-hantu-

.tuesday 8th june 2005.           

Let me announce this:
I CUT MY HAIR!!!! no lah, actually  
the auntie cut it for me and WAAA
AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I WANT MY LONG HAIR BACK!!!!!!!
*o listen to my cries of regrets*
-cut- 

i've met a very kind soul at the 
maths camp i went to. she likes 
spongebob and her mother bought 
her all kinds of spongebob 
goodies, her schoolbag, 
squirtbottle and the SB stickers 
on her calculator. 
of course, when Yuta and me saw 
all these, we got realllyyy excited 
and everytime that happens we'll 
make a lot of noise. so, when we 
first saw her SB schoolbag we 
went "AHHHH! CUUUUUUUTTTTE!!"
we kept chanting those words and
started showing it to arafah and 
tan. i didn't know back then that 
she was embarrassed about it 
(we've just met)and thank 
goodness i saw that  expression 
on her face and quickly stop Yuta
from further promoting her bag. 
From there, she got the idea that
all of us were crazy about SB.
on the 2nd day of the camp, Yuta
and me were still oogling at her
stuffs and while we were at that
she took her bag(our eyes 
followed) and took out something..
-cut-

saw the miyavi pic below my 
tagboard? wonder if that was what 
he really said. i feel the same 
way too...
-cut-

Spirit X 's performing again 
tonight. YEAH! YOU GUYS CAN DO 
IT!(please let there be 
improvements).
-cut-

i just cannot make up my mind...
i think everybody can list down all
the choices for me already, i keep 
babbling about it's getting more 
difficult for me to choose, it's too 
many, O enlighten me!
-cut-

I'm rocking to the rythm of Miyavi
right now. WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! 	
FREEDOOOOOM! FREDOOOOOOM!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!
-cut-

she took out two shining 
SpongeBobSquarePants rulers and 
handed it to the both of us, 
"cepat amik, simpan. minatkan?" 
-cut-

-hantu-

.monday 9th may 2005.           

www.singaporestreetfestival.com 
/band.html

...i just saw and i am still laughing 
over it *laughs louder*. it's like
A NATIONAL COMPETITION and i 
am picturing the whole situation in  
my head right now: 

yaya: wargh! aku taknak nyanyi! 
so many people!!! aku taknak!! 
syaiful: i need to shee-shee!!
rizal: *teeth's chattering, legs
shaking* what am i going to do?!
umar: OK, OK! EVERYBODY  
LISTEN TO ME. BREATHE INNNN. 
BREATHE OUTTT. BREATHE INNN.
BREATHE OUTTT.
fattah: *already up on stage*
ANDA SEMUA MAHU ROCK?!! 
MAHU? MAHU, TAK MAHU?!
Crowd: MAHU PAK! MAHU!

wargh! bisa bikin gue gelak!!
*laughs+rolling on da floor oredy*
...evil me is lookin' forward to it,
i'll come and maybe i could do 
smtg to sabotage their 
performance, no, no, i'll sabo the 
other bands, hope they're not 
reading this...
THE BEST OF LUCK TO SPIRIT X.
  
-hantu-

.wednesday 4th may 2005.      

ARGH!! AKU TAK BOLEH TERIMA
NIE SMUA!! BFDAY AKU NARIE!!
BLACK AJAK AKU PEGI 
PIZZAHUT!! JJ AJAK AKU PEGI
DELIFRANCE!! TAPI AKU KENA 
DOK RUMAH BUAT PERIBAHASA!!! 
AKU SEDIH! AKU PASRAH!!! 

MY FRAGILE HEART IS LIKE-
ALREADY SHATTERED ON THE 
FLOOR INTO 1000 PIECES AND 
THOSE PIECES BROKE INTO 
MORE SMALLER FRAGMENTS AND 
I AM CRYING LIKE NOBODY 
BUSINESS BECAUSE I-HAVE- 
NEVER-BEEN-SO-SAD IN MY 
WHOLE LIFE AND I-AM-
SERIOUSLY-HEARTBROKEN....

..sniff sniff...it's just to painful 
to bear...it's the first time i 
actually remembered my bday 
and was looking forward to it...

O my sorrows..O my miseries..
Let me breathe...
Understand the pain you've 
inflicted on me...
I will die...
I will die...

-hantu-

.monday 25th apr 2005.           

manusia di sekeliling kita pasti
berubah dan akan terus berubah. 
kita harus menerima hakikat ini.
walau betapa susah untuk kita 
melakukannya. ini realiti hidup. 
hampir setiap hari kita dicabar 
dengan kenyataan ini, lebih-lebih 
lagi jika kawan-kawan sendiri 
yang terlibat. baik atau buruk
perubahan tersebut, kita perlu 
menerimanya. penting bagi kita 
untuk cuba dan pelajari 
bagaimana untuk menerimanya 
tanpa protes. kita harus sedar
bahawa diri kita sendiri sedang  
berubah pada masa yang sama.
dilemma yang sama dihadapi juga 
oleh kawan kita sendiri. dengan 
itu, penting untuk kita untuk 
saling faham-memahami.
sesungguhnya, ia hanya sekadar
satu perubahan.

-hantu-

.sunday 24th apr 2005.            

i've bought fushigi yugi vol.7.
somebody borrowed vol. 5&6 and 
never return it. i'm pissed like
hell now. @^%$! my inuyasha 
movie3 is going @ least 7kb/s 
now, it'll be my reward after 
exams.and i'm still thinking of
buying inuyasha/naruto/gs vcds.

-hantu-

.sunday 24th apr 2005.            

gue sudah bikin itu yakuza gang 
the Red Butterfly. mlm nie gue 
sudah dpt satu member, JJ. gue
punyer bestfiend arh. tapi dier 
alem waraq, dier tak bantai org.
so gue hire dier jadi penasihat.
gaji 5000 sebulan gue kasi sama 
dier. gue skrg cari member baru. 
all are welcome.

exam gue sudah dekat. gue busy 
belajar. so jgn ajak gue lepak.
gue tak mau.

minta maaf, english gue mlm nie
parahhhh...

-hantu-