Thirty seconds, extreme stakes
Lives to make and lives to break
Blood hits the seat
When secrets meet
He grunts, she cries
While innocence dies
I'd like to play speed with two
Or maybe cheat with four
I love long games of war, I do
Keep the deck an hour or more
I'll play poker to rob you blind
Or lose my shirt, for I don't care
Deal with me and you'll find
I love all games but solitaire
I'm a criminal, untried
Yet I've nothing to hide
No smoking gun
My crime's not done
Did I breach some sacred ban
For having the mind of a man?
My kin, I confess
Couldn't care less
Who will get hurt
While they drink dirt
These villain I hate
But I share their fate
Someone snapped and you cried
The tragedy when children died
Life is hell and hell is life
You learned love, they learned strife
You killed them and they killed you
The debt of suffering came due
You broke their wills and they your faces
Pipebomb love and shotgun graces
I am the shade that sleeps inside your heart
The voice that rouses your flesh at night
The tender echo you can't ignore
A selfish love affection breeds
Some hate, some fight, some adore
But all know well my deeds
I met her shadow in my dreams
The last h?eir of a dying breed
Mistress of all that otherwise that otherwise seems
Bound to a dark and cryptic creed
I saw her face, pale in the shade
Pale eyes, pale skin, pale lips, dark hair
She seemed a sorrow just left to fade
Hiding a world shed wished to share
A poisoned house on blighted land
A tortured soul with storms above
Gardens to dust, soil to sand
What sleep with death cannot know love
This tragic damsel stole my heart
She loved my love not for my sake
This tender sorrow may nothing start
For 'tis gone ere I awake
You can't see the wounds
You won't try and don't care
Everyone is happy
For fear of being sad
The sorrow breeds hate
Hate is a weapon,
So they fear confession
You fear their wounds
The wounds you gave
They're driven out
And now you think
The shadows are against you
He grabs her wrist and then her hair
She'll scream, she'll fight and he won't care
The grapplers wince and hit the floor
They'd fought when he was drunk before
She knows why he starts theses damn fights
She cries for hours on these nights
Never again, she says, and grabs a knife
The brute can't stop to save his life
Amazing what self-defense can do
To save someone from murder two.
They're afraid to break
They want the help you give
But fear the fist you shake
At how you make them live
One shadow hit you hard
And now you hunt them all
You would the battle-scared
And wonder why they fall
A knife, a pill, a noose
They fear the aid they need
As it comes with your abuse
So much and little I'll never be
Some many worlds I'll never see
Constraints from which no life is free
We drown in knowledge from the fools sea
The lives of others tell misery
We are alone, eternally
No one can buy a memory
The only things we change are masks
In each "new order" irony basks
I want to fall in love
Tonight, tomorrow, soon
Romance with stars above
Under a flowing moon
I want her in my arms
Whom? We've not yet met
Captured by her charms
Plunge in without regret
Why can't I stop feeling?
Why can't I stop caring?
How does she seem so pretty?
How does she still charm me?
Why won't those feeling end?
Let me move on and live
I'll resent a good friend
If something doesn't give
I walk out in a damning shroud
A hateful shade, and unlined cloud
Bound by my pain, envy and fear
I find weakness and shame appear
I am clad in silks of sorrows
Lost yesterdays, dead tomorrows
With hope murdered by history
Envy, fear, lust tell my story
Does one write flames by choice,
Loaning hatred a voice?
By flames does one makes gain?
Can one burn off one's pain?
Is the answer in smoke,
Freedom after you choke?
Is it best done in ice,
Buried by acting nice?
No, reason is with air
The answer: "do not care"
I am fallen
A prince of geeks
Master games-man
Trickster of words
Collector of hurts
Sentry of night
Defender of dirt
Arrogant but right
Like the wolf who leaves the pack
I know someday I need to come back
Memories cheat time
Take me back to you
Dreams create new pasts
Where no one gets hurt
History's sublime
Always was and will be
if you choose how long it lasts
No one can the first time
Time will bend, space will fold
To bring us together
Yet neither one can break
Keeping us apart
Solitude gets old
I'm alone without you
How much can we take?
And what then?