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I'm poison, perfect
Get close and you die
I'm poison, silent
I look like I'm fine
I'm poison, slow
You get caught off guard
I'm poison, crippling
I make living hard
I'm poison, deluding
Watch your world sink
I'm poison, addictive
And you've taken a drink
January 12, 2004
We each tried to taste
The vial corruption laced
We took our sips
Liquid passed lips
She coughed
I laughed
She spat it up
I drained my cup
She felt tainted
Darkness acquainted
I still felt free
Darkness I can't see
January, 2004
From pain and apite
Self-hate and scorn
Are what feel right
I feel okay
I'm so alone
I know each day
Shows the unknown
I hope I find somone who''l care
Because I'm sick of solitaire
January, 2004
What do I miss?
Her talk or kiss?
Her eyes or her ass?
Am I that crass?
Her tongue or voice
Why'd I rejoice?
Did acts or art
Compel my heart?
January, 2004
He lived alone, the perfect geek
Societies always spawn freaks
Only his landlord knew his name
He turned up dead with none to blame
In highschool he was an outcast
His grades wond first but his life last
No friends, no parties, and no dates
Some learned to love; he was thaught hate
College just tunred his life to hell
Although his classes all went well
He knew that life he somehow missed
At twenty-one he'd never been kissed
He lived alone, and worked at night
the wage was good, but life was blight
He could never get a girlfriend
Rejection was each attept's end
Over and over his heart raced
In rejection he felt disgraced
Thinking his whole life would be pain
He put a bullet in his brain.
-February 2, 2004
I wake up everyday
I get out of bed to see
In my mirror's display
If I'm still me
Yes I am, Yes I am, Yes I am,, damnit
Why am I this
Each minute, Each day
This life I won't miss
If I can get away
But I can't, But I can't, But I can't, damnit
I'd like to change
Try someone new
It seems so deranged
Show waht can I do?
Nothing, Nothing, Nothing, damnit
February 3, 2004