Don't hold your life against you
so the mirror spoke this morning
for your life is but an angel
whose wings are torn apart
like the cold and drafty whispers
like the bleeding of your heart
Don't look back at the past
at the mist beneath nightfall
for the night is just a lie
and the mist folded a web
that has hidden feelings well
(02/1995)
Written by Anita
When today a smile reborn
blourishes on his face
for the one he promised love
When the oceans blew my dreams
it just hit me when he sighed
like a wounded blinded heart
he won't love me anymore
the mistress never seen
In the cold of the waves
in the vigour of the gale
his face will leave me soon
as morning blanks my eyes
I am living of the grace
I am dying in a cloud
that the mind will not forgive
Don't reach out while you go
Don't make me taste the sweat
nor the sting that kills the soul
Let the silence be your guide
Think not back of vicious tears
Think not back of one who bleeds
For the red will wash away
and the sun will rise again
(20/06/1994)
Written by Anita
Put on this world
with hunger to feed
Still hunger runs dry
when the world looses touch
You can't look at yourself
with eyes that lost depth
And the doors of your heart
seem to carry bad draft
I don't know what to say
That love breathes of lies
and the skies of my soul
have no need for your clouds
You can't give me your tears
You won't bring me your hate
You can't say that you blame
cause your blame comes too late
All the words put to tears
and the smell of goodbyes
go to waist in my life
as it's fading away
(10/10/1994)
Written by Anita
The silence of a lie
On this moment dressed in sin
feel this flame, this burning grin
Don't believe me, watch me fly
Please don't leave me 'cause I cry
No love to hurt, no tears to stain
No truth to blurr, no desire to blaim
Just cold depression, a meaningless obsession
my heart in a cage, my feelings enrage
And you can't find why
you would rather die
Was a time when I knew
exactly why I cried
But when the mind takes deceit
and the truth, it might
No way will you live
No sponteneity will you give
So the bars close you in
and reality gets too thin
'cause you can't see through
all the things that you do
All those words never said
since the voice remained dead
in the touch of the rain
keeps your heart in a frame
You're a slave to the lie
I wonder, why even try
(20/1992)
written by Anita
Human beings
I want to be free like the wind
and touch the early morning
without communicating
without ever hating
'cause talks are never true
and the tongue ain't the heart
and the soul breathes of lies
intoxication of the mind
People always think
that they're the only ones
And being nice is being crazy
Being you is being nuts
Living a dream is being dead
and wanting freedom's in your head
And it will never be a truth
It will always stay a dream
like a lonely cold deceit
that can harm and kill the brain
Like the bird with burnt down wings
who will never fly again
Like the child that never knew
how to hide behind the flame
You will never understand
how the lies can wear you out
When smiles are all you get
yet they can not heal your wounds
Now you ask me what I want
Why do tears still blurr these eyes
But you can't see what life's like
for the child who was born numb
And the voice that never speaks
is the one that hides the fear
What I need is what you give
to the strangers in the street
What I need is what you take
but refuse to share with me
I never wanted to be a fool
in this burnt down paradise
All I needed was your hand
to open up the door
You walk on by
You leave me here
dead and burried in my head
You see the cages in my eyes
but you won't give me the key
(03/1993)
Written by Anita
Turn around laughter
And take off the mask
Don't fool me with desire
Cause desire burns you up
And the ashes scar your soul
Don't leave me here choking
Don't turn your back on me
Leave me dead in emptiness
Sting me blind with loneliness
Fire burns these eyes
But you can't see the flames
Nor do you hear my screams
Too many times
I've cried for help
I know help forgets me soon
When the castle locks it's doors
The cold will eat your heart
No, don't promise me the world
Don't offer me your love
For I am but a slave
Who will carry it around
Untill the day you wish it back
And then I'll pay the rent of life
(1993)
written by Anita
Black butterlfies
On night's green pastures I lay me down
Hear the bird sing in the white light
in the tunnels of my dream
Souls of lost life dance around me
while the butterflies of death
seek for shrines within the sky
It is dead calm now at last
I wait for rains of happiness
to come poring down on me
Yet so desolate a place
as this yearning paradise
makes me hunger for my youth
when my sadness was a muse
Not a dying butterfly
whose remains sink to the chest
(5/1999)
written by Anita
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