Ok now, here is something that has been bugging me. I find that life can be balanced when it comes to relationships. Just I mentioned before that girls will always be attracted to the male asshole. Guys will be attracted to the "good girl" you can always count on. The thing is, as I guy, even though I am attracted to these "good girls" there is nothing I can do about it. For many reasons. I know these girls deserve better than me. What's a good church going girl going to do when she finds out I'm a sneaky, evil, boozing recluse? It got me thinking. So I did some investigating and asked some girls what they would want in a guy. Within a few seconds the words, "same religion" came out. And then it echoed. And echoed. I haven't been to church in a long time. I don't hold the same church values that your basic church goer will have. I have an open mind when it comes to things like abortion, sex, race, homosexuality, and other "pleasures". I always get the notion that some of the more pure people I know look down on my cause I lead a different life than them and have different views. I hope not though cause I think the world of them. Then there are the pure girls that I find myself attracted to and would like to date. It kind of sucks because after the attraction gets placed I find myself realizing that it would never work out and I get kind of bummed cause it's really noone's fault. Sure we'd all like that nice girl who likes to smile a lot. But personally I'd like to pour a little rum into my coke if you know what I mean....do you know what I mean? No I didn't think you would. Ok, I'll explain in the King's English (no pun intended). For me, an ideal girl would have to be nice and not be evil, but have an open mind and occaisionally be prone to be a freak now and then. I guess all guys want that maybe. But I would really feel bad in the unlikely event that one of these pure girls actually does return an attraction to me. I don't think I should compromise who I am based on some crush. And I wouldn't want them to change either because quite honestly I like them the way they are. It's such a bite in the ass.
