Author’s apology:
Originally called "Dude, Where’s My Hard-line?", "Betrothed" is not an
all-out serious
work. Here
the crew of the Neb do some serious . . . partying. I don’t really condone
binge drinking in
any way––but
I don’t really condemn it either. I’m sorry if you find this story really
offensive and highly
OOC. It’s
supposed to be sort of funny, but the end is too depressing for me to classify
it as humor. The
first part
of the story takes place a few months before Neo is freed; the second part
takes place in medias
res.
I guess I should
tell ya’ll that this might be my last hurrah in the world of Matrix fanfic
for a while. I
pounded this
out in one night and didn’t have it beta-read, so it may be rather rough
around the edges.
Please forgive
me for this. I just began an intensive fiction writing workshop so now
my spare time will be
spent writing
and revising original stuff. Plus, I have my Ulysses research eating
up any sanity I might
have had in
the first place. I will write more fanfic, but not for a while.
Betrothed
by
Kirstma
In vino veritas. –some dead Roman
I.
"Shhh, she’s coming." The small knot of conspirators unwound themselves and stood at attention.
Trinity approached.
She hated this; the idea that she was driven out of anything that might
add color to
her gray,
drab, shapeless life. They treated her differently than they treated each
other, and she should
have been
the first to admit that it was her fault. All of those days spent as Morpheus’s
chosen apprentice
had taken
her away from her shipmates. She was a ranking officer and her rank placed
her well above
them. She
had gained authority––but only at the expense of losing friendship.
Apoc cleared
his throat and went back to repairing one of the old computers. Switch
stepped away and
took a seat
at the center counsel. Cypher was wiping his fingers on a dirty rag. Mouse
was still standing
around like
a kid without a home.
"Mouse, don’t
you have anything to do?" Trinity asked. "I’m sure Cypher could use your
help with . . .
whatever he’s
working on."
"We’re all very busy," Switch butted in. "We have to make a trip to the Matrix."
"Yep, that’s right," Apoc said. "New potential to check out. Some chick named Spaniel."
Trinity took a stunned step forward. "Morpheus never told me about this."
"Oh, he probably doesn’t want you to go," Apoc pointed out. "He knows you’ve got a lot going on."
"But––but––"
The words didn’t come to Trinity. "I’m the head of recruiting," she blurted
out. "I’m the
one who checks
out the potentials before anybody else."
Switch shrugged.
"Nobody said you couldn’t come. We’re all going, aren’t we Cypher?" She
grinned
wickedly.
Tank walked into the room. "Dozer’s brought the ship up to broadcast depth. Are you ready to hack in?"
"You
knew about this?" Trinity said. "Why didn’t anybody tell me? I’ve never
even heard of this . . . this
Spaniel."
Everyone simply
looked at each other. "I don’t know what to tell ya," Cypher said. "We’ve
been looking
into this
one for a few weeks now."
"He’s right,"
Switch said. "I mean––Trinity, we would never do things behind your back
like that. We’re
not into secrets."
She immediately smirked and then regained composure.
"I’m going
to talk to Morpheus about this," Trinity said quietly and turned to leave
the room. Tank
grabbed her
arm.
"I’d think better of it," he said. "He’s on a conference call to Zion right now. He can’t be disturbed."
"We’ve got to hack in now or we’ll lose our chance," Switch said, peering at one of the small monitors.
"Man, I could really go for a hand-job right now," Mouse spoke suddenly.
Everyone stopped and looked up. "Mouse," Apoc said with a dose of incredulity in his voice.
"What?" Mouse looked up. "Did I say something?"
Tank shook his head and climbed into the operator’s chair. "You ready to go?"
* * *
When Trinity
opened her eyes she was in the usual room of the old mansion in her usual
attire––black
leather, black
shades, and more black leather.
"Hooo-whaaaaah,"
Mouse said, picking at his clothes. "Cypher, check out these new threads.
I am so
ready to party!"
"Party is right," Cypher said. "Man, I’m so sick of staring at the same black walls. Let’s get goin’."
"We don’t have much time," Switch said.
"Don’t be ridiculous,"
Apoc said. "We have all the time in the world. Sit down and relax." He
took a
cigarette
and a lighter from his jacket pocket. "Where do you want to go tonight?"
"Blue Danube," Switch offered.
"Whirlwind," Mouse suggested.
"Any place
where the liquor stands still only long enough to let me drink it," Cypher
said. "You
remembered
to load money, right?"
"I think Trinity
should pick," Apoc said. He seemed to be running this peculiar operation.
"It’s her
birthday,
after all."
"Wha––I––" Again, words failed her. "It’s not my birthday," she finally said.
"Oh yes it is!" Switch said. "And you don’t turn thirty every year."
"I’m only twenty-nine,"
she added hastily. "And more importantly, what the hell is going on here?
We’re
checking out
a potential, remember?"
"Oh, you’re
so thick, Trinity!" Switch exclaimed, which was a little uncharacteristic
of her. "We made the
whole thing
up."
"We got Tank to go along with it," Apoc said. "And Dozer as well."
"Oh, this is rich," Trinity proclaimed angrily. "I’m getting out of here. I’ll get Tank to pull me out."
"Oh nooooooo you don’t," Apoc said, holding the phone down with his strong, muscled hand.
Trinity reached
into her pocket and pulled out her cell phone, flipping it open. "Not that!"
Switch said, and
there was
a slight scuffle, then the sound of a small phone being flung out the window.
"Morpheus is
going to have our heads," Trinity said when that was finished. "All of
us––in here together?
He’ll be out
for blood. I say we go back right now."
"And I say we stay!" Apoc said. "Don’t worry about Morpheus. He’s been taken care of."
"What are you
talking about? Morpheus will kill us! Five people in the Matrix disregarding
their
pre-ordained
duties is cause for serious punishment––why are you laughing?"
"Oh," Apoc
said, "I don’t think we’ll have to worry about that." They were
all laughing discretely,
covering their
mouths with their hands.
"What did you do?" Trinity said, her voice low and threatening.
"Let’s just
say that Morpheus will have no trouble getting to bed early tonight. Dozer
helped us with that
one."
Trinity gasped, realizing Apoc’s meaning. "You drugged Morpheus?"
"Hardly can be called drugging. It was an herbal remedy––"
Trinity’s fist
slammed against Apoc’s jaw. He stumbled backwards and clutched the left
side of his face.
"Now that
was uncalled for," he said.
"I am the second in command and I am going to leave the Matrix this instant."
"C’mon, Trin," Cypher said, using the nickname that Trinity secretly despised. "We’re doing this for you."
"Oh, I bet,"
Trinity said sarcastically. "No, you’re doing this for you. So you
have an excuse to get drunk.
Or to get
Mouse drunk and watch him fall over."
"I’m okay with that," Mouse said. "Really."
"I’m not," Trinity said. "I have a rank to uphold here––"
"Rank shmank,
Trinity," Switch interrupted. "Since when did that make you too good to
hang around with
us? Someone
has a short memory."
Trinity was
taken aback a little––her hand fluttering up to the top of her chest. "All
of that was a long time
ago."
Everyone was
quiet for a minute. "Don’t worry about not being safe," Apoc said. "You
worry far too
much. We’ve
got another crew covering for us. And Tank."
"I can’t believe you planned this whole thing," Trinity said.
* * *
Thirty? Am
I really thirty? Trinity thought as the car sped along one of Chicago’s
city streets. How did
that get away
from me? No, I must be twenty-nine. I don’t remember the last birthday
I had. It was ages
ago.
"Fatboy Slim is fucking in heaven," Mouse quietly chanted.
"Well, you could have worn something more appropriate," Switch said.
Trinity looked
up to realize that Switch, sitting beside Apoc in the front of the car,
was speaking to
her––and about
fashion nonetheless, which was quite upsetting. What would be next? Discussing
the latest
issue of Martha
Stewart monthly? "You’re one to talk. White’s not good after Labor Day."
"Ha," Switch said. "Did you not get the memo when heroin chic went out of style?"
"Shut up," Trinity said.
"Ladies, ladies,"
Apoc said. "This is a great cause for celebration. We are all young and
free and alive.
And Trinity
is our dear, dear friend."
"Alive for now––assuming they survive tonight," Trinity said to herself. "Or assuming I do . . ."
She could hear
Mouse speaking faintly to Cypher. That was scary. Trinity was afraid that
Cypher’s
pedophile
demeanor might rub off on Mouse. "What I wouldn’t give," Mouse was saying,
"to feel one of
them up, man.
Just once."
The car hit a bump and they went flying. "Whoa Apoc," Mouse said. "My head hit the roof."
"That was your head?" Cypher said. "I thought it was your butt."
Mouse laughed
like he and Cypher shared some private joke about it. "Kill me now," Trinity
whispered.
They pulled
up in front of a dark, bleak building and Apoc turned off the car.
"This is it," he said. "Safe from agents and bad ecstasy."
Trinity got
out and stood in the parking lot. Several teenagers were laughing hysterically
and falling into
each other’s
arms. Instinctively, she assumed her usual fighting posture. Then she felt
a hand on her
shoulder.
And an arm around her.
"Can’t you just . . . pretend you’re having a good time?" Apoc whispered to her.
Trinity shook her head. "I’m not that person anymore," she said. "I’m sorry."
He squeezed her hand and went to join Switch. Then they all went into the club together.
* * *
Apoc ordered the first round of drinks. And the second.
"You have money for this?" Trinity asked.
"He always
has money," Switch replied. "Not that he ever gives me any . . ." She grinned
and did
something
that caused Apoc to jump a little.
"Can I have another Manhattan?" Mouse asked.
"What happened
to the one you just had?" Switch said. He shrugged, then switched his empty
glass with
Cypher’s while
Cypher was ogling a woman on the dance floor.
"I love Matrix
women," Cypher muttered. Only Trinity could hear him. "No disease. No inhibitions.
Hey––what
happened to my drink?"
Trinity sighed
and also turned toward the dance floor. She hadn’t danced in a long time.
They were all
hackers, not
dancers. In the Matrix they’d been cooped up behind screens and keyboards,
too busy with
symbols and
numbers to think about dance steps and rhythm. Shit, they were nerds. Nerds
can’t dance.
Trinity hadn’t
partied in a long time either––at least not since Morpheus had noticed
that her ambition and
talent put
her ahead of her colleagues. Let’s see, there was that Zion party in the
early 90s where she
woke up next
to some guy named Zink . . . and then there was that time they got a little
crazy with the
moonshine
on the ship . . . all of that was a really long time ago.
"Trinity, are you still drinking that same beer?" Apoc said.
She looked down at the bottle. "Yeah."
He shook his head. "Want to try another drink for a while?"
"No. I’m fine with beer."
"She’s from Kansas," Switch explained. "They only drink beer there."
"Missouri, not Kansas. And someone here has to stay sober. It might as well be me."
"Oh Trinity,"
Switch said. "Why don’t you just let go for once in your life? It might
do you some good.
Don’t you
remember when you threw me that Loss-of-Real-World-Virginity party? Now
I’m just
returning
the favor."
"That was years ago," Trinity muttered.
"Whoa!" Mouse
said, quickly stealing a sip from Apoc’s glass. "Loss-of-Real-World-Virginity
party? Will
you throw
one for me too?"
"Ha! Notice it’s real world virginity, Mouse," Cypher said, "so the lady in red doesn’t count."
"Sex is sex," Mouse said.
"Sex with nonconsentual
computer programs does not count," Apoc said. "And it’s not even that
enjoyable."
He set his drink down and looked up. "Not that I would know." He grabbed
Switch’s hand.
"C’mon, let’s
go dance . . . or something." They left the table.
"This should
be interesting," Cypher told Trinity. "Two nasty geeks tripping all over
themselves to vile
techno music."
"Yea," Mouse
said and picked up Switch’s drink. He finished that in one gulp, then did
the same with
Apoc’s.
"Mouse, I am
not going to hold your head over a toilet later tonight," Trinity said.
She looked at Cypher.
"I’ll get
Cypher to do it instead."
* * *
The night flipped
by and Trinity continued to nurse the occasional drink and listen to the
jokes and
laughter of
her crewmates. They were so comfortable in these surroundings. Why am I
like this? she
wondered.
She couldn’t help but check over her shoulders for the formidable form
of an agent, or the
slightly less
agile form of a regular cop.
"Will you just chill?" Cypher said to her. "You act like somebody’s grandmother."
"Just trying to keep everyone safe."
"We’re safe.
Jesus." He stuck his nose back into his drink. He was beginning to slur
his words now.
Switch and
Apoc were at the end of the table, laughing uncontrollably about a bungled
memory. Mouse
had disappeared,
but strangely this didn’t bother Trinity.
"If anything happens to you guys, Morpheus will have me drawn and quartered."
"Morpheus this, Morpheus that. Since when did you start living for Morpheus?"
"I’m just being realistic, that’s all."
"Nothing will happen to us. We got another crew watching out for us."
"Who?"
"Choi and all them."
Trinity shook
her head and took another sip of what she was drinking. "Oh, that makes
me feel better.
Choi is an
undercover officer who scouts for new hacking talent. He wouldn’t know
how to use a gun if it
cocked itself."
"What’s that?"
Trinity looked
up to find a thin man and his attractive girlfriend. "Hello," she said
quietly and took another
swig of her
beer.
"Hey! It’s
Choi and Dujour!" Apoc exclaimed. He tried to stand up, fell over once,
then regained balance.
He slapped
Choi on the back. "Haven’t seen you in the flesh since Zion in ’96."
"Yeah, well," Choi said in his tenor voice, "my stint with the CIA lasted longer than we planned."
"Wow Trinity," Dujour said, "you look great. Not a day over twenty-five, I’d say."
"Thanks," Trinity
said. They’d always vexed her, these two. Whenever they had to collaborate
on
missions,
Trinity kept the small talk to a minimum.
"Too bad we
ladies can’t show more skin in the real world," Dujour continued. "I never
have gotten over
the terrible
shock of having plugs."
You’ve never gotten over the shock of your first training program, Trinity thought.
"That’s a nice hat," Dujour said.
Trinity looked up. "I’m not wearing a hat."
Dujour doubled
over with laughter. Switch heard and started laughing too. "Hey, I don’t
mean to break up
the fun,"
Choi said, "but I think your boy’s over there doing a table dance."
"Woo hoo," Switch said. She was completely drunk. "Go Mouse."
"I’m so basted," Apoc said. "I mean . . . wasted."
"Yeah, well
we’ll let you get back to your partying," Choi said. He looked afraid––like
the crew of the
Nebuchadnezzar
might return his favor by vomiting on his shoes.
When Mouse
got back to the table he was in a crying mood. "I love you guys," he kept
saying. "What
would I do
without you? This war is so horrible, so horrible and it’s killing me .
. ." He threw himself on
Trinity. "Please
Trinity. Please, I want you to do one thing for me."
"I’m afraid to ask."
"Will you make out with Switch?"
Trinity pushed Mouse off of her and onto Cypher. "Pervert."
"I’m only seventeen,"
Mouse wept. "I’m only seventeen and I’ve already killed five people. Oh
God,
when will
it end?" He reached over and took one last swig of nearly empty glass.
"Good-bye everybody.
This is the
end." He keeled over onto the floor.
* * *
Minutes later
they were in the parking-lot, dragging Mouse’s limp body along. "This is
all your fault,"
Trinity said
to Apoc.
"Did I pump those tears out of his eyes? No, I don’t think so." He began to laugh again.
"No, but you certainly bought us enough drinks."
"What was he crying about anyway?" Cypher asked.
"His latest
saga," Apoc answered. "He’s been pissing and moaning for weeks now about
something the
oracle told
him."
"Bad news from
the oracle," Switch said. "We all know that feeling." She cast a
wayward glance at
Trinity.
"Well, we certainly can’t drive out of here," Apoc said. "Trinity, can you drive?"
"No. I’m long past driving, I’m afraid."
"I lost the keys anyway," Apoc replied.
"We’ll have to walk to the nearest exit," Cypher said.
"Give me your
cell," Trinity said, assuming her authoritarian posture and holding out
an outstretched hand.
He surrendered
his phone and she dialed Tank.
While they
were staggering along, Trinity went over what she would tell Morpheus if
he ever found out
about this
little venture. I was just watching out for them, she would say. I was
afraid to leave them there
alone. No––that
was no good. Morpheus would just ask her why she didn’t come back to the
ship and get
him involved.
She just had to cross her fingers and hope this never came to Morpheus’s
attention.
Now Switch was walking next to her. "So Trinity, been to see the oracle lately?"
"No," Trinity answered swiftly.
"That’s funny,"
she replied. "I thought you and Morpheus were fond of her. I thought you
went to see her
often."
"Not really," Trinity said.
"Trinity,"
Switch whispered, "we used to talk about these things, remember? We used
to hang out after
work was done."
"Well. I’ve been busy."
"Apparently. Too busy for Apoc and me." She strolled ahead and was now leading the pack.
Apoc, who was
holding Mouse up on one end, overheard the part of the conversation about
the oracle.
"Hey, remember
our old buddy Ironhand?"
Trinity remembered
the odd crew member who suffered an unfortunate birth defect that made
his hand
into the shape
of a clothes iron. Hell of a hacker, but he hadn’t lasted that long. "What
about him?"
"The oracle
sure did a number on him. She told him to beware of his weaknesses. He
always told me that
meatball sandwiches
were his weakness. Sure enough, two months later he caught a bullet while
eating at
a Subway on
the east side. That was that."
"Death by a meatball sandwich," Cypher said. "That’s how I want to go."
"Don’t be ridiculous," Trinity said.
An old subway
station housed their exit. They clamored down the concrete steps, drunk
on liquor and
cool Matrix
air. The phone began to ring and Cypher and Apoc both held Mouse’s head
to the receiver.
They both
exited next. This left Switch and Trinity alone. Trinity went over and
placed the receiver back
on its hook.
"Switch," she began, "I never meant––"
The phone began to ring. "What?" Switch asked.
"Never mind." Trinity moved to answer the phone.
"No," Switch
said. "Tell me what you were going to say." She held her small, white hand
over the
receiver.
"For the last few years you’ve been treating Apoc and me like your little
minions and I’m not
going to put
up with it anymore."
"Minions? Well, excuse me for growing up. I’ve got a job to do––"
"Bullshit,"
Switch said. She was angry, and you did not want to make Switch angry.
The last person who
had made Switch
angry nearly had his arm blown off. "Since when did your position become
so important
that you couldn’t
communicate with us anymore?" She suddenly looked flustered and turned
away. "You
know how hard
it is for me to say all this. I’ve never been . . . well, I’ve always left
this sort of thing to
Apoc."
Trinity simply stared. "What do you want me to do? Who do you want me to be?"
"Jesus, I don’t know. You used to be . . . funny."
Whatever patience
Trinity might have had dissolved at that last line. The phone continued
to ring loudly in
her ear like
the persistent chirping of an alarm clock. "You––you want to know something
funny, Switch?
You want to
laugh? Fine, here’s something for you to mull over in your precious spare
time: I’m fucking
betrothed
to the One. How’s that for humor? The oracle told me that when the One
comes, I’m going to
fall in love
with him. And that’s how we’ll know. An awful lot of pressure on one person,
don’t you
think? To
screen all of these potentials day after day and think, ‘Do I like this
guy? Can I picture myself
going to bed
with him?’ Ha. Funny, isn’t it? I hope you have a good laugh." She reached
for the phone.
She didn’t
get to the receiver in time. Switch reached over and slapped her across
the face and Trinity
jumped back,
alarmed and shocked by the blow. It hadn’t hurt as much as it had surprised
her.
"You’re a liar," Switch said. "Lying bitch! I will not be lied to, Trinity."
Before Trinity
could react by striking back at Switch, Switch picked up the receiver and
was gone.
Seconds passed
before the phone began to ring again. It was rude, harsh sound that filled
the underground
tunnel, radiating
outwards like a sharp blast of light.
* * *
In the following
days everyone resigned themselves to the commonplace drudgery to which
they had
become accustomed.
Trinity refused to think about, much less talk about, the events which
had unfolded
the night
the crew went into the Matrix. Even when Mouse tried to apologize for some
of the things he’d
said (apparently
Apoc had filled him in as he’d blacked out), Trinity told him she didn’t
care, she wasn’t
thinking about
it, and she hadn’t lost any sleep over it. It didn’t tarnish her opinion
of him, she told him.
Which was
true, because Trinity had always regarded Mouse as a young, up-and-coming
pervert.
Trinity buried
herself in her work, which was combing the Matrix for unusual hacking talent.
Morpheus
had dropped
a large stack of paper in her lap that morning that detailed, in code,
the long path a particular
hacker had
taken in order to change his salary. "Thought you might like to see this,"
he said. Trinity felt a
strange, surging
sickness in her stomach that was either caused by the effect of liquor
on her RSI or the
thought of
another prophetic hacker.
That afternoon
Switch came into mess hall where Trinity was eating alone. She simply cleared
her throat
and stopped.
They still hadn’t spoken.
Switch slowly turned around. "Does Morpheus know?"
Trinity didn’t look up. "Not unless the oracle told him."
"So . . . I’m the only person you’ve told."
Trinity said nothing.
"I’m sorry," she said quietly. "I was so out of line."
"You were," Trinity replied. "Everyone was."
"Except you."
Switch slowly moved to the bench where Trinity was sitting. "The reason
I . . . well, I
might as well
say it . . . Apoc and I aren’t long for this world."
Trinity dropped her spoon and looked up. "What are you talking about?"
"That’s another
thing that came from the oracle. Not that she was outright blunt about
it, but I gathered
enough of
the general meaning."
"What did she say?"
"I don’t know.
She told Apoc, not me. I guess he begged her not to tell me, so she didn’t
. . . but
unfortunately
he talks in his sleep. I pressed him for details and he finally broke down
and told me.
Apparently,
we’ll meet the One, but not much else. His coming ‘will hail the destruction
of the Matrix,’
and of us
as well."
"Oh my God,"
Trinity said. She felt like the bottom of the mess hall had dropped out
from under her. She
swallowed,
than took a huge breath of air.
"I was hoping it might be a while, but after what you told me . . ."
Trinity put a hand on Switch’s arm. "It might still be a while."
Switch smiled. "Yeah, well. That’s a nice thought, isn’t it?"
Trinity was
still clinging to hope. Switch was the first friend she’d ever had on the
Neb––the only other
person whose
sense of humor was sharp enough to keep her entertained. And Apoc, with
his quiet
warmth. .
. . She couldn’t tolerate the thought that her salvation would be their
destruction. It was the
cruelest sort
of fate. "You can get out of here. Go to Zion and work for the resistance
there."
Switch shook
her head then laughed ruefully. "I’ve read Oedipus enough times
to know what happens
when you pull
stunts like that. Fate is fate." She got up to leave. "Oh Trinity, don’t
look like that. We’ve
had a good
time, haven’t we?" She grinned. "I just hope it’s something spectacular
and unexpected. Like a
great explosion.
I like the thought that we could go out in a blaze of glory."
II.
Months later,
several of the shipmates were sitting in the mess-hall eating dinner, chatting
and playing
cards. The
hatch burst open.
"Morpheus is fightin’ Neo!" Mouse exclaimed, his eyes bulging with excitement.
Like everyone
else, Trinity didn’t think. She simply reacted. They all scrambled for
the hatch and scurried
up to the
core to watch the action. This was a new development––no trainee had ever
fought Morpheus in
his first
day––or in his first week, for that matter.
As she watched
Neo fight, Trinity became increasingly aware of a fluttering in her stomach
that plagued
her when Neo
was around.
"Jesus Christ he’s fast," Mouse whispered. "Take a look at his neuro-kinetics, they’re way above normal!"
They were.
It was frightening. Out of the corner of her eye, she saw Switch and Apoc
exchange
suspicious
glances.
The other crewmates
might have been talking, but Trinity didn’t notice. Then the order came
from
Morpheus:
load the jump program.
"What if he makes it?" Mouse asked, idealism shining in his eyes.
"No one’s ever made their first jump," Tank pointed out, but he sounded optimistic himself.
"I know, I know––but what if he does?"
"He won’t," Apoc said quietly.
Trinity didn’t
even realize she was secretly urging him until the words "come on" left
her lips––a whisper
that sounded
more like a breath. Then––she wasn’t breathing anymore. She was in limbo,
just waiting,
just waiting
. . . and he missed.
Mouse let out a sigh of exasperation. "Wha––what does that mean?"
"It doesn’t mean anything," Switch said.
Trinity was
already on her way back to the mess hall. Downstairs, she slowly gathered
the dishes and got
ready to wash
them out. It was Cypher’s turn to do the dishes, but now she needed something
to get her
mind off the
preceding events.
Quietly, Switch
entered the dining hall. She studied Trinity. "Geez Trinity, you look like
a sentinel just ate
your best
friend."
"I’m just busy, that’s all. I’ve got a lot on my mind."
"Everybody falls the first time. Remember?"
"Uh-huh. I wasn’t expecting him to make it."
"Everyone pretty
much scattered when he came out of it. No one wanted Morpheus to know they’d
been
entertained
by the latest trainee." She moved over to a stack of kitchenware. "I don’t
think he ate today,
and now he’s
gone to bed. Why don’t you bring him dinner?"
"Bring him dinner? I have better things to do."
Switch chuckled.
"It’s okay to put that women’s lib stuff aside for once, Trinity." Switch
siphoned a bowl
of slop from
the pump. She put it on a tray and thrust it into Trinity’s hands. "Go
ahead. Let yourself feel
instead of
think." She left Trinity with the tray and went away from the mess hall.
* * *
He’d collapsed
in an awkward heap on top of the bed. He hadn’t bothered to get under the
covers. She
almost said
something to wake him but thought better of it, and she walked slowly into
his quarters and
crouched near
the bed. She set the tray down. Would he wake up and eat this? Probably
not––he was out
cold.
She studied
him for a minute––that pale, unsuspecting face, those long eyelashes. She
was close enough to
breathe him
in, so she inhaled quietly and held her breath. They were so close, nearly
touching. She
wanted to
touch his face, the stubble on his head––anything that was a part of him.
And she let herself live
in the moment
and forget briefly about the things that had to be done. Right now, she
could feel herself
breathing
his air.
At that moment,
she didn’t know that Cypher was lingering in outside the door, or that
Morpheus had a
job for her
to do. As she crouched near Neo, half-hoping for him to awake and find
her, and half-hoping
for him to
remain asleep, she felt everything become perfectly clear. Just for a moment.
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