Find myself giving in so much that I hardly recognise myself anymore.. I mean I do enjoy the times spent with him.. but yet I feel quite... left out of his world... like I'm just someone passing by his world... it doesn't matter if I'm there or not.. eventually I'd only be someone who has left some footprints in his heart..

Some gal, who has loved him..

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Don't partners bring out the best in each other? why do I feel like I'm hidden away?

Am I being too irrational here?

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Too dependent on him... expecting too much I guess... but I thought my expectations were reasonable?

how can anyone, after going through what we go through, just suddenly act like nothing has happened?

I'm amazed really.. the way he changes his attitude... from one to another.. so much so that I feel like a slut?

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I need a life outta hall.. I need to find myself.. I need to find the lost dignity which I had...

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I've realised how much I've thrown away.. realised how much I'm giving... perhaps retribution do exist... I'm starting to believe...

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don't be silly, I'm just thinking too much.. its stress really...

but somehow I think its a gal's instinct...

that I'm going to be hurt really badly...

and I think its time.. to do something bout it..

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yes I enjoy my time spent with him... I can be myself.. act silly.. but I don't feel appreciated... one moment I'm treasure.. another thrown away like trash?

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no this is not good.. this is PMS....

what has become of me?

gosh.. imagine the heartbreak my dad, brother, friends would have if they see me they way I am now...

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Time to do some changes...

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Being loved is still so much better than loving...

but I don't regret loving him...

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