just got back from a long talk with Shingfeng.. talking to him did help me a lot... don't know what got into me tonight.. I just suddenly felt very insecure... ironically I was asking him to cheer up... by then I was in depression... so in the end he cheered me up... had a walk around RH... and then to his room.. I'm so sure this is going to cause a scandal.. haha.. but what the heck... its nice talking to him.. coz I think we had the same kind of experience in relationships and we're in a way facing the same problem... so yes it was nice hearing from his point of view... couldn't offer him any advice coz I don't exactly know the gal...

its nice to have a shoulder to cry on... not that I really did cry on his shoulder... but nice to be offered...

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lately been asking myself... how much are we progressing? how long do I have to wait before I finally get over this hurting period? last week I was still telling him that I'm past that stage of hurting.. but tonight I just simply lost it...

one more question that has been bugging me... do I really like him? or am I just holding on?

met Yongling online today.. and she told me she was pretty amazed with how much I have fallen with Yk... didn't realise it myself.. I mean I sorta knew that fact but I didn't exactly pondered on it... heh... so then she enlightened me... yes I do like him.. but most of the time we're talking so much crap that I don't even feel any connection with him... I want to confide in him... I want to tell him things but I don't know where to start... he just doesn't have time for all these crap... no time to go for walks.. no time to listen to me asking him questions or talking bout his past... how do you understand a person? sigh.. I feel like I know him.. but I don't exactly do... and all he knows bout me.. is minimum...

Shingfeng told me that ... neh.. should just give him time... he's quite f***ked up now with his studies... and he just needs time to settle down... ya... I know.. I am giving him time... But at the same time am I entitled to feel like shit?

I think so...

I'm much better as compared to the past few weeks... really...

no worries.. I'm fine now...

after that talk... I feel more confident... yup.. thats what I need.. so yes.. I snap outta it already... =)

thanx Shingfeng.. you're been a great help...

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good night people... have a great week ahead!

I know I am... =)

*wink*

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