Started mugging a few days ago.. feels like taking 'A's all over again... can't believe I'm going to feel like this every Sem... sigh... getting stressed up by everyone else in Hall.. everyone else is studying.. so if you're not studying you're kinda doomed kinda feeling.. been trying to camp out at RH Library but I always end up sleeping at the sofa at the upper lounge.. eventually everyone just slept there whenever they felt like they cun take it anymore... heh... spent the whole of Wednesday camping out there... brain cun take it anymore.. from that day onwards I just kept going back there to camp out... until yesterday... decided that sleeping there was no longer a good idea... it was getting too frequent... so decided to camp out at his room instead... haha... yup! until of course I had to come back and sleep... not very nice studying there while Eujin slept... hrm... but they are stressing me out!!

feel like I'm more settled down now... with studying in mind... gotta brush other things outta my mind.. the insecurities... the PMS... the crappy feelings... its just all ahead to exams!!! heh...

then again there was one night which I cried really hard... hrm... something which I felt really happy about didn't last... in a matter of a few hours... that happiness was snatched away from me... hrm... yup! and it didn't help that I was sleeping when it happened...

cried really hard... didn't want to scare the other guys so ran to com hall... but Bruder followed me coz he felt something was really wrong... believe me... I cried my hearts out to him... until my eyes were really swollen and I had major nose block... haha.. it got quite hilarious after a while though.. heh.. I mean emotionally I felt much better after crying.. but physically it just sucked.. haha.. had to wait till my eyes weren't so swollen then I dared to go back.. didn't want to cause anymore misunderstandings.. I mean seriously.. I can understand the reasons... Its just pretty hard to accept it.. didn't help that I heard something else from my other friends... yeah... that feeling just sucked... and I think I might have over reacted a little... one thing I know for sure.. I wanted to cry for a long time already.. so I guess that was the thing that snapped it... yup!

I'm much better now... so no worries!!

back to contented Nellie!! hahaha

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One Month...

Thanx Darling for being such a sweet boyfriend...

For the times I threw my tantrums...for the times we had our disagreements... for the times I felt like crap.. for the times that you assured me... for the nice things that you've done...

yup!

I Love You!

ToTeMo SuKi DeSu Ne!!!

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