ok I have just officially gone nuts... hrm... love Wednesdays... coz I can just slack around whole day.. cleaning up the room... typing entries... reflecting on stuff.. hrm... yup! =)

besides I get to spend some time alone.. spend some time with my room mate.. who erm.. happens to be having lunch with her beloved now.. heh.. neh.. not in this room la~

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yesterday sank into depression... ya.. suddenly felt like I was being taken for granted... missed Lihling lots.. and worse.. started to think bout Paul.. plus I had a song that he always sings.. gee.. it just broke me.. came back to the room feeling like crap.. then went back to his room to cry... heh... of course he cun figure out why I was so emotional... so I just slept on his bed.. while he studied..

why did I think of Paul? coz I really think I've let him down... coz I think one day I'm going to get retribution.. coz I've hurt him.. coz I finally understand how he felt... and how hurt he must be now... and truthfully... I'm helpless...

two ways to recover?

cry and sleep...

or and being with him did help... by the time I woke up I was fine... =)

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Had a walk around NUS again... love it! cleared my doubts.. was assured... and I had a great time just walking and crapping! haha..

had pizza for supper again! =) this time included Shingfeng.. if not angry again then how?

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did some work at night... and then fell asleep in his arms again!

hahaha... so happy!

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Like the ways things are now..

touched by the fact that he managed to control again!

gonna suffer from diabetes due his sweetness...

I found him! and I'm keeping him! hahaha...

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*going nuts*

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Thought for the day....

Would you marry someone whom you love or someone who loves you?

Ideally you would marry the one you love.. but for security... for a long term future... you would marry the one who loves you...

right?

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Note to Bruder...

Know its very tough for you now... but just hang on ok? you'll pass through this... I know how you feel.. coz I've been through that with you right? but I just happen to be bit luckier... perhaps coz I'm a gal? you understand how she feels now... you know she wants to wait.. so all you have to do is give her time.. meanwhile take this time to heal your wounds... build up your lost confidence... I know you can do it! Have faith in you!

Remember though... when you need a shoulder to cry on... I'll always be here for you k? just drop me a message or something... =)

Jia you!!!!

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Happen to be online chatting to this friend of mine... hrm.. have found out that really.. he's quite a pessimist... hrm... I'm a pro-happiness person! pro-optimist! have to admit was a bit dampened by what he said...

things don't last forever... yes I know that... but I'm not going to go through every day of my life thinking bout that...

I'm treasuring what I have now...

so that when I look back... I'd not regret anything that I have done or should have done...

I'm very happy now... really..

especially after watching a stupid movie.. haha.. as usual.. sweet... nice... lame... but haha.. its the company!! not the show itself la!

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