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Previous : Sunday Next : Freedom... for Now ************************************ yeap! that right! I have about a week more to my last paper on the 26th! which is why I'm slacking now! wahaha.. love it! not having to wake up early in the morning... stress over having papers the next day.. and standing outside MPSH sweating like a dog... hahaha.. slept pretty later yesterday.. 4? just slacking around and refusing to sleep... did some things which I should have done like long time ago.. and finally contentedly went to sleep... =) in fact I just woke up.. and its about 1230... yeap! its a goooooood feeling to lie in... but then again feel a bit strange coz everyone else is having exams now... can't believe its over so fast! hahaha... few days ago I can't wait for Wednesday to come! now its finally here! wahaha... too bad no one to enjoy with me at this moment... but just as well... get to spend some time alone.. do some self reflection? appreciate the people around me.... breathe in the nice nice air and think ah.... life is beautiful... =) ******************************* Monday had my econs paper in the afternoon which I totally screwed up coz I forgot the stupid formula... there goes 6 marks! and my mcq was shit too! there goes *fly fly fly* yeap... but should be able to pass la... heh... just thankful that it was over... Monday night studied in Shawn's room for a while but nothing got into my head... well... some... but gee... I was soo saturated... so ended up chatting, listening to songs and rotting for 2 hours... hrm... destress! Tuesday Nightmare.. had two papers.... first was psych... after the first hour I was just very ready to tear up the whole exam paper... darn! it was hard! the fill in the blanks.... gee.... and I thought I studied hard enough already... apparently I still need to mug more... came back for some last minute revision before going back for my second paper... SEA... gee... I forgot how much fun crapping can get... and how crappy I am in exams... 20 minutes before the paper ended... people were already walking out and there I was sitting down there thinking of more stuff to crap... hey.. at least make the paper look nice right? heh.... din care if I screwed all the papers up not.. I was just glad its over! =) *yeah* aye... I have mastered the skill of crapping... thats what you do in arts... you crap! Tuesday night... did nothing but slack...slack...slack... so so so very happy everything is almost over! ************************* Now.... I'm just sitting in front of the comp... thinking... I'm very contented.... 2 nights ago had major mood swing... got upset by some of the things that he said.. and yes... he successfully pissed me off... coz according to him.. that was his aim... dun worry... you're very good at upsetting me already.... idiot! but then again think it was partly my fault... hrm... but we're cool..... **************************** those insecurities... realised that as time goes by.. it fades away... coz you realise that hey... he does feel for you... you mean more to him than you think... coz most of the time I think I'm worth very little to him... hrm.. like Wanjing said, this is the first time I'm feeling this way... things are more settled down... I guess... exams coming to an end... should get much better... =) I feel loved! *********************** Yeap.. not only by him... but by lots of other people too! feels nice to be appreciated once in a while really... Rora... can't believe I missed out talking to her that much... Monday night when she came.. gee... I finally realised how much I miss her... how much I miss telling her stuff.. how much I want to hug her... rot in front of the Tv and watch stupid movies the whole day... yeah I miss that! most of all... gee... I miss her cooking! **************************** Brother.... hrm... haven't spent much time with him... not that we've drifted or anything... hrm... still miss him though... those stupid things that we'd say... me bugging him in his room.. heh.. bet he misses that too yea? hahaha ***************************** Daddy.... guess I really haven't seen him much... but really... I love him and miss him lots too! ************************** Monday before the exam... Weizheng messaged me to wish me luck... and suddenly.. felt very very touched... hrm.. told ya all I'm a very easily satisfied gal... very easily touched one really... I mean hrm.. the thought that someone is thinking of you... wishing you all the best for papers... making an effort to... its just very nice... Thanx man! I didn't know why... but erm.. maybe coz I was feeling really stressed out.. your message helped a lot! next time my turn k! =) was very happy over the fact that he sent me over too! =) ******************************** Monday night... received Lihling's letter from Shanghai... gosh... was reading during dinner.. and was trying hard not to cry... hrm... was just very touched by her letters... what she wrote inside.. "Happiness shared is happiness doubled" "I'm happy coz you're happy" yeap... miss this gal sooooo much! suddenly hit me that darn..... she is really far away... and I haven't seen her for some time already... and I haven't spoken to her.. and I think I've been too busy with other stuff... and I really need to call her up more often.. miss miss miss you... really! can you come back... like sit in my living room... fantasize bout cute guys.... hahhaa... gee... ****************************** Yesterday night.... hrm.. ok forgive me if I'm jumping around too much... felt truly... complete... ************************** hrm... besides that.... was pretty happy over the testimonial that a particular friend wrote for me... yeap... felt appreciated... that hey... I didn't waste my time and effort! yeap! ************************* was telling Xinru that I feel something is still missing... hrm.. but now.. I guess not? ******************** needa get outta this hall really... ********************** �@ �@ |