sorrie I can't be there to celebrate with you.. but hm.. then again.. you have him to accompany you.. heh.. =) no I'm not trying to sound sarcastic.. its nice to spend with someone special.. =)

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Last day in Japan..

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woke up super early for the fish market - Tsukiji market

geee... walked around the market... was super amazed with the sizes of the fish.. they're huge!! the crab.. gosh the crab!! I could survive on that for like a month!! *stun* oh.. they have huge tuna.. ok.. basically everything there is huge!! kept wondering how did they manage to grow up to that size.. hm..

had sashimi nearby... ooo extremely fresh~~ yum yum.. =)

daddy bought some salted Salmon as usual... =)

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Japan's cold... been raining everyday so the temperature has dropped quite a lot.. hm... *shiver* wore sleeveless out today.. but came back to change into something with more cloth.. if not I would have frozen to death.. =( but its just right.. cooling..

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bought lots of stuff today.. last minute shopping at Ueno.. the big UniQlo... tried on quite a few pieces.. but only bought one.. coz I was too tired to try on anymore.. in the end I bought what I didn't try.. heh.. =p

bought some snacks as well from these very cheap shops.. those snacks can only last for bout a month so we could only buy on the last day..

geee.. the packing was disastrous.. too many things and too little space.. we came with 2 suitcase.. now we have 6 piece of luggage! hahaha.. we're good eh? heh.. but 3 of them contains snacks and fish.. as for the others.. mostly clothes.. =)

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seeing that it was our last day in Japan.. we had to visit the hot spring again!! hahaha.. it was perfect timing.. coz I was feeling pretty cold.. so the hot spring was good! =) weighed myself again.. - haha.. yes obsession with weight.. on the first day I weight 48.6kg.. today I weigh 49.8kg... ah!!! ok thats not too bad.. but it includes the fact that I skipped lunch again! hahaha..

lots of people there today.. they had some promotion going on... so to my surprise.. I saw a few Caucasians.. and more young gals! heh.. for once.. not all Obasans.. =p

I broke my record!! hahaa.. stayed in the Sauna for bout half an hour!! hahaha.. ok at least that was what the clock said.. stayed in the steam bath for bout 15 minutes.. and soaked myself in freezing cold water for bout 5! hahaha.. but as a result I had 'nao cong xie' hahaha.. sudden rush of blood to my head... very nearly fainted...

next time cannot hot cold hot cold.. hahaha..

daddy made me eat something coz he didn't want me to faint... heh.. =) then brother and I decided to go for this special sauna room.. you go in dressed.. and lie down on small little stones.. for bout 10 minutes.. not too bad! was sweating quite a lot.. =)

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I love Daddy~~ =)

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had to rush off to Tokyo tower at 7.. coz according to brother it closes at 8 ... so throughout the journey all I felt was anxiety... what if I didn't make it?? by 7.50 I had already given up hope of going up...

arrived at 7.53... found out that it closes at 9!!! wahahah~ *yeah* *jumps in Happiness* yeah yeah!! hahaha.. was totally ecstatic... bought our tickets and up we went! ooo... people were super polite.. very nice!!

its 150m above the ground.. =) though I have height phobia.. I loved it. Tokyo tower is so much better than I expected.. its a best place for couples!! hahaha.. the lights are soo beautiful.. *mesmerized* Tokyo's still pretty bright at night.. the sky is... grey.. not black.. hm.. hardworking people they are.. *impressed*

took another elevator up another 100 meters!! =) ooo... drifting in the clouds.. too bad it was raining.. so was quite foggy.. if not it would be enchanting.. but still.. it was great! daddy told us that he has been up the Tokyo tower don't know how many times but he has never gone up to the highest!! hahaha.. what a waste! so this time it was totally worth it!! =)

happy happy happy! =) *yeah*

took loads of pictures.. hahhaa.. crazy me.. it just made my day... =) noticed that the area's a business district.. hm.. never been there before..

yeah!

could see almost the whole of Tokyo and even mount Fuji! hhaa.. ok thats provided if its good weather.. didn't see the Mountain.. but saw the rainbow bridge.. good enough! =)

I love Tokyo Tower!!!! =)

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home sweet home tomorrow..

I'll miss Japan..

I'll be back!!! =)

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baby.. sorry if I sound like shite.. wasn't the right time to talk eh?? =) miss ya! =)

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sometime when you don't see a person you don't think of that person.. - out of sight out of mind - but when that person becomes part of your life.. that person will always be there.. subconsciously..

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heh.. suddenly friends of mine are attached... hm... 3 that I know.. all Virgos.. just simply feel happy for them.. =)

my advice? take good care.. =)

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ah~ getting attached is so much fun!! being attached is so very sweet... being attached and not being able to see one another.. ah.. I feel deprived.. I feel attached.. and yet single.. sometimes I tell myself this is a test.. yet sometimes I wonder if this relationship is worth the test.. heh.. silly eh? I feel trapped.. oh shit.. there I go again.. I'm entering a whole new phase of my life.. and yet I'm still very much stuck in the past... simply memories.. nothing else.. insecurity.. anticipation.. excitement.. the unknown.. the unpredictable stuff.. the future.. hm.. I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed.. am I limiting myself? I don't know..

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You're a stranger to me.. yet I feel obliged to be bonded.. if you knew this was going to happen would you still make the choice you made? I haven't felt anything for you for a long time... not hate.. thats history... not love.. because you hurt me too much for me to love you.. I've grown so accustomed to not having you in my life and suddenly you're trying so desperately to know whats going on in my life.. I admit my rejection made it harder for your return.. but your disregard for my feelings didn't leave me with a choice.. I was a kid.. what do you expect? I'm in dilemma... you were once my only source of comfort.. my confidant.. my hope.. but you made that choice which took that all away from me.. you knew that day was coming.. didn't you? why couldn't you spare a thought for me? am I being very selfish here? its all me... me.. me.. I've spent too much time crying over your choice.. spent too much time trying to convince myself that was for the best.. but you made a choice.. you made a good one.. you did something that saved all of us from a long term misery.. saved yourself from a long term misery.. you made me stronger.. I have to thank you... but in between that bitter gratitude.. I feel nothing else.. I will always be part of you.. I know that.. its a undeniable fact... don't worry.. you will never know how bitter I feel.. I won't allow it.. you will never know that seriously.. I'm not affected by your absence.. I am who I am because you made that choice..

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