been having clashes with Family members lately.. I thought I've passed that stage... but it was like alternate day with different people.. I guess I really pissed him off.. coz I was getting stressed over the modules.. the hostel.. and then daddy started to nag.. somehow I didn't like the way he said some stuff.. admit I was also in the wrong.. but I didn't like people to nag..

a bit guo fen I think.... yeah thats my problem.. I'm nicer to people outside of family.. which is wrong!! I love my family!! I'm just full of contradictions.. darn it..

ended up talking back to my daddy.. didn't use to do that.. but now I just want to make him understand how I feel.. when two people get angry.. geee... its the end of the world.. especially when I have a very bad temper like my dad.. I knew I had an attitude problem.. but he was getting all agitated... came home first with brother.. and packed my stuff to hostel..

hate it when we have such quarrels.. when we both act childish.. when I can't care less bout how other people think.. when I'm in the middle of a transition.. I get quite lost..

yeah.. I'm spoilt... somehow I wish I wasn't...

wanted to patch up almost immediately but I didn't know how to.. hate cold wars...even receiving email from Kazuki didn't cheer me up too..

sheeze...

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checked into the hostel.. reailsed that I should have listened to my daddy.. but hey.. I knew what to do.. heh.. besides the lady at the counter was really nice.. she helped me photocopy.. =)

as the hours went by.. I felt more an more guilty.. was very tempted to stay over.. but erm.. I had to come home and make up for my childish behaviour..

cleaned the room.. yeah~ bunking in with Phua!! hahaha.. room wasn't as dirty as we thought it'd be.. but still.. a lot of hair!! wiped the whole floor of fours after Phua left.. haha.. I think I'm a clean freak!

so exciting.. staying in a hall!! yeah~

know some of the people staying in hall as well! plus its soo near engin.. ah!!! life is so going to be interesting~~

was starting to be home sick already so decided to go home..

met Wenbin on the bus.. geee.. what a coincidence!!! so decided to visit his room.. hm.. its much better than Raffles hall coz its all single.. and there's lift and lots of other facilities!! haha.. but hey.. I'm contented with having a hall.. =)

moment I got home.. I ate in the Kitchen.. talked to Rora bout the quarrel.. I really know that my dad loves me.. but I really need him to trust me more...

kept telling him that if I wanted to turn bad I would have long time ago.. wouldn't wait till now..

so yeah.. finished my dinner in the Kitchen.. but decided that I should still eat with daddy..

thank goodness he was wiling to put it behind him.. so dinner was as usual!!! =)

though I must have ate like 5 plates of noodles just to sit there longer... argh.. I suck at expressing myself..

happy! realised that hm.. I really really really love the two big guys in my family!!! and I will try to improve!!! really! I will!

*hugz*

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got my campus account!! and I wrote my first cheque in my life!!! sadly its to NUS!!!! argh.. first and its to NUS!! I thought maybe writing one to brother first.. but I will! =)

ah... happy now... waiting to bid for modules... will have to stay home tomorrow coz of the praying and of course moving into hostel.. want to spend more time at home before I move in.. =)

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meanwhile I think I need to rest... been going out way too much... gotta take a break

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