the second chapter....definitly the last one for this fic! more Kikyo thoughts. yet again...short. so short.
"You're there, aren't you Inuyasha? come out."
"Gyaah! You always know where I'm here!"
"There's no need to waste arrows on you."
"Huh?"
"I feel that deep down, you and I are the same. We both fight, and wish for our humanity."
"We and NOT the same!!!"
"I guess not...If you say so."
Days go by. I live the hours in guilt and sorrow. Remembering times when life had meaning, when I had something to live for. Now I live off of the souls of others, shuddering each time they work to keep me alive.
I didn't just live for the Shikon jewel, Maybe at first I did. But later I think I lived partially for Inuyasha. Under the dream we could be together...forever. It made me happy in a way nothing else did.
I wouldn't let him get close at first, but I learned to value his silent watching. Sure he tried to get the jewel form me, but we understood each others emotions and beliefs. We never hurt each other.
I wanted to be with him so much. But it wouldn't work. I tried so hard, but in the end it was a massive maze of confusion. I was lost and so confused. so angry...
People keep using me. They capture my body, and try to make me their slave. In truth, I try to make myself die. But fate is a cruel thing, it never lets me close my eyes. I end up roaming the land, searching for something that can't be found.
As I walk with these thoughts, I come to the top of a hill and look down. Below, I see a familiar figure. Inuyasha....and the other girl. They're both laughing at the little fox demon. Under my watchful eyes, Inuyasha stops. He senses me.
"What's wrong?" Asks the girl
"Kikyo..." Inuyasha turns and sees me
"Oh!" Gasps the girl. And looks straight into my eyes.
I look back at her for a few seconds, then tilt my head slightly to the side. At last I walk away.
It's still painful to see Inuyasha and my reincarnation together, smiling at each other. But my soul is happy, even if my body isn't.
What surprises me about the girl, is her eyes. If I look deep into them, and sink into their warmth, I can see myself. All curled up, waiting for release from my life in hell.
So it comforts me to know, that even when I'm not fully around, part of me is there for Inuyasha.
I hope that turned out as well as Chapter one. ^___^
