I'm irritated today. I'm not exactly sure why. I was hoping an online friend of mine was going to be on last night but he wasn't. No big deal really, I'm sure he was having a great time. Maybe I'm jealous because sometimes I feel like I dont' have a life. LOL. Naw, I guess it is just one of those days...heh. Everyone's little comments are getting to me. They may mean them as a joke but for some reason I'm definately not taking them that way. I really wish I could talk to Robbie again. I'm pathetic, I slept with the phone next to me on the bed...heh.
The internet is so annoying. You meet someone you really get along with and have a lot in common with...and you're just attracted to on every level one can be...and you can't see them or be near them...you can't meet them (at the time) because they are 5 hours away. I guess it sucks more for me because I suck at meeting new people. I don't know what to do. I'm just frustrated I guess.
So on to other things for the time being. We rented two new movies: "Billy Elliot" and "Silent Warnings". Now, Billy Elliot was a very give-you-good-feelings-while-sometimes-depressing-you movie which I liked. Great acting and can't get enough of their Irish accents. I'm addicted especially when I can't tell what the hell they are saying. I was only slightly irritated that the gay friend was actually a transvestite. I'm fine with transvestites but I've gone through my life with too many people assuming all gay men want to look like or be woman. I'm sure that's not what they were going for but that's how my little brain processes it. I'm complicated. LOL. "Silent Warnings" was a horrible movie made by U.F.O. (Unified Film Org. I think). I knew it was going to be bad when I got it. I think, subconciously, that's WHY I got it. It was strange though because Billy Zane was in it and Billy Zane has "kinda" made a name for himself. Anyways, don't see it because it is crap. hehe nuff said.
So life goes on at a crawl. Howard hasn't called to tell me what to do next so I'm going to wait until tomorrow. If he doesn't call I'm leaving him another message. I'm really lonely in all ways one can be lonely. My family is 4 hours away and I only get to talk to them every now and then. Friends seem distant. Possible romances are...well...not sure I want to talk about that anymore. I guess it just makes me more sad. I guess through it all though, I have hope. I'm not as much of a pessimist as it sounds like I am. LOL. And then I start wondering "have I let myself get very attached when the feelings may not be on both ends?". Who knows. Oh well, I should probably go now. We are suppose to game today but danyn is at work so we may not be able to (or we may have to game at 6). Life moves down a track, (insert something inspirational here). LOL