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Simply... Andrew,
September 11 Twin Towers

I watched
Your death upon the screeen
In darkness of the night.
Here...so far away
My voice I could not find
Too warn you of your plight
As my night, became your day.
Here...so far away
I held my breath...
Then in my heart
I heard your silent scream
Upon the tower dread locked grey
Where fear became
night
Here...so far away
haunted eyes stared
Our hearts prayed,
we hoped to dare
As our night painfully became day.
Here...so far away
Morning papers held your smile
Silenty, we hoped you knew,
At that moment...that we loved just...you
Here...so far away
A top the first you died
On that September day
And eerily your own twin sighed.
Here...so far away
Histories eulogy will never say,
How ironically this innocent world
Blistered as one to pray.
Even here
...so
...far
...far away...

'Unconditonally yours'

Mothers' Day
Is not about what comes wrapped
from the store.
It's about what comes wrapped
from the heart.
My Mothers Day came wrapped
Like this...individually.
Twin 1 rang me from two and half thousand kilometers away
from the north and her studies.
Once more she wrapped her words and voice around me
and the distance was...
Only measured in a heart breath.
Twin 2 gave me his 'day before I forget' wrap.
'In case I forget tomorrow Mum, Happy Mothers Day'
I became enveloped in his endless smile
And I knew, he again would forget the next day,
...but some how I didn't mind.
The youngest came to me on this day,
Wrapping her arms around me and simply said
'I love you Mum'
all came unconditionally...
...Somewhere 20yrs vanished
too quickly...and again
Twin 2 interrupted my thoughts
'it's Mothers Day isn't it Mum?'
I smiled his smile...my smile,
As his tall frame draped over mine
Enveloping my worn years
in his praying mantis hug of youth
He whispered...
'Happy Mothers Day Mum'

Wounds

Planes crossed,
blurred where only the blind can see
Vertigo
steadying my greatest fear
not in height
but rejections is
Achievement unknown forte in life
You
My mind confuses thought
Nothing is in focus,not even speech
my own ineptness drags me to my knees
where you tower over me
I realise I'm everything your not
Tears sting my eyes
My heart twists, as tears win control
How can I be your equal when even
with my maths I realise the equation is all wrong.
My life is a challenge
I throw grenades of reason
infront of your steps.
Emotional land mines that scar me
from a previous war of the heart
lie livid and keloid across my soul
mentally and physical
in a patchwork of insanity and life.
But...
you just keep coming towards me,
your strength,
your courage and determintation,
shake my soul.
Only because I was once like you
a refugee of a hearts war.
Only I crashed and burned
my wings torn from my soul
...are you sure you need this?
destiny does not lie
...are you sure you need me
if not just simply
let
this heart
die.

Lifesaver

Deep water
too deep...I pause
sky blue reflects upon a mirror of the soul
no depth, I am hesitiant
I am not pushed
not pulled
but your here...now
it's the water
body temperature
dark...goes on for ever
I'm scared
it's that simple.
Scared, hesitant
the tide rose so fast
and I am naked
innocent
...I ...
nearly went under last time ...past
Past the water mark now
Tread water for too long last time
the weight pulled me under
Scared?
No I'm just terrifed to the essence of my soul
Deep...deep water
dark blue
your waiting
I know
so scared am I
naked I stare into its depth
colour dark blue
Can I stand here a little bit longer?
so scare and I never told you
Will you be angry...I wonder
Can't stay on the shore for ever
the water is at my ankles...rising up my legs slowly,
rising higher past lost innocence
and it seems lifes tide
is coming in
...and it is you I must swim to.

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