So anyway, all the disclaimers that YYH and all it’s glorious characters are not mine, I'm just fiddling with them, hopefully I'll return them…*evil glint* if I feel like it!

 

Oh yeah, before I forget, this is a Yuusuke-Keiko fic that I had concocted last year. To all Yuusuke fans, this is dedicated to you! ^_~

 

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Everything I own

By : D. Gates

Fic By : Helios

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You sheltered me from harm

Kept me warm, kept me warm;

You gave my life to me,

Set me free, set me free;

The finest years I ever knew

Were all the years I had with you

 

>> Yuusuke stood alone in a pathway, the unseen wind blowing through his clothes. He was looking to the distance, his brown eyes reflective and shimmering with unshed tears.

                Keiko.

                Just what drove you to jump into the burning house to save my body? Botan told me it was love. I risked my life in trying to save you. I think that was love also.

                Strange. Of all the things that had kept me going, gave me the drive to go  on trying to find a way to live again, it was you that was foremost in my mind. Seeing you cry during my wake, I guess really did it for me.

                You cried for me…have I ever cried for you?

                Somehow I can't recall. But what I could recall was your constant nagging about going to school, being a good student, to study…yaddah, yaddah…that too was love. Only now do I realize it.

                I think you were my anchor to reality. Giving me somewhere to fall back to when my air headedness drove me to places that I never thought of. And in a way you gave me the freedom to dream, because I knew you were there to support me.<<

 

…

You taught me how to love

What it's of, what it's of?

You never said too much but still you showed the way

And I knew from watching you

Nobody else could ever knew

The part of me that can't let go

 

>>           If you never had been my friend, my girl, my…everything, maybe I would have never had been what I am now. Not that I'm saying that I'm now the model son or anything…that's Kurama's department, but now, I think…I know what love is.

                Because you gave me one of the most beautiful examples I could ever follow.

                You loved me.

I never did know what love was exactly. Kaasan…I really couldn't identify, most of the time she was drunk anyway. But you, you really did love me, even during those times I didn't listen to you or poked fun at you. I guess, that was my way of showing love. But you showed me a different way. A more beautiful way.

A love that was completely pure and had no strings attached. Self-less love that shined through everything you said or did. That was the love you showed me. Yes, maybe attached to it was the constant bickering we have, and maybe a mallet or two, but…I never would have grown up if you hadn't 'raised' me.

You, in a way, were my mother.

I'm not saying Atsuko-kaasan was someone horrible. She tried, I think she did, but she kind of gave up half-way. I guess you're stronger than that. I guess, you read my heart. You read that I needed someone to show me the way. And despite my objections, you knew I needed you.

And I never want to lose you.<<

 

 

Ref

And I would give everything I own

Give up my life, my heart, my home

I would give anything I own

Just to have you back again.

 

bridge:

Is there someone you know?

You're loving them so,

But taking them for granted

You may lose them someday

Someone takes them away

And they don't hear the words you long to say

(ref)

 

>>           But that's just the problem isn't it? We can't have everything we want. You should have told me the day you found out, that…you wouldn't be with me for the rest of my life. You should have told me.

                I could have found a cure for that cancer. I could have torn down Makai, Ningenkai, Reikai... heck I would have taken the next train to Meikai if I could find the cure there! I could have found a way to keep you with me, beside me…forever.

                But I know that I have to let you go now…that you are gone…I don't want you be worried. You worried all your short life about me, I don't want you to worry about me for the rest of afterlife. Don't worry Keiko, I'm a big boy now. I can take care of myself, alone. It hurts not to have you around anymore, but I can handle it. I know that you would want me to handle it like a man.

                But…still, there are things I never told you…

                Like a simple..."Thank you"

                Thank you for not giving up on me. Thank you for giving me back my life. Thank you for reminding me on how life goes. Thank you for not being reluctant on stepping on me, when I am wrong. Thank you for raising me up from the boy I was to whatever I am now. Thank you for showing me how to love…thank you for loving me.

                Thank you.

                And…

                Ai Shiteru.

                Eien ni<<.

 

coda :

Just to touch you once again.

                >> He paused in front of a small tombstone. Kneeling in front of it, he traced the letters of the name he knew so well…"Yukimura Keiko 1983-1999."

                After staring at the tombstone for a while, he nodded briefly, a quiet gesture, speaking all he wanted to say…but couldn't. Standing up, he brushed the dirt from his pants and fixed his collar. When he realized what he was doing, he smiled down at the tombstone saying, "You're rubbing off me already…" with a wistful smile, he turned and walked away from the tombstone…and into a new life<<

 

****Owari****