4.12.03 hmm todays schedule: violin lesson at 10:30 then goin to LA to see BLT... hellyea its gona be so tite. well that is unless its all sold out. damnit.
anyway heres today's ryhmes of the day:
check it cant fade these lyrics my battles i ownage
its juss like NaS its tru i do kick knowledge
i blaze mcs while u hide in scared in the foliage
no matter ur age, race, sex or height
ill blaze u all dont even need no zippo light
its like battlin when uz a blind man swinging with no sight
thas y i own u; u dont even put up a fight
sometimes i feel pity n i think "that aint right"
"ur a weakling getting owned by my incredible might"
but it is right; cuz i got skillz
while u nervous in the back poppin nerve pills
or better yet overdosin on suicide pills
to save urself from disgrace when i kill
u on the stage till ive had my fill
n even when ur down i kill u still
cuz the beat dont stop so i dont stop
ur beggin "no mas" of my lightning judo chop
when im thru u take a step fall down n flop
u dont even go out with a bang juss a silent pop
while im calm, deliberate, settin up shop.
im unstoppable meanin can not be stopped
so why dont u take ur weak ryhmes n try them in rock.
aiite peace.
4.11.03 BLT came out today. see it and represent. anyway i juss got back from church n we had a great speaker wit a crazy malaysian accent.
i was thinkin bout the black struggle for equality and how NaS is such a great guy. NaS preaches pro social messages of self-improvement and work ethic, while many blacks still claim victimization while youth look towards the very selective slice of black culture seen in rap videos. the thing is, such culture will only hold blacks back. they will never be viewed by whites as equals if the image they present is one of violence and street gang activity.
NaS is preachin the right message. his songs, especially "I Can," encourage working and studyin in order to be successful, rather than dealin drugs or stickin up banks. the only way white society, especially high end white society, will ever view blacks as equals, rather than base ghetto kids reveling in killing and drugs, is if the black people as a whole can look towards books rather than guns and work their way up. "read more learn mare change the globe"
thats the importance of knowing the news, history, and english. to know whats going on around you, to know what has gone on before to learn, and to articulate intelligently your ideas. knowledge brings respect in the real world. knowledge of academics is one thing, but knowledge of how to think, whether it be in issues present in the news to philosophical systems of thinking, is just as significant.
thats why i cant stand anti-war idiots. cant they see that saddam is a menace to all civilization that must be stopped at nearly all costs? he represents an immediate threat to all inhabitants of this world and has no regard for human life, as can be seen in the tactics employed by his army. would they rather stay neutral and be apathetic and indifferent? come on; in Revelation, John the apostle writes not to be lukewarm, or else God will "spit you out of his mouth."
anyway, time to get off tha soapbox... peace.
4.9.03 one more time... were gona see BETTER LUCK TOMORROW this weekend in santa monica. represent.
i trample out ur rhymes
so u on tha street beggin for dimes
ud be better silent frantic like a mime
stop now juss make up for lost time
when i spit lyrics chicks say im juss so fine
to you its juss "are u outa ur mind!?"
so juss get back in line
and wait for the chime
announcin ur impendin death
from my vocal caress
that strangles the best
and obliterates tha rest
when the beat hits ur chest
itll lay u to rest
if u try to put me to tha test
its lights out, God bless.
ooohweeee. aiite basically i juss got back from the gym and i showered, so i feel good and im bored. aiite its time for some NBA STREET. aiite peace.
4.8.03 sup yall... i juss got back from a funeral which sucks but atleast hes in a better place. yea it sounds cliche but hey if ur christian, its true. but it still sucks juss seeing everyone crying.
well i think were all gona see BETTER LUCK TOMORROW on saturday in santa monica... damn its so crazy that karin is in it... she goes to my church n like i go to her house n her dad called me yesterday (even tho i didnt kno who he was so i got my mom to talk to him) well i duno shes real pretty i guess. i never thot about it like that cuz shes like 24 or somethin.
damn that movies gona be tite. its the first moviie that shows how asian kids actually are. juss cuz asians are smart and own academically doesnt mean they dont get mixed up in shiet that all young people get mixed up wit.
anyway go see it and not juss to represent, go see it cuz its a good movie. and check out www.betterlucktomorrow.com... its tite n has a coo trailer to watch.
uh... ohhyeh i got a final in spanish tomorrow. oh well... anyway im out. peace.
4.5.03 what up. well life is pretty coo rite about now. cathy asked me to prom yesterday, which is coo cuz it takes pressure off me n it was cute. i mean it was quite a surprise.
i think i get my car back in a week. they keep on delaying it, but now its in the paint shop, which is coo.
and ever since i got into nw med skoo, ive been happy so thas coo too. i think ill major in econ or somethin, i duno. but its kidna hard cuz i gota take like 4 classes at a time. oh well. its still easier than premed by far.
n im gettin baptized on Easter so thas coo. im happy cuz i just think its sumthin i should do before i go to college.
and cathy bought me new iverson bball shorts n thas coo. i like it when she buys me stuff.
maan the only thing is, northwestern costs so much. i think in the end its around $280,000, or with my scholarship, like $210,000. thas a FERRARI.
i guess lifes bound to get better from wednesday afternoon. that was like the lowest point ever. i gota speeding ticket, bad car accident, had to go to court, caught ditching, 2 saturday work programs, traffic school, felt sick, AND got rejected from every good school ever. everythin juss added up n everythin sucked. i guess its coo how things work out.
ive been thinkin. lifes gona b tough without my car in college. ill be so bored all the time. i think i should blow up a picture of my SE-R n make it a poster for my room.
well lifes gona b tougher without cathy. i mean, i kno everyones going thru the same thing, but its even harder when she'll be in kali while im in chicago. well i guess its juss a test that u gota live thru to get stronger in the end. if ur meant to be, itll happen.
aiite then its my grandmas 80th birthday so im gona eat with my cousins tonite... i think its joe kims birthday thing rite now. too bad i couldnt go see my cathy.
anyway im out. peace
4.3.03 whas up. I GOT INTO NORTHWESTERN HONORS PROGRAM IN MED. that means i got into the northwestern MEDICAL SCHOOL! haha thank GOD so much! it was my first choice, and the northwestern HPME is so much better than Harvard or Yale or Stanford. i guess all those hours spent studying or playing piano etc werent wasted after all; in seven years i will be a DOCTOR and ill be only 24 years old!
anyway ive been elated since yesterday night, when i got my letter. i bought my cousins, aunt, and grandparents sushi today for lunch cuz im so happy. i guess i owe john lee too... oh well.
i cant believe that i actually got picked... they chose 50 students out of however many thousands applied. i know that atleast five people applied from CHS.
well im really happy. thank GOD so much. man after i saw that i was rejected from Harvard and was on Stanford waiting list i was like CRAP. so i prayed n then i got rejected from YALE too. but it doesnt matter because i got into the hardest one, HPME, and i promised God i would get baptised. i kno it sounds dumb, but that was my prayer (seriously) "God please let me into either Harvard or NW HPME and i will promise you i will get baptised."
well i guess im gettin baptised soon. its never smart to try to cheat God out of his side of the bargain.
yay my life has been redeemed. and the cool thing is that since im guaranteed entrance into the northwestern school of medicine, I can major in ANYTHIN i want. which means i can major in religion if i really wanted to; my professor interviewer said she majored in french. i m thinkin about majoring in either economics, philosophy, or chinese.
ANYWAY i gota go so ill write more about how happy i am later. im gona frame my acceptance letter. its really funny how God does things... ill tell u bout it later.
aiite PEACE!
3.30.03 what up. i got into northwestern, but i dont kno bout the honors med program yet. a kid from my church goes there, and he likes it, so thas coo. the thing is, northwestern costs $41000 a year. daMN. and the scholarship they gave me is like nothin; $7,000 a year. damnit, thas still $33k a year... holy crap. i could have SEVEN BMW 330ci's by the time i graduate in 7 years if i dont go to college. or even a Ferrari Modena 360 and a Mercedes S55 AMG. damn...
saturday was coo i guess. i went out, which is good. but we ended chillin at cathys house which was ok. in the end we played poker (wtf) and since no one had money we gambled coins. uh... well i won $2. whoopdeedoo.
after i read crime and punishment, i think ive changed or somethin, or maybe i realize a part of me that is like Raskalnikov, the protagonist. this character is very bitter, and cant stand much of the world, though he still loves some. i think ive realized how bitter i am, tho i may not show it at all times. not just against teachers or police or anti-war prrotesters, either. against just about everyone, except good friends, unlike Raskalnikov. the world doesnt suck, people suck. but thats inevitable, ever since the fall of man, man has not been perfect. anyway, juss gota deal. i like crime and punishment; Raskalnikov and I think alike sometimes... but i dont think ill be killing anyone anytime soon tho.
ive never figured out who would actually read this. but hey its coo that u guys do. im always pleasantly surprised by the counter. aiite then im out. support the war, bush, and our troops. and if u dont id love to argue with ur disgusting liberal ass. aiite peace.
3.29.03 sup i juss went to saturday work program. matt was there. my group, at the end, just sat down and ignored the small mexican lady janitor that was yellin at us. so she juss gave up n let us stop working at 10:30, and we juss sat till 11:15 and left. so thas coo. swps are juss like sittin there and periodically walking around with a trash bag in ur hand.
well hopefully todays the day of my liberation from home. i need to go somewhere besides the gym. and plus im gona visit my car today hopefully.
i saw a Neon SRT-4 in our school lot today. how ugly. but i must give respect cuz those dodge engineers had lots of guts to make a 223hp turboed car that small and that loud. the stock car has no muffler. sure its ugly and i would never drive it, but u gota admit its fast. as in destroy-a-WRX fast. well.... not the STi tho... :)
those that applied to private schools find out their destiny in 3 days. crap. anyway i really think that no matter where i go ill still be a pre-med, and so im still gona be a doctor. the only way that wont happen is if i get into UPenn Wharton School, and then i might do business... but anyway.
i want a pellet gun. a rifle, and a handgun too. now that i have money, i want to buy somethin cool. i could shoot birds, squirrels, and the occasional asshole driver. nice.
aiite im out. peace.
3.28.03 hellz yea its friday. my mom called the auto body shop my car is at and they said to expect it back on April 8th. HELLZ YEA. well.. its still a while off but who cares its gona be back! hahahaaa! and tomorrow im gona visit it to see how its doin! yay! i hope its ok... ive spent countless sleepless nights thinkin bout how my SE-R is doin especially in the hands of strangers. oh well.
anyway i guess thas good news. on the other hand i didnt get into CalTech. which is ok cuz i really didnt want to go there so i pretty much half-assed my application... on the sections i actually filled out. oh well.
so heres the summary... CalTech rejected, MIT rejected, UCLA accepted w/ Regents scholarship, USC accepted with full scholarship, and UChicago with i dont kno. MAN i hope i get into northwestern honors program in medical education. damn.
still waitin on Stanford, Harvard, Yale, Columbia, and UPenn...
damn... aiite peace
3.26.03 hmm i ate at BJs today. i dont kno why i mention that... i guess its cuz i didnt do anythin today.
the Lakers/Rockets game sucked today since the Rockets lost. yao ming didnt do so well, but cmon hes gona be unstoppable in a few years when hes bigger and more experienced. and i didnt seee this cuz i left BJs before the game was over, but i heard yao ming got injured... prob cuz hes so frikin tall and some little guy hit hhim with their head. yea i mean i was happy in the beginning when francis made all those 3s but damn the rockets juss couldnt keep up. makes me mad.
oh well im out. peace
3.25.03 i have almost nothing to look forward to. i am grounded, and this saturday i have a saturday work program, the next i have to get traffic school done or have another saturday work program. well atleast cathy can come and keep me company... i hope?
anyway many things make me sick about CHS, but especially the cars. no, i really am not jealous, even when my SE-R is missin in action and im even stuck with the taurus. its not the beautiful S4s or M3s or even the Mustand Cobras, but rather the Escalades make me sick. have you seen the new blue Escalade with the huge chrome rims that spin all the time like in rap videos? that kid paid $10k for his RIMS. wtf thas the price of a near-new Civic. my dream 18" C5 Racing Hart EVOs only cost around $1500... damn. it makes me wana puke...
have u guys played the sims? its odd how after you play for a while, u begin to view ur actual life as a video game. so when ur moving around in your house, ur really just trying to refill your comfort meter, your hygiene meter, your enjoyment meter, etc. and when ur chattin with the hottie next to you in spanish class, ur really only trying to build up relationship points so that theres a "heart" next to your points and so u can make a move without her gettin defensive. weird.
i was playin bball at the gym and some kid talked to me in spanish today. do i look even the tiniest bit mexican!? and then everyone was lookin at me thinkin i knew spanish n i was like "uh no i dont speak spanish." damn it wouldve been weird if i just bust out some spanish V AP skillz and talked espanolish n messed with them. but no, those AP spaanish skillz dont really exist.
aiite im out. peace.
3.24.03 what up. i had a nice dream yesterday nite; i was at a church retreat with cathy and my church peeps n some ppl from skoo n from harvard (yeah random mix) and we participated in a car race similar to the Toyota GT Celebrity race, with all the race-prepped Celica GT-Ss. and also Adam Corolla from the man show and love line was there racing a ghetto camaro. weird.
hey u think thas weird yuna had a dream of me n john n thomas etc in a minivan with hugh hefner. wtf...
ok about that retard that threw grenades at his own officers, hes a frikin retard and thas juss really sad. and i hope those pows get back safely. yes its really sad, but we must understand that there is always risk involved with war, and a cost is inevitable in attaining our goal; to ensure the future safety of Americans and others around the world from terrorists and September 11ths... in other words, peace. C.S. Lewis once said that "the only legitimate object of war is a more perfect peace." by the way his Screwtape Letters is a great book. its a christian book.
that guy with bowling for columbine is an idiot. i kno i said this yesterday but hes a frikin idiot. Michael MORON as Sr. Dean says. i love it how many of my teachers support the war. when i see pro-war demonstrators i feel that my faith in this country is restored to a certain degree. ok yea.
if u applied to UCSD i hope u got in. go and check online damnit. anyway im out. peace.
3.23.03 pm well the oscars r over n i thot it was extremely boring except for two things.
(one) when that moron from bowling for columbine came on n started spewing his shiet i felt like shooting him and barfing. first off, the academy awards are no place to vent your idiotic ideas about the "fictitious orange alerts" and why bush shouldnt be president. come on; the war is in progress so atleast show some support for the soldiers. and when the crowd booed him until he got off the stage... i felt like it redeemed all movie stars in my eyes. i still think that they are sheltered retards with no idea of the real world, but atleast i think they arent that bad.
(two) when the pianst won all those awards, i was very happy. i saw that movie (with my mom cuz well she teaches piano) and it was extremely good... somewhat played out, i guess, but still a very good movie nonetheless. and the main actor is just a great actor and he did a wonderful job in the movie. i think u should all go see it if ur into movies like that about jews n nazis.
...and also the piece that he always plays, the short and slow one is one of Chopin's Nocturnes. i played it last year for CM and other competition things and i also recorded it so i thot that was coo. its a nice piece.
aiite im gona sleep. i have a spanish vocab quiz... oh well.