3.2.03 9:35pm "...peace for a troubled soul"
i went to the well... and strangely enough the topic was "Gods Reasons for Tragedy." wow. i mean, the message was actually about death and major tragedies, but i certainly feel like the death of my se-r as a major loss. anyway, i really believe that God was trying to tell me to stop worshipping my car and focus on other things that are actually important, like God and people. i mean, it was fun while it lasted, but i think my se-r days are over. my dad wants to sell the se-r as soon as it gets fixed so we get to rip off some poor unsuspecting customer, but ill really miss my se-r. anyway i really dont care what i drive. if johns mature enough to drive the previa, i should atleast be mature enough to drive the accord or taurus. i really dont care anymore...
and i had very nice conversations about car crashes with people at church. damn after i heard mike lee's stories... shiet my accident is nothing. and john soh's too. he totalled his car by hitting a parked car in high school. wow.
so i guess im back to driving the accord or taurus to school... to think i actually at one time would rather have skipped school than to show up in my taurus... shiet i realize now that i got a lot of things backward before my accident.
i guess God really does have a purpose for everything. with this accident, ive learned many important lessons, and ive really been able to see more clearly now. maan i loved that car, but oh well. atleast i hadnt bought rims yet. lol
aiite well i really think ive typed too much today. but i mean i was grounded so whatever. i even played NBA Street for 3 hours today. daaaamn. aiite peace.
3.2.03 pm sup i posted some of pheebs secret santa pics since i had the cd n i think i cant find it. i saved some pics onto my hard drive and so since i feel bad bout losin the cd heres some online... to the right.
3.2.03 am damn theres so much on my mind.
first, im so happy that i have caty to always get my mind off everything thas hectic in my life; the accident, schoolwork, just everythin that gets me down.
second, i NEED to kno where im goin to college... waiting is killing me. so far ive gotten into places i dont even want to go (UCLA, USC, UChicago). well i guess i should be thankful.
third, i still cant stop thinkin bout the accident, watching the other car slam into mine. i dont kno if the accident was over real fast or if i just sat there watchin the car come at me. it was probably a fraction of a second, but it feels like i heard the tires and then i looked at the green civic and just sat there staring. it feels like it went in slo motion... goin on forever and ever. shiet.
anyway im not goin to church cuz today is "the well" so i gota usher for that. so yea all u church peeps go to the well or go to hell. lol
i guess i should also be thankful that i didnt get into an accident any sooner, lets say a few months ago. thank God its 2nd semester senior year; if i could have picked a time for an accident, i would have picked around this time... well maybe not right before catys bday... but hey i should be grateful.
3.2.03 12:26am aiite well i gota wish cathy a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY! tru her bdays not till the third, but whatever i juss got back from her surprise birthday thang. ha i got her tha nicest nautica jacket... shiet it was originally $160 but wit mah silky smooth bargaining skillz... anyway, yea even tho shes 18, shes always gona be my baby.
damn everyones so unoriginal... i think next time theres a birthday we should all juss throw a birthday picnic or some shiet like that. that way we can spend three hours deciding where to go out after and it wont be after everythins closed.
man as i sit here typing i here all these exhausts... roaring down valley circle. shiet... i hope they kno what theyr doin.
i hope my se-r is ok. i hope people are taking good care of it. if they abuse my baby i hope the hood slams on their heads and kills them. dont these nikaz kno??? cant f*k wit my se-r no mo'. haha aiite peace.
3.1.03
"i am the only one to blame for this. soaring on the wings of selfish pride, flew too high, and like icarus i collide..." -worlds apart, jars of clay.
well yesterday i got into a pretty bad accident. im not sure if my baby se-r is totalled. needless to say i feel like shiet. i kno that it will end up being my fault so its even worse. i dont have much to say. after my speeding ticket, i kno that i cant drive till im 18 and my insurance is gona be f*in high. its ok i dont feel like driving at all; the worst thing in my life was watching a green civic with tires squealing come smash into my car. shiet... it was totally unreal.
i guess this site is now dedicated solely to cat. damnit im not gona write bout the accident cuz i dont wana think about it.
but serious... driving isnt fun or somethin to be taken lightly... its a responsibility with fatal consequences. i dont think ill be racing anyone anymore (or for a while atleast). i pray that i learned my lesson.
i think im ok, but my back hurts. after i went home, i ate a chicken sandwich and i almost threw up. i think thats because i felt so sick, now because of my accident. i kno ill be grounded fer a while, but i dont kno.
aiite well take care of yourself and dont drive crazy. u might take ur car for granted now, but u wont when its gone. like the asshole cop that wrote the report said, there are those that have crashed and those that are going to. aiite peace.
2.27.03 sup yall this is my antixanga/site, completely dedicated to my girl caty n my se-r, my 2 favorite things. well today, after tutoring brandon, i was returni home when there was a V6 crap fixed up mustang next to me that wanted to race. i dont understand these things sometimes. well the exhaust was loud but i wasted it. i gota admit tho i first checked her front fender to see if it was a GT; it may be cheap but atleast i wont look like a retard.
n e wayz... i really must talk about my se-r. its tru, i do own an auto, but my wonderful se-r redlines EVERY gear at full throttle. there are 180lb/ft. of torque, compared to the civic Si with around 110. as a great racer once said, "horsepower sells cars, but torque wins races." i was pulling on a 2000 V6 accord coupe even in 3rd gear, which is impressive since their 0-60 is around 7.5, whereas the manual se-r is around 6.9, a number supposedly unreachable by an auto. the se-r has a great suspension setup for a stock car, but i really want to buy springs in the near future, preferably eibach sportlines, which result in a 1.8"-2.0" drop.
well i really dont kno whos gona read this, but i sure hope caty does atleast. so yea, cuz all i need in this life... is me n my girlfren. haha aiite peace.
3.5.03 i juss got back from playing tennis wit caty at the gym. haha it was 3-1 her lead at first, but i OWNED her 4-3 in the end, best of 7. haha i am SO good.
it really sucks that smallville stopped showing new episodes... i mean i understand that the last one with christopher reeve is really cool and all, but i really need new smallville. i mean look... we are at the edge of a monumental development regarding Clark and Lana. Lana, the beautiful Kristin Kreuk, knows that Clark loves her and she loves Clark. cmon we all know that Chloe is nothin but hoes n triks n shes juss gona get brushed off by pimp Clark when the time comes. Lana, on the other hand, is simply the real deal and there is no way Clark can pass up that ass (...it ryhmes). n they are on the verge on really gettin together. damn we NEED new episodes.
by the way, ive seen every episode of smallville. all 21 or so from the first season, and all the ones from this season. i must say, sometimes the stories are somewhat weird, but overall, this show is simply amazing. not to mention kristin kreuk. anyway, channel 5 every tuesday night at 9pm.
aiite yall thanks fer checkin out this site. its ok i dont kno if u came here... i dont have gay spyaim or whatever. so feel free to come often. no one will every kno. oooh crazy.
ok im out. im gona go to cathys house after i eat. peace.
3.4.03 sup yall i was thinkin today... dont u think the world would be so much nicer if every girl was hot? i mean, tru, it would be harder to get girls, but not much harder. i mean... it would juss be nice to have a pretty teacher to look at every period (like ms. baird) and a pretty piano teacher, and a pretty etc...
anyway, im screwed ffor the physics. my mom found out theres a test so she makes me "study" but i spent most of that time drawing pictures. i drew an R33 GT-R, an SE-R, a rally SE-R, and even an SE-R with machine guns and rocket launchers for use in iraq. if u wana see them just ask me.
i saw a new civic Si today... i guess if i were driving my SE-R i would race it, but i was in my accord so i juss followed it. damnit. i would have burned his ass. his 0-60 is 7.6, which is slower than the V6 Accord i burned. n plus if hes a crappy driver itll be even slower. oh well.
aiite sorry nothin really happened today... i just came home n went to the gym with cathy and ran, weights, and played bball. n thas it. well... theres more, but thas not for posting online. lol aiite peace.
3.3.03 pm aiite well someone (heh) told me that it would interesting if i wrote about things think about. so anyway i was thinkin bout somethin that me n some homies were talkin about at around 1am at a cafe in cambridge.
aiite. if i paid you 1 million dollars, would you shoot a random person out of, lets say, los angeles (including where you live)? and also you would magically have your weapon of choice in your hands and a helicopter to whisk you away after. would u do it? it could be a murderer or a rapist, but it could also be an infant..
hm... its actually a tough question. the person would probably be a random person you dont know, but is it worth the risk? it could be your girlfriend or your mom. but... you could use the money for good, such as donating it to a charity in africa and saving hundred or even thousands of lives. so is it worth one life to save hundreds of others? or if you're selfish, you can earn 1 mil, or in other words a house and tons of nice cars, or even a MCLAREN F1. or maybe a Ferrari 575M and a Lambourghini Murcielago and an Aston Martin Vanquish. or maybe just a Nissan Skyline GT-R R34, a Toyota Supra TT, a Mazda RX-7, a Mistubishi Lancer EVO VII, ...etc. cmon... ud be a pimp till the day you died.
i think i wouldnt kill them. i wouldnt be able to sleep knowing that i killed someone's son, daughter, father, mother. but i duno... the other guys i was talkin wit all said they would kill the person. they felt that it would be worth it... save many lives for one life. i mean, if you had to torture a terrorist's child as the only way to save New York from an atomic bombing, i think that you would do it.
anyway, this is the kind of stuff we did in philosophy class at Harvard. if u think its interesting, take that class. if not then dont. i dont care.
anyway thas what im thinkin bout. weird eh? aiite peace.
3.3.03 ha its cathys birthday. happy birthday. =)
ok well they towed my poor car to my house, and it looks... well its not worse than i thought, but its no better either. i mean, my doors on one side cant even come close to closing, but i guess thats expected. atleast my tinted windows are still together. damn... the whole back half is, for some reason, resting almost on my tires. i think the axle is rEALLY messed up. anyway... atleast i get to see how my car would look REALLY lowered. hahha n it looks TITE.
damn i now remember how beautiful my car is in person. damn. it looks really good lowered, but from the right side it looks real bad. like theres a HUGE indent and everythin on that side is just smashhed inwards. shieet.
anyways i drove the 2002 Honda Accord Sedan LX to school today. i really dont care what i drive to school really... i mean ive had FOUR accidents at school this year and i dont think im drivin the se-r to school anymore, juss cuz i love it so much. i think i should really drive the 1994 Ford Taurus GL to school. ha i think its just so much more better to write the full name of cars... like Molten Silver 2002 Nissan Sentra SE-R 175hp 180tq w/ viscous limited slip diff. well... its broken so whatever.
i guess ill take pics later. wow i miss driving the se-r.
and again, cathy happy birthday. i kno i talked a lot bout my car, but u kno that ur first in my heart... uh hehee
aiite yall latez.