I Hate Myself For Losing You
She ran down the sidewalk
after him, he was walking away from her like he always did when she refused to
tell him what was wrong. She would get pissy and get
an attitude and be a bitch to him but wouldn’t even tell
him what was going on and he would get tired of it and would just walk away.
They used to be in love,
they used to think that they were meant to be together but that didn’t work out
like they had planned. Now, they were just friends and he had moved on with
somebody. She missed him as her friend.
“Joey, wait up. Hold on.”
”Calli, if you’re not going to tell me what’s going
on I’m just going to leave. You’re always like this, even when we were going
out. I mean you never knew how to tell people what’s going and you still don’t.
You act like you’re on your period and expect nobody to notice or wonder why.”
“I…I…”
”Just don’t Calli, we’re friends, I just wish that
you could trust me. I wish you could just talk to me.”
She knew why they weren’t together. She never trusted him,
or herself for that matter. She wanted to have him back in her life but she
didn’t know what to do.
“You want to know what’s
wrong. You do you really want to know what’s going on with me Joey. Fine then
let me tell you.
I woke up today, Woke up
wide awake, in an empty bed, staring at an empty room I have myself to blame
for the state I’m in today, and now dyin’ doesn’t
seem so cruel. And I don’t know what to say, And I
don’t know anyway, anymore. I hate myself for losing you I’m seeing it so clear
I hate myself for losing you. What do you do when you look in the mirror and
staring at you is why he’s not here? I got what I deserved, hope your happy. Cause every time I think of you
with her, it’s killing me inside. And now I dread each day, knowing that I
can’t be saved, from the loneliness of living without you.”
He stated walking away from
her, not really wanting to hear the rest of what she had to say. He knew he had
asked for it but it hurt to hear it. She walked up next to him and kept telling
him what was going through her mind.
“I don’t know what to do,
not sure that I’ll pull through, I wish you’d know. I hate myself for losing you, I’m seeing it so clear. What do you say when everything
you said is the reason why he left in the end. How do you cry when every tear
you shed won’t ever bring him back. I hate myself for
losing you.”
It was all true, right
before he broke up with her, she poured her guts out and he left her after
that. He knew what he would get if he ever asked her what was going on because
he would never be able to deal with the complex beautiful woman that was
standing to his side.
“I’m sorry Calli…I just…”
”Run Joey, run like you did last time. I’m sorry I never tell you what I feel
because you always run away. I hate myself for losing you. Realize that but I’m
moving on. Run away Joey, you’re a coward.”
Kelly
Clarkson
I woke up today Woke up wide awake In an empty bed Staring at an empty room I have myself to blame For the state I'm in today And now, dyin' doesn't seem so cruel And oh, I don't know what to say And I don't know anyway, anymore I hate myself for losing you I'm seeing it all so clear I hate myself for losing you What do you do when you look in the mirror And staring at you is why he's not here You got what you deserved Hope your happy now Cause every time I think of her with you It's killing me inside And now I dread each day Knowing that I can't be saved From the loneliness of living without you And oh, I don't know what do Not sure that I'll pull through I wish you'd know I hate myself for losing you I'm seeing it all so clear I hate myself for losing you What do you do when you look in the mirror And staring at you is why he's not here I hate myself for losing you And oh, I don't know what to do Not sure that I'll pull through I wish you knew I wish you knew And oh, I don't know what to say And I don't know anyway, anymore I hate myself for losing you I'm seeing it all so; I'm seeing it all so clear I hate myself for losing you What do you do when you look in the mirror? And staring at you is why he's not here What do you say when everything you said Is the reason why he left you in the end?How do you cry when every tear you shed?Won't ever bring him back again
I hate myself
for loving you