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| Unfound Desire by � coondogk9 * * ** C * * The sweat poured from his body as a hot breeze felt like ice chilling the rivulets running down his back. The salt stung his eyes and burned like fire as it mixed with tears streaking his face. The night sounds echoed through the silence. Even the silence made a loud noise. His heart drummed out a melody he didn�t want to hear. She was all he had and he�d lost her. She�d been abused so much, so often and he feared for her life every night as he lay awake staring at the moonlit ceiling. He hadn�t heard from her for days and knew she loved this spot and he took it often to chance meeting her but the last several days he�d not seen or heard from her. No one seemed to know where she disappeared to. In fact, he could find no one that even knew her. He was lonely and afraid. He missed her greatly. He stumbled over tiny things his feet and heart were so heavy yet still he trudged on. He�d never give up searching for her. He may never have her for his own but he�d make sure she knew he was there for her if and when she ever needed him. endless hours they�d talked together and he listened to her sad tales with a tear. He could do nothing but console but if that is all he could do then that was all he could do. It never seemed enough. If only there was a solution. He saw none and neither did she. They would have to be content with things like they were. He remembered to the second the last time they�d talked. He remembered the fragile kiss, the warm touch of her hand on his face. He remembered her words whispered quietly. He saw the reflection of moonlight in her damp eyes. He remembered the sweet smell of her body, like a bloodhound he could track the scent even now if it were to drift his way. Her skin soft and fresh was like no other he�d ever touched. It sent pleasant chills through him every time they met and they touched. It was like static electricity going through him. He�d never known this kind of feeling before and it puzzled him at first, then he thought he understood. But why had it happened now? why couldn�t it have been before? Why and why, he asked no one! He looked around and discovered he didn�t know where he was. he�d never been this far before. He must have walked for hours and not known. His mind had wandered often the past few days and he frequently found himself in some unfamiliar place he�d not intended to go. * * * * * * Then he heard it. A girl laughing faintly in the distance. He ran and ran as the sound became louder and more clear. Then he saw her. Only it wasn�t her. It was a young couple engaged in private acts and he�s surprised them as well as himself. He felt ashamed and before he could apologize they ran away in the dark with her screaming: WAIT FOR ME. He stood staring at the blanket on the ground and it brought back memories. Memories he tried to shake, but they kept coming back. * He must turn back now. it would be daylight before he got back home as it was and he�d not slept in days or longer. Who knows, or even cares. He certainly didn�t. All he wanted was to find her. He may even take her away if he did find her. But he knew she�d have none of that. She had others who depended on her and wouldn�t think of breaking their hearts. He guessed they would feel much like he did now. No, he couldn�t do that. He knew it. He�d thought the same things before so why would he think it again? He was lost within himself and didn�t know if he�d ever find his way back alone. Even now his mind was asking him questions. How can his mind act independent from himself? He was afraid now. What if he lost his mind? What if he�d ALREADY lost it? What if he weren�t even alive? Maybe that was it. Maybe she was safe and it was him that had disappeared! Was she searching for him instead? The ghostly figure touched him on the shoulder and spoke with lips unmoving. Shall we go back now he asked? Shall we��������.and there was silence. And there was total darkness. And then there was nothing. O Vision Quest |