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| Hate Me Not, Hate Me Do by � chibilunacat The world represses Those who hate And live a tortured lie, I live a life Of love and hate Agony and pain. I thank the heavens For my life And curse the ones who don't. Love me not to leave And hold me not to push Abuse me just for fun. I hate the haters Of ill twisted fate, That righfully deserve, Tempt me not With ill gotten love For fear I will be blind. I love not those Who hate me so For being so disgusting. Kick me down Punch me around And hold me while I die. Love me more Than you loved before For the world is full of hate. Repress not feelings Nor go to war With sinners or with saints. Love me not to watch me die Just be there while I cry While I wilt away; This world does hate me And why not? For I hate it too. It hates me for a reason I surely don't know why, But yet I do. My pain can stand No more fear, Nor fear my coming pain. Hold me close Push me away Save your anguish another day. Please don't hate my differences, And I'll not hate yours For fear we'll love another. Kiss me not to tell a lie Punch me not for truth Hold me just the same- I'll kick you hard While you are down I know you'll do the same. Love me not For I love you Yet I know not why! I write my heart My soul, my feelings The words I will devise. Punch me hard Kick my shins I will surely kick your gut. Its well past midnight, I need no sleep- Just a pen and paper. Read these words And understand I hate and love as one! Repressed my fear Repelled my anger Only cried in pain. The words are legable, Give it a try It surely describes you too! Why do I find The ones I hate So darn attractive? A world of controversy Of love and hate At evils fingertips. It has no meaning But is understood- Full of critics and experts. Meaning is lost In love, in hate In this spiral notebook- The ink is dry In full supply But what will supply an answer? It has no feeling No hope or reason Exists for you to toy with. Please hurt me Kick me, kill me Anything with love. I assure you appreciation For punishment you must give But don't go to far- Don't use words Or lash with the tongue- Those scars will never heal. A belt or bat Wood or metal Any tool will suffice. Love me not to miss me I will one day be gone Do not be afraid. Death was invited, Not pressed away still, Do you make any sense? Read me carefully Again and again I'll spare you no remorse. Loves a lie As well as hate Just words to describe emotion. I feel not love From more than family I'm sure it is not there. I hated my life And welcome it still To write these words of heart. Sorrow sweeps the overwhelming And blankets it like snow, Your words hang like frost. I am not through With loving you Yet I love another. A crazy jumble, A mixed up puzzle Fills my swimming head. I hold my head You bang the dead But yet they are alive. I cry for you And me alone There is no reason why. Your mind is racing With unexplainable thoughts As you read mine. It makes no sense But is perfectly clear With what this all does mean. A long lasting puzzle As red as my hair And burning with deep passion. A writters thoughts On corrupting powers In my mind alone. Freckles as a dusty path With droplets of fallen rain It soothes my pain. An understanding of what is there Bares no reason why- With each sickening thud I feel so dead But darn it I'm still alive. Abuse me more For another day My eyes are swelling shut. It feels so good Falling on wood My hands covered in blood. I take it hard I'm not abused It's just wishful thinking. Call me crazy Or sane instead I'll tell you not why! I hate you not For hating me- But loving me too much. Depression sucks But you'll pull through I assure you because I did. Hold me close Do not let go Forgive me for pulling away. I love you for your hate I love you for your pain I love you cause I do. I wish I knew What I'm talking about I know no such person. Will you be there? Do you care? Who are you anyway? This world does hate me Don't feel left out- For it hates you too. When life has you down Like a derogatory clown Kick it in the face- Put up a fight, Stomp on some heads Never lose your place! Keep on fighting And I will too- Just to watch us lose. You win no battles Against love or hate- Just hang your head in shame. The world is sick So be sicker I'll teach you a thing or two. Love me not Show me hate, Hit me in the gut. I love no other As I hate you So love or hate me too. Terra Mae 8/16/97 |