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| When I First Came To Know Myself by � butterflydancer707 When I first came to know myself, my mother said, I was only three-years-old and travelling up in the mountains with my grandparents. My grandfather and grandmother, loved me very much, and took me everywhere with them, and taught me everything. At that time I knew my place in the world, I knew where I come from and where I was going, everything was clear to me. That is when I first came to know myself. Then the priest came in his black robe and took me from my people and I lost everything. I came to know myself again later in life, I quit drinking and it all came back to me, my grandparents teachings, When I first came to know my self, I replied I was already a woman almost 40-years-old. Until that time I had no knowledge, I had no place in the world, I knew nothing about my people. When I first came to know myself I was sitting inside the Sweat Lodge praying with you, my mother listening to your gentle voice speaking in our language to the spirits, greeting them as though they were old friends come to visit. It was very dark and the air was thick with cedar. I sat bent, with tears streaming down my face, crying because I felt so safe and for the first time in my life I felt clean. That is the time when I first came to know myself. |