[A/N: This is through the eyes (or thoughts?) of an obsessed guy. Major props to the Offspring (this time for “Special delivery” that this whole story is based on, which shows a whole lot) and props to Eminem (for “Stan” which helped me too), and you know I don't mean it (cause killing Britney in this way just wouldn't be any fun *innocent smile*)]

THE VOICES TOLD ME…

One day. One day I’ll be meeting you for real. Soon. Not long now. I know what you do, when you leave the house, I know where you go. I keep notes. I’m not going to let this chance slip by. One day I won’t stay in the car on your street, no Britney, one day I’ll be meeting you for real. Not just asking for your autograph in a letter. Not trying to get your attention in the crowd. No, one day I’ll knock on your door. When you are alone. I’m keeping track of what you do, soon enough the time will come.

Can’t see you too clearly right now, the train is poring down. Good, cause now you can’t see what I do. I can’t believe you did this to me. It was bad enough that you never answered my letters. I know you got them since I left them myself when no one was home. But I know who you left the house with last night. I told you I loved you and that we were soul mates, what more could you ask for? And you go with that guy, and coming home in the morning. I bought something for you when you were asleep. I got it in my car, right here beside me. You’re gonna fall for me. They told me you would. They always know best, and it’s no use trying to run away from them. They are always there. Cause they know, they know Britney, they know where I am. I tried to get away from them, in all kinds of ways, but the voices wouldn’t stop whispering to me. All the things we could do together. They said you were gonna fall for me, long time ago. Now some of them changed their minds. They say that I should stop you, so you won’t cheat on me anymore. I can’t believe you cheated on me…

You saw him again. Now they all changed their minds. We could have been perfect for each other Britney, don’t you know? Your mom just left the house, only you there now. I got a special present for you my dear. I’m gonna place it here in the gun, where it belong… I’m going to give it to you today.

Just a few more minutes, then it will be all yours, cause the voices told me to blow you away. I’m gonna blow you away. Just a few minutes more, then I’ll go. We could have been a perfect couple. Not like me and my ex was. I didn’t mean to hurt her, I just got so mad. She’s alright now though, she lived. You won’t. Today I’ll meet you for real, today you’ll fall for me, today I’ll blow you away, just one more minute now…

Slowly, so people won’t notice me if they look out the window. He’s not picking you up tonight Britney, no more cheating. So, I’m here, just knocked on the door. You don’t seem to hear though. I knock again, just to make sure, a little harder this time. I can’t use the bell, he never does. I want you to believe that I’m him, arriving early. I can hear you now, I can hear you coming closer to open the door. I’m gonna blow you away with my gift. My special gift. If you hadn’t cheated on me I wouldn’t have to do this.

And so you open the door, you look a bit confused. Aww, don’t pretend that you don’t know me, we were meant to be.

“Hello, I got something for you” I hear myself say. The voices told me to blow you away. This special delivery is for you. Yeah, now you’re scared. I can see the fear in your eyes. It’s no use to pray, really. I saw you cheat on me, I saw you leave with him.

Please? Should a simple ‘please don’t hurt me’ help? Fine, I’ll let you believe that I won’t harm you, just like I did with Carrie.
Just like her you believe me when I lower the gun. But you see, you can’t kill a man with no hope. The voices told me to blow you away…

Turn around now, turn around and walk away. Your blood is all over my shirt. The silencer did it’s job. No one even saw me, except you. But you cheated on me Britney, you knew I wouldn’t take it just like that. He’ll find you in just, oh ten minutes. Your body can lie there, it doesn’t matter anymore, you’re gone. I’ll go home now, maybe call Carrie and tell her I’m over you. We could work things out now, cause you aren’t there to distract me. If I can’t have you then nobody will, and then the voices told me to blow you away.