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| VUSANI, aka (DEREK) |
| LIFE LIFE - NUMBER AND A NAME DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY LIFE - LIKE THE ACTOR AND THE PLAY WHEN THE CURTAIN RISE YOU MUST TAKE TO THE STAGE YOU WANNA, STAND ON THE MOON YOU WANT IT ALL TO SOON YOU MUST GIVE IT ALL AWAY IT'S THE PRICE THAT YOU MUST PAY LOVE - SOMETIMES EASY, SOMETIMES STRAINED LIKE THE PICTURES THAT YOU PAINT SOMETIMES CLEAR AND SOMETIMES GREY WOH LOVE IS LIKE A BOOK WITH YOUR WRITING ON THE PAGE BUT THE WORDS THAT YOU WRITE NOT THE WORDS YOU WANNA SAY YOU WANNA STAND ON THE MOON YOU WANT IT ALL TO SOON YOU MUST GIVE IT ALL AWAY IT'S THE PRICE THAT YOU MUST PAY TIME - TIME JUST DRIFTS AWAY LIKE THE ENDING OF A LIFE LIKE THE PARTING OF A WAY OH TIME - TIME WILL NEVER WAIT LIKE THE THOUGHTS ALL IN MY HEAD CAN'T BE MADE TO STAY AND YOU, YOU WANNA STAND ON THE MOON YOU WANT IT ALL TO SOON YOU MUST GIVE IT ALL AWAY IT'S THE PRICE THAT YOU MUST PAY The levellers |
| Derek was a great guy and there are so many nice things that one can say about him, but I thought that I should print an email to show you just how kind hearted he is, and also print one to show you how funny he was also, he truelly was a treasure to all that knew him, god bless his soul. |
| A song I dedicated to Derek |
| Hey Fran, I am sorry that I haven't responded to specific posts of any kind for a while, but I did want to write to you. This, I am sure is the most bizarre rant of mine yet, but please read. I apologize, but since I could not respond to all of your posts individually, I will just write this general letter to try to catch up. I guess you never received my email did you? I just mentioned a few things, and that I always wanted to visit the Giant's Causeway on your north coast. It sounds really mystical to me. Because that is what a lot of your countrymen that I have known have said about it. I don't want to meet the Little People though, or a Banshee, as they would probably just kick me in the shins, and play tricks on me, and the Banshee would make me drop dead of a heart attack. If you have ever heard a peacock scream at night, well, they sound like that. Anyway, I just wanted to write to you and to tell you that I do care also, just like all the other people here do, and wish that I could say something good. I think that CindyB should send you the Hope Creature that I sent to everyone. He really is a good creature, and doing his best for all of us. I know that this is childish yes, but I am still a child. In that I always want to play, and not think too much, and just to enjoy my youth. I don't have youth, but I am determined to go through my second childhood any second now. I live alone, so no one can tell me that I can't. So I will do so. Where's the sparklers!? Where's the Lincoln Logs?! Where's my Lego Set!? Dammit! I want a set right now! and I'm gonna turn blue from holding my breath until I get them! And I am gonna roll on the floor while I am doing so too! Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Anyway, I assure you that I have been the lowest of the low, for both mental situations, and life's situations, and it sometimes is a wonder that I am still alive myself. In other words, I can truly empathize with the feeling of hopelessness and despair, and loneliness and negative feelings of all stripes. You are not the only person to have felt this way I assure you. That being said, I want to you to know that since you are still a young woman, you still have a lot of living to do. You just never know what the future might hold for you. I know there can be stumbling blocks and real down days, but every once in a while something whimsically wonderful can happen to us too. I can only say this, because I have even seen it in my own low-level life, and have to believe that that is a fact. I won't go into my own life's story, but believe you me, that I have been there, and that includes suicide attempts and mental hospitals. My oldest sister's daughter-in-law killed herself a few years ago, and my sister almost never got over it. She went to a sorta S.O.S group (survivors of suicide) for many months to help herself. It was devastating to her. She came to terms by now I think, but that was only because of the support from people who were survivors of the same thing. She wasn't even all that close to her daughter in law, but just how the fact that this girl shot herself in front of her husband without giving an explanation first was just so traumatic to her, that she never mentioned nor would talk about it again to any of us. Just went to the support group. Apparently it helped, and I am so thankful for that. I never knew the whole story, but it was a tragedy. This is just to give you a perspective on the effect you might have on others regardless on whether they think about you or not. Any death is a shock to a family, but you would be missed and cried over. I assure you. Have you ever heard the phrase; "You don't know what you have until it's gone?" Well that is the case with family and friends of people that die. I know sometimes that we are just so caught up into our own selves, that we tend to be ignorant of others that we really shouldn't be, but sadly, this is sometimes the case. I wrote about a few funerals I went to quite awhile back, and they still were all the same. We still grieve for the people, because we will miss them for the rest of our lives. The funerals are more for the living than they are for the dead. We who die, go to wherever, but those we leave behind have to stay here and exist. Especially those of us that are touched by suicide. If you think not having someone around by them killing themselves makes any of us feel any better, I am afraid that you are just plain wrong. I have never known an instance of that to the contrary. I had a high-school classmate that was shot to death by the police a year after our graduation, (kinda what is referred to here as "Death by Cop" suicide), and he was a very seriously disturbed boy; but that did not make me feel any less sad, that any human should have ended up like that at so young of an age. I have seen people at funerals that although they didn't know the person personally, would say something like "they did this and that, and it really made a difference to me". Even without contact with a lot of people, you will always have an effect on someone! Any breathing human being cannot help but to do so. It really is not possible to be totally non-existent and alive. I don't think so anyway. Just suppose you are a coma victim and in a hospital bed for years, you still affect the doctors, the nurses, and the few angelic volunteers that come to hospitals to help you. I guess you would just have to live on the moon to get away from every one physically, but you still might not escape, as all the people you have ever met and had contact with still contain memories of you. Bad or Good, you might can go away physically, but you will never go away mentally regardless. And this includes me! As I am now acquainted with you, and you can never leave me or my memory for as long as I live. I remember SlimFran from my auld city of Belfast, Did you know her? I did, and am very grateful that I did so. You might have noticed, that many people here no longer have their loved one's, but we still have them with us in our hearts, our minds and our memories. Just like your father, and as you still remember him, and you always will, so shall be the same for you to others. I do not think I am lying on this, but you know what I mean. Correct me if you think I am wrong. I can not give an opinion myself of where we go after we die, but for here on earth, it really hurts to lose anyone. I don't care who they are. There were people protesting Timothy McVie's execution, and cried after that, so I think after something like this, you and me probably would have a few mourners also! Regardless of whether we realize it or not. You said that you needed something to occupy your time, and were pretty bored. I heard a lot of good responses, and you didn't seem up to a few of them. I think all of them you should look in to. Although I was a volunteer in something or another for many years myself, I am sure that you can find something to do. Someone mentioned that you like to write, and made a reference about writing a book. Well, that is a good start! Just look at me! I write all sorts of drivel, without making a lick o' sense, but I still do it. Plus, you don't have to actually share it with anyone, you can just keep it to yourself. There was a thing I was informed of many years ago that I thought was great when it came to writing. All your thoughts, frustrations, hopes, dreams, and wishes should be written down on paper one night. Then you should burn it, and scatter the few ashes while you wish for it to be remembered by the cosmos. It's usually done during the solstice, but will work at any time. It's kind of like a consecrated prayer to one's self, and no one would ever know what you said but yourself, and it might actually feel better knowing that you said what you wanted to say without any other person arguing over it or rendering an opinion. I have done this many times on really dark, dreary, days and nights. Even if it was only the angels that were listening, it has comforted me. Writing something, anything, is great therapy if you ask me, (or otherwise, I don't think they would have sold diary books for a few hundred years by now) and you can always edit out the stuff that you do not like. Or, at least that is what I do. But I ain't the brightest crayon in the box, and never took a writing course, so I don't know. Doesn't matter to me! I have never followed the herd anyway, and some writing critics seem to me to be among the stupidest of people that just can't "get it". Write! Don't listen to anyone else. Do it for yourself. Since I don't have the resources to come visit your part of the world, and visit the places that I want, I will rely on you to describe all the things around you that you have experienced. I am still curious about the Giant's Causeway, and want to know more about it. Sorry to be so ignorant, but, have you ever seen the movie "The Secret of Roan Innish"? It's stuff like that that I think of from time to time. I want to date a Harpie sometime. They would be really fun downtown at the water gardens! I wanted to visit the Hebrides Isles once because of what a former BBC reporter and musicologist told me about them and the music there. Quite a tickle to an imagination to someone like myself. I am from the hot and dry State of Texas, so you can understand me thinking of somewhere I can't imagine that is not like here. I think about Canada too this time of year. Jammer thinks about Kentucky and Colorado. I can't tell you why though. Maybe you think about the Bahamas. Oh, I also think about Bemidji, Minnesota, for personal reasons of my own. Hmmm, Sorry for the length of this. That's all the drivel that is drabble! Film at 9:00! Sincerely, Vusani -The world is so full of a number of things, I'm sure we should all be as happy as kings. |
| One of the many letters Vusani wrote to me on the ng |
| B R O C O L L I A L E R T |
| I have just one question dearest Fran, Do you not believe me when I have ever told you I have felt overwhelming pain like yourself? And do you not believe me when I say that I am concerned for you and wish you well, and that I could do something? And do you not believe me when I say, "If there is anything I can do for you, I shall do it"? Don't give up on me girl. Just look forward to the day that you can visit Texas, and have all the fun you can hold. Right? If you get bored with me, then I know some others that have a lot more excitement up their sleeves. Just look forward to that! Hell, until you have gone fishing with me and Julie, you never have had a more bizzare and wonderful time! Trust me on this. Vusani |
| Another post from Derek |
| This story below is so hilarious |
| So it began........ Grrrrrrrruumph! Grorkenskiwabble thibbledorph! WA! wwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Yaddamosky! Urlikeinesomiloskonuuuuk! Fribble Frabble Rift Raft, and Rabble! AHHHHHH, Montague, you are not of the haberdasherie clan ya schmuck! Yibble Fribble Wonkie Dribble how does your garden grow? Riding on Bells, living in the Seychilles, and putting them all in a row.....Now the mite bites and nothing is right, but the A/C repair guy charges way too much! NyQuill! NyQuill! We all scream for NyQuill! and Bourbon while we distill moonshine-sunshine through our laser printers! Drabble Rabble funtime Babble, I want to know where the poppycock grows! Living here in Kentucky, being kinda pucky, and not knowing where my sister ever goes! Button! Button! Who's got the Button? Why, the Evil-White Goat-Herd from a rock n' roll band does. And no yuolinietineous Gorb can tell us otherwise. crummyworthlesskitchenimplementsforthehungry.org! The End. Vusani > Fran>> Oh my goodness u truelly r mad man. was funy :o) > Why, Thank you Fran! I always appreciate your comments. Oh no! There's a brocolli crawling on your sweater! Hold still while I brush it off............. > A brocolli, LOL did you get it man? Where on earth did you get a > "brocolli crawling"? I got it from because there was one crawling on your sweater. I can sense these things quite well. It could have been worse, like an egg-beater or an engine block crawling up your sweater. Be grateful that it was only broccolli. These are easily subdued if you know their weaknesses. My oldest sister once had a whole head of cabbage that attached itself to her sweater once, and although tenacious, cabbage heads can easily be removed with simple Lysol disinfectant spray and a shovel. They are horrible little vegetables, that attack little children and give them nightmares. Kohlrabi and Serrano peppers usually go for the pants and socks so are easier to notice, but they are still not to be trifled with. Now, cauliflower is the most dangerous of all the violent vegetables, especially the older ones, and they go straight for the undergarments. If you don't get to them right away, they become just like vegetarian barnacles. Sometimes, you have to use super-heated formaldehyde gas to remove the little bastards. Just a tip for any future contact you might have with these natural predators of the vegetable world. I want to produce a film sometime to teach all school-age children proper safety techniques for handling live vegetables, and to not eat them until they are very dead. Or otherwise disaster could result! Sincerely, Vusani Sincere >>Jammer .. OMG, I laughed and laughed at this!! >>Jeff ... Dearest Vusani >I recently found a tomato, green and happy in nature. Lately though, it has >began turning a brighter shade of red with each passing day. >My question is, what have I done to make this tomato so angry, if it gets >any red-er, is there a possibility of stroke or something? >signed >"wondering in Denver" Dear Wondering in Denver, I really have no idea why this tomato is so angry with you. It could very well be something that you said, because tomatoes have thin skin and all, but I can tell you that a red tomato is a very angry tomato, which is a highly dangerous tomato! I would suggest you do a pre-emptive strike on the little son-of-a-bitch with burning magnesium powder and ammonium nitrate and diesel fuel. Now the Neighborhood Association might not appreciate this approach, but you come first before those nasty, evil tomatoes that upset everyone! Save yourself! You give 'em one little inch, and they take a mile. Trust me, I have seen this before. Oh, and seek professional help for your obsession with tomatoes. It's starting to worry me. Sincerely, Vusani >>>Fran.... >Oh you are so flippin brilliant, you gotta write a book, u r way funnier >than even terry prattchet and he has some weird style of writin' u musta >read some of his books, oh pretty pretty plz Vusani, write a book or 59 cuz >I'd love to read them, plz???? pretty plz???? LOL i had to save that one cuz >it's so damn funny. >>Antbot.... AAAAAGH! I was drinking a cup of tea! SOME of it continued its course down the digestive tract... In future, Vusani, If I see one of your posts, I will make sure I am not drinking or eating anything!!! LOOL. Thank you Antbot for that comment! Do you want me to forwarn you in the future for safety reasons? I would be happy to do so, as I have a lot of psychotic writing energy built up lately.............. Vusani |
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