i helped him with his blog. arent i a great gf? huh? huh? my sis is the coolest. im really starting to feel alot closer to her. yeah.. lifes grand. it really is. im dreading the next snap of the rubber band...

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since i really didnt like the first in the list, im putting this one down(that did show up) cuz anyway, i dont really know the first one all taht well...

My anthem is "Creep", by Radiohead. I'm such a fuckin' weenie at times, but I mean well. I have a big heart, but I'm afraid to TALK to people, much less help them. People may be irritated at my spineless nature, but I have other things to worry about. Find out what YOUR anthem is HERE!

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ive lost my social skills. people i used to be so comfortable around, look at me when i talk with contempt and disgust. i feel like everyone things im an idiot. why? its like, the person i am now, is only completely comfortable around ken, and maybe jess.... i wish it wasnt like that, i want to change, but i cant. it slike, i have no social skills at all, but cant do anything about it. *frowns, and then starts to cry*

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oh my god, i am so fucking proud of myself. this is just so friggin swesome. isnt it purdy? yay. it didnt even take me too long! just the finding of the images is hard. *beams proudly like a kid who has just learned to tie their shoelaces*

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this is GREAT!!! Guess what??? I'm gonna die of cancer!!! HAHAHAHA. oh yeah, cant get enough of that saccharine (right spelling?) ever hear of that drink called tab? it has a warning on it saying that the use of that product may cause cancer. tehehehe. yeah. i tried to make my own layout based on the way this one chick at magitek makes hers, it looks like it has frames, but it doesnt. its really cool click here the links all work, but it doesnt show up really good because of the variety of colors in the background. that sucks. if anyone knows of good pics, that i may be able to use, please like, send me some, or tell me where i can get them (i promise to link to you if they are yours.) or just tell me how you did them. i dunno. whatever. its just really hard to make images when you only have a trial version of photoshop. i hope he can get the serial number soon. that would be awesome. :) yeah...

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*sobs* i miss him so much

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(personal rant directed towards dad) so my education is more important huh? then why is it that you say i should not take pre ap classes so that i will have more time not doing homework, so that i can help my mom out around the house, and do everything? why is it that you feel like i should be doing housework instead of bettering my education??? is it because you are so close minded that you still think that women are only good for pleasure and doing housework?!?!?!?! well you know what? we are better then that! im not gonna be spending the rest of my life only taking care of household matters, not ever going out, having someone like you plop your ass down on a chair when its dinner time, and smacking your food making the most annoying sounds. my husbands gonna be better then that. better then you. hes not gonnna be ab inconsiderate idiot who cares about nothing else but himself. im gonna be out and earning money. im gonna live life, instead of being someones bitch. i want a better life. i wish mom had a better life.

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poem i want to turn in. the assignment was to write a love poem type thing. it had to involve love or whatever. is it good? something that would be decent to turn in to a teach? or is it a bit too depressing?

La Mer

The blood flowed from the wound
Memories passed by in a flash
Yelling voices
Shattered glass
Stolen moments in the halls
All is lost now

She feels no longer
Her pulse so slow
He stumbles in the door
Sees her
Panics

The road, bathed in red, is a surreal scene
The lights flash
The men run in
The siren fades as the road returns to the normalcy it is used to

They work to save her
�she�s slipping away�
�It doesn't look too good�
The tears flow from their orifices
Emotions run wild

The waiting room is so solitary
(hello?)
He feels the cold creep in
He remembers back to when she was there
(i�m still here)
How far away the cold was then
Yet now it surrounds him
Holds him in suspense
The cold holds his dearest in its icy grip
(cant you see me?)

The doctors approached him
Words were exchanged
His legs grew unsteady
They failed him this time
Collapsed in a chair
He sat
His head in his hands
His world, over

He feels the world closing in on him
He needs time alone
Away from this sterilized coffin

Late
Darkness envelopes the car
Darkness, not for long

Rounding a curve
Hugging the cliff face
He swerves to miss a stalled car
The car takes off
Flies into the abyss
A flash of light
The heat scorching

The ship goes out
They gather on deck
Taking the urns, they open them
The ashes were scattered
The two became one

The ocean consumed all

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well, i guess some good came out of saying that, and opening the soon to be but hopefully not gonna happen wound. purged my tearducts a little... i really hope it doesnt happen. that would suck. i would miss him alot... *sad pouty face*

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*yawn* i so tired.......

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of course no one ever posts comments

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